I've studied them and studied them after learning about them in my metaphysics coursework.
I had an epiphany after waking up in the early morning... this morning.
I used to be in a very abusive relationship, a marriage of 15 years.
Cheating was what seemed a weekly occurrence and yet I was the kind of person who believed in forever, that everything could be worked out.
Well, it didn't. It always takes two, doesn't it?
When the day finally came that she had an exit affair with my best friend, I became numb. Dead inside. And the worst of it all... suicidal.
Long story short (because I have it in a post... somewhere on here), I was saved at the last minute by a powerful Lady Angel.
Now, snap to modern day and I've often wondered how I can be kind and even loving (in a friendly way) to my ex-wife after all that had transpired... all the abuse besides the cheating.
The Lady Angel became my Archetype...
It finally dawned on me early this morning.
THAT'S how I'm able to be what I am to my ex-wife today.
THAT'S why I can be kind, and helpful.
So when I pause to reflect I am ruled by her as an archetype. We're all ruled by an archetype, she just became mine, probably due to the other worldly nature of our interaction.
I revere Lilith and Aphrodite (which are actually linked metaphysically as two sides of the same coin).
I have a succubus mate placing me on the left hand path.
What a strange soup!
From all logic it all should conflict. When I think of all these things I have no idea how the mix can work, but it does and it works seamlessly. What doesn't seem likely simply just does.
It simply just "is".
Some people find me odd, some find me simple. What I am is complex hidden under a simple veneer.
Christmas was kind of blah this year as far as the mundane goes.
What wasn't mundane was Maiya.
I swear... if I could just figure a succubus out I'd... well I'd...
Well it'll never happen so why bother to think what I could do?
Little Miss Maiya has struck me as being the type of succubus that is succuless. Lol. I finally decided that she must not be a succubus.
But that she is still bound to me, and I to her.
That she is faithful and true, loving in her own way, but that sex just wasn't going to be there for me.
I kind of doubted that she was a succubus, but then I would remember what my letter stated and who I wrote it to petitioning for a succubus (Lady Lilith).
Oh, friends, I just threw in the towel.
I decided that she was succuless and sex just wasn't going to be a factor in our relationship.
Christmas I was here alone as we had all had our Christmas on differing days.
So, there I was alone and I could feel Maiya very strongly with me as a comfort, a companion.
That's when I gave up.
I decided I didn't care about the sex anymore enough to mention it to her.
I decided I didn't care that no sex was very strange for a succubus and that honestly it didn't matter what I thought, lol.
I finally surrendered. Whatever will be will be. She's mine and I am hers and we just have to make it anyway we can together.
Boys and Girls, out of nowhere she laid the SMACK down me!
I had the best succubus sex of my life!
Now being thoroughly boggled, all I can conclude is that to her the bond was worth more than the sex and that once I had surrendered to her our bond was fulfilled, her requirements had been met, and about an hour or two of sensual play culminating with her presence head-cradling me while I had a screaming orgasm later... I think I might have bought a clue ;)
But... Frankly, I'm still in shock about the whole thing... But... she wasn't sexual... But... I... She...
Does anyone out there really claim to know succubi through and through? If so gimme a call and I'll prove you damn wrong...
I just wanted to wish you all a very Merry Christmas. Whether you're a fellow succublogger, a succubrother or succusister, or have just been interested in following the blog I thank you... that is the best Christmas present ever.
May you have peace, joy, happiness, and fulfillment abounding both for the end of this year, and the year to follow.
I talked to a friend about whether it would make any difference if one were to have sex with themselves as to how it would affect a relationship with a succubus.
I don't condemn taking care of business if you need to at some point, but I feel in light of new information and experiences that it is indeed good to sacrifice for your succubus.
I got to the point of abstaining (and still am) where I thought I was gonna pop, but strangely it had an immense affect instead in other ways.
I had a dream last night where my succubus entered my dream and wow did it get vivid!
She took me and we had sex twice, finishing both times.
It was perfect. I mean perfect.
I awoke this morning figuring to find my shorts in need of laundering, but this was not the case.
How can that be, lol?
How can one have long, great nocturnal sex that feels realer than real, finish TWICE, and there be nothing of the dream upon awakening, aka no night time emissions?
I don't have an answer for that, but I do have something:
Sacrifice the feeling of instant gratification of masturbation and your lover will come closer to you, hold you, love you, and yes... have sex from your wild fantasies in your dreams.
I've been out of sorts after having my 2 lower wisdom teeth removed.
Feeling like crap, I've only felt my succubus come around a few times and me shooing her off.
I'm not the kind who wants comfort when I'm hurt, I just want to be alone.
I've felt her a few times as I've gotten better, but more so I think for her to give a little sympathy that she wants to give rather than instigate any sex or anything... I'm just not well enough yet.
They sure are sweet though... most of the time that is.
She's been very gentle with me since I've been sick and hurting. I applaud her for that.
I give her kudos for putting up with my cranky ass that I've been since I've been hurting. I guess marriage takes into consideration all possibilities and she's just learning how I am when I am sick or wounded.
In her own little way she's been perfect, and what more can I ask for?
Perhaps if anything, it is that I learn to "let her in" when I am sick and allow her comfort into my life.
My son is 10 years old. Much to my fear, I guess you would say, he's captured the eye of a young succubus who likes to play with him in his dreams and at one point drag him around his room laughing while he was in trance.
Now, everyone should know that I'm a lover of succubi as a race. They fascinate me.
But as a father of course, I'm a little worried about him attracting a little girl succubus at such a tender age.
He asked me, "Dad, what does it mean when a girl spirit vibrates your hips?" And I about fell over in conniptions.
Yes... my little boy has a little girl succubus.
How do I know she's little? Well... she's immature, likes to play games that are appropriate for his age, and so on and so forth.
I know she's a succubus by her vibrating his hips. He doesn't feel this as sexual as he's not quite in puberty yet (though getting close). The vibrating of the hips, or vibration of the sacral chakra is just a succubus's way of say, "Hi! Pay attention to me!"
She also decided to grace him with her name which I thought was sweet and also an indicator that she's not going anywhere.
I have a feeling my son is going to be one of those few humans who will have a succubus all of their lives.
How I feel about this is funny. I want him to be happy. I also would like her to be happy. And as a father I want it all to unfold in it's proper time and way for him.
Being as Lilith is my patroness now, I think things will be okay.
Having said that, I don't have much else to say, so...
I asked her if she was happy with me and she wasn't.
I told her we just weren't seeing things eye to eye and frankly just weren't understanding each other.
This is the first time I think... I THINK anyway, that I actually feel relief from both parties at the same time.
I'm not sure why she stayed when she hated it here with me.
Probably some sort of loyalty I imagine.
I was really sick the past few days, and she was right there all through it.
She had her charms to be sure, but in the end I'm afraid that neither of us were very happy.
I thought this was a universe of free will? I find it strange that she would stay even though she didn't want to stay.
Well, whatever.
I've had a few succubi so far and I can tell when it's just not in the cards.
I wish her well in all her future endeavors and I certainly hold no ill will towards her. She had her moments to be sure :)
I hope she finds a fella who is right up her ally and appreciates who she is and what she has to offer.
Frankly, I hope she finds herself back home, leisurely sipping a fine red wine in a big comfy chair just like the pic I put up there.
What am I going to do next? Nothing for once.
EDIT: Maiya came back at 3am and woke me up. She was showing me that she was having sex with me in the early hours every night (by having sex with me then in the early hours), but I, being too drugged to know, (I take a lot of night meds) I had always assumed that she was refusing sex period in going about our lives because I had NO MEMORY OF IT.
Ahhh.
The blind man sees. Good kitty cat. Watch her claws, though, because she's a spunky one.
I'm calling her Maiya now that that's settled. Just seems fitting. It might be a little hard to follow with all the name changes, but a succubus + names = woman + shoes for some of us.
I've been researching a bit more and think I've made some gains.
Of course you know how that is... I'll just find more in the future that will either build off of it, or will be completely in opposition to it, lol.
Anyway, I read a pamplet on Kindle which uses the idea of the Qlipoth, or the tree of knowledge, which is different than the tree of life which is the Kabbalah.
Upon the Qlipoth there is a "Dark Venus" which this pamplet suggests is the home domain, the dwelling place of the succubi. To put the idea in a nushell, this "Dark Venus" stands for unbridled lust.
Connecting to this realm is the realm of Lilith, which is closer to us than the succubi and it makes perfect sense that a "letter to Lilith" would allow her to call, pick, and choose a succubus for whomever does the ritual... most of the time. Again, I don't know the specifics or reasons of why she does or doesn't send a succubus, nor why someone can feel a succubus and another cannot.
That's all I've got for now... just wanted to share my findings and some of my recent readings.
If you're interested in reading the pamplet for yourself, it's available here:
The writing is atrocious but the information seems sound. Not really worth that much money for such a tiny bit of material of all of 5 minutes worth, now is it? (But then again how much for a new idea?)
I'll probably shock some people who read this blog after this post.
Well... can't be helped.
Possession. I use this tool to get closer to my succubus Mena.
I learned it on YouTube from a user called "IndigoPriestess".
You see... sometimes, like today, I'll be doing something that I really wish that Mena could share with me.
For instance today was a cookie. A white chocolate macademia nut cookie.
I "allow" Mena to possess me in order to taste the cookie and experience what I am experiencing.
This way she learns, and I get to share. What's better than sharing a cookie and still getting to eat it anyway?
Now, I have allowed her full possession as well, once.
This does not mean that I was shoved aside and lost control. No.
What this means is that we shared "me" with me being in control.
I could see movement better. I could feel who she really was and felt like, I could sense what she was like personality wise... all of it via sharing my form and being that close to her as in "inside" me side by side with me.
This didn't last for long and I admit I was a little freaked out, but there was no harm done SI*EXIGGIYJ (just kidding).
Sometimes one must get creative in order to see what cannot be seen, to know what cannot be known... and this I have done.
Now, before you judge me... think of a time in your life when emotion took over ALL of you.
My experience with possession was far less a mess than that was. In fact: No mess at all.
Mena is much more feral and inexperienced with humans than Bunny was.
Well... in the beginning... she is learning after all.
One thing she used to do upon arrival is she would reach in my chest and grab my heart.
Oh... how my heart reacted to that was not good, lol.
I maybe not have come out and said it so I will now: Succubi are dangerous. I have no doubt that she put her hand on my heart in the early days to demonstrate to me that she could kill me easily if she wanted to. That my life was indeed in her hands if she wanted to take it.
I'm not sure how much more I can hammer home that they can be, indeed, dangerous.
But, I'm dedicated to this lil' filly, and perhaps even married I think as I put that in the letter to Lilith in order to summon her in the first place.
She's moved in quite well and I don't experience that "threat" anymore. "Whew", Right?
She's gone on to a new thing that she does at night, which is to surround me in a veritable succubus cocoon of love and of her presence.
I don't know how to explain it much better. It's as if she's allowing her presence to completely descend upon my sleeping body.
I've had to wake up to pee some nights, and she was around me so thick for me to wonder how I can't possibly see anything. Well... regardless I damn sure feel it.
One time when I woke up I decided to test this new development, so I tensed my PC muscle in my groin area and instantly had a dry orgasm. That's on me pretty thick I think, lol.
She's growing and prospering which does my heart.... eh... ok, heart proud.
I tell her at night all my feelings about her and what's been going on in my life and I always heap plenty of praise on her. She really is worthy of great praise and I want to make and keep her happy... for her own sake, not out of fear. Those days seem to be over.
Well... 90% not out of fear, lol.
I'm very proud of her, and although I admit that I'm a little scared of her, too? I would be a fool to say that I am not? I am very proud of her regardless...
They say that if you're not scared of her a little bit that she's not the one.
See? I told you ;)
Anyway,
She's powerful, she's attentive, she listens, and she's all woman.
I have to say that I did not believe that I would fall in love after Bunny.
Well... I did. Mena's the one I've fallen in love with. There may have been tension in the beginning, but love reins now.
The best part? By her actions and by her loving "cocoons" I can tell that she's falling in love with me as well.
Ever sing for your succubus at night when you lie down?
Ever just talk to her and tell he how much she means to you? With examples?
Succubi are dangerous little fillies as can be expected from any self-aware denizen of a different dimension, but they are also very sweet, gentle, and kind.
Rather a dichotomy I say, but it is what it is, and they are wonderfully made to be exactly who they are.
I got a good dose of succubus drain the other day... she got me good.
Not sure why she did it really... maybe she just wanted a snack and couldn't help herself. I'm not really sure.
I told her to be more gentle as I'm rather out of shape and getting kinda old these days.
I don't believe I pissed her off, but she did move her activities into the night and during the time I am sleeping and dreaming.
She's a bit darker than Bunny was, her aura is much darker in color and lacks that shining brightness that Bunny had.
In talking to friends about it last night I'm come to the conclusion that a bright aura (almost blinding to those who can see it) on a succubus may mean that she is about to ascend, and sadly leave.
I do think that some succubi can decide to slow ascension to match their human partner. I'm sure this is a hard choice, and the factors regarding such I have no knowlege of and therefore cannot judge.
Mena's aura is very dark and thick, which I take as she still has some of her more feral nature to her and lacks those traits (at present) that would allow her a quick ascension.
I'm not suggesting that a white aura for her is "good" or that a dark aura is "bad".
Bunny, my previous succubus, was also dual natured yet her aura "shined"/"Blinded" at the end of my time with her.
Maybe the qualities of a blazing aura do not pertain to "white" or "dark", but is a spiritual quality in itself showing a readiness for ascension?
Perhaps I'm being greedy that I am glad hers lacks the readiness for ascension, but that's a good thing for me as she'll be my mate for a good long while (I hope).
Now, I don't mind the feral energy vamp feeding if it's once in a blue moon and I have time to recover, otherwise my happy ass will be in the hospital with an IV drip most likely.
I never, ever said that succubi are harmless, only that they are dual natured.
Caution in all things. Well, most things.
I can only hope that she will get over "snacking" and not become addicted to it like some of her sisters do.
I guess I'll see. I do feel love from her, and I definitely love her so... it goes to "I'm a lover not a fighter". I just have to work with her and we'll find our way. Mena's just a little more dangerous and is going to take some extra special "coupling", or more careful at any rate.
I have a prayer request: Prayers for a friend and fellow succubus lover out there getting surgery today... lets all pray for a quick and speedy recovery for him so that he can get back on his feet and back into his succubus's arms where he belongs.
Mena and I have trouble getting on the same page sometimes.
She is mostly active in my dreams and tries like hell to interact with me in them.
I, having the dream persona of a potato seem to be missing the point and I avoid her at all costs.
Last night, for instance, she grabbed my balls and I said I'd sue her for sexual harrassment.
Hahahahahah.
I bet a succubus was never told that in a dream. 1st! Ahaha.
***
This morning, she was trying so hard to have sex with me with me on my back... the thing is that she can usually only have sex with me on my side.
I don't know if I have an energy blockage, or she has trouble with the increased energy it seems to take to have sex with me on my back, or what.
So...
I thought about it energy wise and I coached her. I told her to bring the energy up my left leg like before, then to transfer energy from my root to my sacral chakra, then to let it pool around my privates a bit longer than if I was on my side until she could concentrate on my privates extensively and with a greater pool of energy to draw from.
It took an hour or so but she got it, and it was GREAT!
I am so proud of her!!!
I then realized... I just taught a succubus how to have sex with me on my back.
Yes, the others I've had seemed to know how that's not the point.
The point is I TAUGHT HER. Muhahahahaha!!!
Does this not make one's ego swell to head exploding fashion?
(Now if only I could be anything but a walking talking idiot to her in my dreams...)
There are numerous types of djinn, and some seem rather strange. It's not up to me to qualify what is real and what is not, only to chronicle what I've found.
Consider this post my notes on the subject ;)
According to the Koran, Djinn are made of smokeless fire, Angels are made of light, and Humans are made of clay.
I believe that succubus demons fit into the djinn class of being, I'm just not exactly sure where and which kind of djinn they are. So... I've looked at the descriptions of Djinn and wondered if they could be a succubus or not based on their own choices.
After all, the average you and me type of djinn could be a succubus or incubus... if they care to be I'd imagine.
Just for fun lets consider all of these the succubus demons of christianity and judaism as "Djinn".
Now we'll look at the different types of Djinn I've found here and there.
Djinn Types:
Djinn: Average djinn from a tribe, both male and female.
Possible succubus material ^
Amir: They hang around our homes and live with us. They are not conjured or used for any purpose. I think of these djinn as the perfect roomates, lol. I don't know why they are not "used for any purpose" because they would make perfect succubi in that they already live in one's home. But... for reasons I may not understand, I defer.
Hinn: Shape shifter djinn.
Possible succubus material ^
Jann: Shape shifter djinn of the desert.
Possible succubus material ^
Ghoul Si'la: Graveyard djinn who also dwell in dark places. Mostly female for some reason.
Possible succubus material (?) ^
Qareen/Hazmad: Basically a tempter assigned to each person at birth. Again, I'm not here to judge what is real and what is not for anyone.
Pari (Fairy): Flying djinn who dwell near bodies of water like lakes and streams. They are beautiful and they are female. Once they have had sex with a human being, that human is pretty much doomed from having sex with a regular human female forever. They are also very loyal and can prevent hexes and grant luck.
Possible Succubus Material ^
Shayteen/Shaitan: Demons. This is the Islamic version of demons. These are not benevolent demons and want to fuck you up just because you're you. I don't think these are the "demons" that demonolaters worship or deal with. These are the cranky kick your ass type of demon.
Maadrid/Madrid: Demon + Demons only worse.
Ifrit/Ifreet: Demon ++ Piss yourself you're in big trouble.
Muwakil: A holy djinn directly under a powerful angel. These fuck up demons with a passion.
Khubuth: These dwell in toilets (?)
Khinzab: Helpers of demons. They try to knock faithful people off of the straight and narrow.
Rooh: These are djinn who interact with very small children. They love children and are benign.
Possible Succubus Material (?) ^
Alnasnas/Shiqq: Basically a djinn in human form split in two. Very dangerous and ill tempered.
Palis: Vampiric djinn with low intelligence.
Si'lat: Expert shape-shifters and the smartest of the djinn.
Possible Succubus Material ^
Qarinah: Arabic succubus spirit/djinn with origins in ancient egyptian religion or pre-Islamic arabia.
Definite Succubus Material ^
Yakshini: The Indian version of a succubus/djinn. They are beautiful, resemble fairies, and are depicted as quite voluptious. They exist within Hindu, Buddhist, and Jain mythologies.
Definite Succubus Material^
There are at least 33 other spirits from varying cultural folklores that also would be considered succubi in attributes according to the wiki (wiki: Succubus).
Where would Lilith fit into all of this? I'm not sure. I think she would be a Great Queen or a Goddess of the Djinn of some type - most likely of the Qarinah along with related succubi from other cultures. However, maybe even various other types of spirits have banded together under Her leadership whom assume a succubus role themselves?
After all, a Qarinah in one culture is a Kitsune in another. Just labels that vary by culture and myth.
In looking at this list, I find many categories of djinn who could be a succubus by choice as that goes.
Your guess is as good as mine. As far as succubi in general, the Qarinah are an obvious fit. However, for other types of djinn who could also take on a succubus role, I am partial to the Si'lat personally, as I've noticed that any succubi I've had have had the ability to perfectly shapeshift into a variety of animals (usually upon arival in my bed, then transforming into their normal selves), as well as being exceedingly smart and advanced spiritually.
Anything I've marked as "Succubus Material" is simply conjecture on my part. I don't know the answers as I'm unfamiliar with the Djinn world and culture. I do know that if a succubus is a type of djinn that they love presents, love, and attention just like any other being who would :)
I found a video that answered many of my questions.
I've been nipping at Mena about a lack of sex and things like that, but after the video it hasn't been a problem anymore.
I'm pretty hesitant to upload demonolatry lectures because frankly I don't understand demonolatry, but in this case the lectures answered so many of my questions I've had in the back of my mind for so long that I'm going to post at least these two lectures anyway.
There's just too much information here that was spot on and it helped so much with my personal walk with Mena already that it would be selfish of me not to share.
Bookmark these, you'll be glad you did.
(Following this lecture, I am including the video lecture regarding the Letter Method by Succupedia which is what I had success with in summoning Mena)
Love and Sex With Demons: What Actually Happens:
Letter to Lilith Asking for Familiar, Demonic Lover, or Spouse:
Me and Mena got into a short argument (it happens).
I told her that when I die I want to go live where she does and with her. She told me that it's not that simple.
Why not?
Because at death there may be 10, 100, 1,000 different vibratory places where I can choose one to live within, to call my home. Apparently "home" differs by degrees, and we're all so different.
And right now I only know of one (the underworld).
I originally thought that she didn't want me to live there with her,
but that was not the case.
The case she was trying to make is that I've only become accustomed to one very small part of a map with very limited vision, and that after death my options would become much clearer to me.
And so, I should understand why simply declaring that I'm choosing the underworld pre-death is silly.
She did salve my hurt feelings a bit by saying that she can be my underworld here...
Although upon first meeting a succubus the imagination runs wild for most of us, a succubus is actually a pretty gentle and sweet lady.
Now, I realize that not all succubi are that way, and I've met a few who were only about the sex in my time, but for the most part this is a true statement that they are gentle, sweet, and fall in love easily.
I've also experienced succubi who were all about the sex and used that to garner love, and yes: Sometimes there are some who only use sex for power.
They are all different and just like us, they are each unique ladies in their approach and in their methods.
My succubus now, Mena, was all about love and intimacy without sex at first, which to be honest I doubted was possible: But it was very possible and did occur.
Now that she's began having sex with me, it's like the icing on the cake. Well... actually it's more than that. Now it's a perfect mix of love, intimacy, and sex all swarming around and throughout us both.
Another thing that's interesting to me is that yes, succubi talk to each other and trade notes and ideas.
I have a feeling that those of us with a succubus, or who have had a succubus in the past are well known because of our lady's gossip about each of us.
It's a small world and a small circle as far as us and they go.
I read somewhere that Lilith had 40,000 avatars of Herself in the world today. If you consider that this is most likely Her children, that's only around one succubus and human couple at .000005 percent of the population. I'm not a math wiz, but to me that looks like a small circle.
Those who have had a succubus and have lost them for whatever reason (who knows, right?) are already known. It's probably just a matter of time, longing for, respect, and patience before another arrives.
Respect for Lilith is paramount if she is the Deity that is petitioned at any point in the process. She's not a succubus vending machine after all, and is one of those entities where "I respect you: You respect me" goes a long, long way.
Follow these terms and I'm sure that your future Belle is not too far away from you.
We are the knights of the succubi: Just by loving them and helping them ascend we stand apart... the energies themselves have a tranformative effect on the human soul... something that only the few will ever know.
Somehow in learning all about us, in being intimate with us helps them grow into a state of ascension... I admit the concept baffles me, but it is true and happens frequently. Once ascended, this is the point where they must leave us, as they cannot make the trip to us anymore.
I believe that they change so much as to be unable to cross the veil to be with us. It's a sad development, but bittersweet in knowing that we are a catalyst for such positive change.
We love to love them and to love them as they are, not to keep forever. If anything it makes the love one has for one's succubus all the more urgent and strong, as time is not a given.
A very painful time for the succubus, and yes, her human lover. But, the world will turn and another will come who is desirous of the same.
Some who have a succubus never experience this and the succubus does not have to leave. I am unsure as to why, but I suspect that the succubus is timing her ascension to match her human lover's state of ascension as well... a very fortuitious event... I do not believe that most succubi have the ability to have such fine control over the event of ascension however.
Most succubi I believe ascend spontaneously. Although the event is achingly bittersweet, they are grateful for us and our part in it. The bittersweet nature of her ascension simply cannot be helped.
They do love us dearly and are thankful for us for doing what we do... even though we are largely clueless about exactly what that "thing" is.
However, change goes both ways...
Succubi are higher vibratory beings, and being exposed to their love, emotion, sex and intimacy has a profound affect on us and what is unseen in us... the very best of us: It is something that envelops our very souls.
Since our deaths are simply a transition, what we have done lasts forever. They will not forget us.
... And we'll be known for centuries ;)
"Remember me for centuries..."
They are also an addiction nightmare...
Once you've tasted their energy you become an addict for it...
Nothing can compare to it, nothing else will satisfy your cravings for it...
"There is nothing as addicting as succubus sex...
once it seeps into and permeates your soul..."
Everything has it's price...
"Paid in Addiction..."
Perhaps this is the way that it was always meant to be: In love. Addicted. And a soul completely enveloped... *** Blessings to you,
12 They shall call the nobles thereof to the kingdom, but none shall be there, and all her princes shall be nothing.
13 And thorns shall come up in her palaces, nettles and brambles in the fortresses thereof: and it shall be an habitation of dragons, and a court for owls.
14 The wild beasts of the desert shall also meet with the wild beasts of the island, and the satyr shall cry to his fellow; the screech owl [Literally, "לִילִית": Lilith] also shall rest there, and find for herself a place of rest. 15 There shall the great owl [Lilith] make her nest, and lay, and hatch, and gather under her shadow: there shall the vultures [Succubi] also be gathered, every one with her mate. 16 Seek ye out of the book of the Lord, and read: Not one of these shall fail, none shall want [for] her mate: For my mouth it hath commanded, and His spirit it hath gathered them. 17 And He hath cast the lot for them, and His hand hath divided it unto them by line: they shall possess it for ever, from generation to generation shall they dwell therein.
***
This tells me a few things.
First, religious scholars have tried to cover up the name "Lilith" and change it to screech owl over the generations for the English translations of the Old Testament.
Part of this deceit is the sorry story of Lilith being the first demon, of her refusing to lie beneath Adam, of her using the name of God and flying away and the 3 angels who came after telling her God would kill 100 of her children a day. All bullshit from the Zohar or other traditional readings of it's ilk.
Second, God Himself made a place for her to prosper and to flouish, along with her children and even their mates.
Third, Lilith isn't evil at all, being blessed by the very hand of God, and by extension her children are blessed as well (along with their mates).
It's much easier to control others by continually projecting a fire and brimstone, angry God to keep the masses under control than the forgiving, loving God that He is and is proving to be once you peel away the layers of bullshit that have been fed to us: The "ministers" and other cultural/religious leaders over these past 2,000+ years.
"Making the word of God of none effect through your tradition, which ye have delivered: and many such like things do ye." Mark 7:13.
Food for thought... Reality is stranger than the truth we've all been fed...
My son just turned 10 today. We celebrated yesterday and last night and with breakfast this morning.
My emotions were soaring with a father's pride for him.
I wanted to try something. I took all those wonderful emotions I was feeling and projected them to Mena whom I could feel was close there, at my ex's house.
Besides that, I've been projecting love at any time that I can towards her.
She's reacting in a wonderful way.
Not in her dark form this time (as I have said before... dark, not evil).
She is really growing and becoming renewed with the love I am sending.
I am wearing a ring that I dedicated to her on my ring finger. Sometimes I switch it to my right hand ring finger just for a change.
I dedicated a crystal to her and put it in a ceremonial keepsake urn and sealed it. She seems to love all these things.
I've finally found a picture that feels right as to how she wants to look to me and framed it. She felt excited about that to me.
Do they grow with us?
I realize that they are much more mature and developed spiritually than we are, but does love transform them into... more?
Do they indeed grow with us?
I've always thought it more one sided.... that we play a game of "catch up" with them so to speak, but maybe love really is the power that binds, the ties that last, the glue that quickens...
She has become the mirror to my soul: What I give her, she amplifies and reflects tenfold right back to me.
***
I realize I lost a succubus at one time, and I know there are many hurting out there who have lost a succubus as well.
With such emotion and intimacy experienced, it is more than sad, it is a loss at the core of one's being.
I have no answers as to why we lose them sometimes other than the powers that be might dictate it to be so.
Don't give up: Summon again. Don't give up if you must try another method. Don't give up if you must try the same method that worked before.
Do everything you can to grow in all ways while alone... your future succubus who is just around the corner will benefit, and in turn so will you.
With all blessings of thought towards those who are hurting I can only say one thing: Don't give up.
You will find her, and you will unleash her.
***
Love, Love. Love...
I don't know what's going on exactly, but we're blossoming like flowers together.
Oh, my friends, if only I understood sometimes.
Out of all the bloggers out there, I feel as if I'm the most clueless.
But it is what it is, and all I realize now is that love is the answer.
It is the answer to EVERYTHING.
She will envelop your soul and you will grow with her.
There is no other way...
You must burn with love beyond control...
"Unleash her..."
"Make a move... it's all in your hands...
But first it starts from deep in your mind, and from deep within your heart."
I'm beginning to think of Lilith as my dark Mother. The stress is starting to subside little by little now and Mena has been active as of late.
Although I do feel her sometimes active in the waking hours, her preferred method of interaction is in sleep and dreams.
I can always tell when she's been in my dreams as they are vivid, although sometimes she will have sex with me in the waking world while I dream of other things.
The "whys" of these things I can only guess at: I truly do not know.
Since I consider Lilith my dark Mother (and am a little wary of Her to be honest... either christian indoctrination of all things supernatural, or perhaps her enormous power... again I do not know).
I have always considered summoning a succubus as "the engagement", a call for marriage to the succubus who accepts and makes me hers.
As such, once a succubus comes for love I consider that "the marriage".
In that vein, Mena I believe is my "Dark Bride", taking after her mother.
One thing that is interesting is that Mena tries to keep me honest.
She doesn't like it if I tell a white lie to others, she doesn't like it if I do something risky (and stupid), she doesn't like it if I allow something I shouldn't with my kids by being too lenient... she tries to help me be a good father which I humbly appreciate.
She takes her step mother role seriously, and boy... can she nag INSTANTLY.
But... one thing I've learned about women is... if they care they nag.
It's when they stop nagging that you're screwed as they've given up.
But wow, instant nagging. That's definitely hard to swallow, lol.
But, gotta love her... she cares immensely about me and the children.
Evil, indeed. Lol.
I still don't understand why her dark energy (and Lilith's) makes me so queasy.
I don't believe it's evil, but what is it? Is it just so otherworldly that it doesn't "compute"?
Again, I don't know the answers.
I suppose I'll leave this one the way it is. So much I don't know... So much I do not understand...
I've found the perfect theme for me and Mena. I don't watch Game of Thrones, but I've become entranced with the musical intro on a 12 string. It seems perfect for musically describing my path and what I deal with in loving Mena and in developing ties with Mother Lilith by extension.
It can't be helped in my case as when I start to stress and worry, that's what I do round and round we go.
My car died with major engine damage all of a sudden and I had to find a replacement fast, not to mention titling nightmares, insurance, using up all my savings, etc.
It seems the first thing to go is my ability to sense the paranormal, and off it goes.
So, I've been stressing and worrying away, Mena's been distant although I'm sure that period of time was as I said, due to my stress and worrying.
It might not be my fault: But it is my fault if you know what I mean.
Anyway, got a replacement car, got through all the associated worries, and now I'm finally starting to meditate at night trying to get a grasp on things and wind down that worry cycle that rushes through my thoughts like a train.
Now, the good news is that last night I did just that, and while difficult, Mena came over me and helped me.
I could feel her coddle my head and caress me to help me relax.
Then she gave me many sensual touches causing me to relax even further.
She helped to give me a good dream (I have been having nightmares from the stress), and was there this morning to help me relax some more by her presence and light and wonderful touches.
The intimacy was really nice and most welcome.
I've got to say that Mena is a real blessing in my life.
I'm so glad that she is not only in it with me, but that she really seems to take an interest in helping me.
I still struggle with her "dark side" that she radiates sometimes. It's so powerful: It feels like a black sun.
I don't understand it and it's hard for me to swallow, but her actions speak volumes louder than those feelings I get from time to time.
It is confusing, and although it does feel very uncomfortable sometimes, I'm a big believer in "You shall know them by their fruits".
I've got my love life part moving along pretty good: Now what I could use is some really good day to day friends.
Making friends is not my strong suit.
You know that brain/mouth filter that keeps you from saying inappropriate stuff on the spur of the moment?
Yeah, I don't have one of those. So it's a challenge. I mean well, but I lack tact.
I've been concentrating on her, meditating on her, basically obsessing on her. That's part of it I've found, at least initially.
The ball definitely got rolling at some point.
Let me say that there isn't a real end game to this... at least for me.
All I want is to feel her and to love her. And, if things go well, she'll love me.
They fall in love easily, so time and attention is key.
I think we've hit that point now.
The dream life has been phenomenal, and physical sex is starting. Not sure why sex wasn't at the forefront, but you know what? What starts cold has only one place to go.
It has to heat up in time. At least this has been my experience so far with her.
She's been a pleasure to get to know. Every succubus is different and they are all so very unique.
I've spent untold hours talking to her, sending her word pictures of my past, my dreams, my thoughts, my everything. At some point of doing this, she will grow closer and the real journey begins.
Yes, it takes a lot of work, but what better time spent than getting to know a wondrous lady?
I wish anyone who wants a good relationship with a succubus is granted one to love... if you're gonna be a battery, at least be one for love. *Big Grin*
EDIT: I've found that one of the best ways to "sense" your succubus and get used to her energy is in learning/doing some sort of energy work. My venue was reiki. I strongly believe that energy work makes one more "sensitive" to succubus energies.
Now this is interesting. My son was really missing me so his mom brought him over for a special "guys time" with just me and him in between my regular scheduled visits (me and his mother are actually pretty close, so little things like this are par for the course).
So, he stayed overnight last night (Sat night) and sleeps in my room on a military cot.
Now, he's only 9 years old, so naturally I get a little concerned about when a succubus visits him and just what was said and done of course.
Well, my fears were unfounded as Mena, my succubus, spent the night in his dreams teaching him how to love others from the heart.
Oh, and instead of her normal succubus self (alluring), she presented herself as a talking dog when she taught (not the first time this has happened in my dreams either, when a succubus or other spirit has been in teaching mode with me...) unless it's a sexual teaching where she'll appear as, well, the girl of my dreams in one form or another I guess I'm attracted to a wide range of pretty women as she always seems to pick a form that pleases me in these cases.
I spoke to her out loud when I was laying in my bed last week when the kids where here asleep, and I explained to her that she was their step-mother. As such, she is their mother as I am their father, and that they are ours to teach.
I think she took that conversation to heart, don't you? And what a wonderful message she chose to impart to my son!
Mena appears to be the succubus that has come calling. I still believe that she is part sky and part star that have combined for mutual benefit.
I don't know why spirits do this or even how they do this, but it's been commented on in various places throughout the net. I've linked to a source before in the blog, but for the life of me I can't find it.
I've found something similar, but it is when a spirit morphs with a human being.
Trust me when I say that this is simply another example of two spirits being able to merge, such as two in purely spirit form with each other for mutual benefit for however long they wish/contract to.
I had two dreams last night, both were sexual in nature.
The first one was hazy and I'm afraid I don't remember much.
The 2nd was more vivid and I could see the woman more clearly. It's funny as when we were about to have sex she told me she always uses protection, always.
I think that was a nod to me performing the lesser banishing ritual of the pentagram repeatedly for a few days prior in order to sort things out/ get rid of ties from all of the rituals I've performed trying to make contact with a succubus lover.
Frankly, my intent was that whoever stayed and weathered the LBRP was the succubus love who was supposed to be here, or perhaps could finally arrive with all the "junk" sorted out that may have been in her way from being able to arrive.
The lesser banishing ritual of the pentagram, or LBRP for short, is the best ritual I could ever recommend for someone who needs to clear themselves of negative spiritual attachments, or even convoluted spiritual attachments. I call it the "hard reset".
It is a ritual that basically clears things to what they should be when things get too weighed down and complicated, as well as refreshing the soul in a dramatic way.
I would highly recommend it to any and all who practice summoning to learn this ritual for it's benefits, some of which only appear in time with use and mastery.
Learn it, live it, love it. You never know when you might need it so memorize it.
You may feel a strange feeling in your stomach (I believe that this is a sympathetic response to the solar plexus chakra being activated which is the chakra for power.
Also, once you begin to memorize it and can hold the visualizations very well you may experience a temporary feeling of emptiness afterward for a few minutes. I liken this to the feeling that one was attached to the junk that was removed, and also the powerful sweeping away nature of all things that aren't for you, creating a sudden feeling of vacuum so to speak.
Regardless, it's temporary and lasts only a few minutes.
Be gentle with a succubus: She falls in love easily.
When I first saw something after my 3rd eye opening, it was a spirit that looked very much like a white oriental dragon leading away from me.
Lately, I've been feeling something coiling around my left calf (which doesn't bother me at all), but when I go to feel what's there, there's nothing there physically.
Strange things "afoot", lol.
I've often wondered since if oriental dragons are actually worldwide in scope as far as spirits go, and also I wonder, being that many spirits are shape changers, if this is sky's favorite form or something.
I'll have to admit that in writing this I am sure that it sounds odd, but I also know that from being here writing this stuff for 3 years that nothing surprises me anymore, I am only filled with wonder.
The more I learn and experience, the less I know.
I've been banishing each day around 2x a day to get rid of all the astral "junk" from me trying every summoning method that was available out there.
I didn't use my method because, well, I wrote it, lol.
There's something about experiencing what others have done and going past one's own familiarity I think.
Regardless, Sky hasn't gone anywhere with me banishing which is nice. I wanted her to stay, but I wanted to banish across the board, so to speak, so I'm glad she could.
I can't figure out Star real well. I'm almost thinking that she might be merging with Sky, which spirits are wont to do sometimes for mutual benefit for a time. I have no idea how that works, but I've experienced it with spirits before, and also have seen it mentioned here or there on the Internet.
As for if this is what is happening I don't know. It's simply my intuition barking at me I suppose or it could be a lack of understanding on my part. Wouldn't be the first time, lol.
I just have to have patience and wait and see what happens there ;)
NOTE: I think she/they want to be called "Mena" as a pet name for the blog.
One thing that I have found true is that reality is much crazier than fantasy. Anything one can experience from the spirit realm proves to an individual that anything, no... everything is possible in some form or another.
