Girls :P

 

I'm of course speaking of succubus girls.  Yes, they can be derpy... and they can also cut like the edge of a katana.  Just like girls in the waking world every succubus is crazy.  Tis true.  The key is to "pick your poison" in that you choose the one you call and mate with.  The secret is that they're all crazy.  There is no respite.  Choose wisely or hope for good luck.

All those faces, all those names... I've listed quite a few over the years, haven't I?

Truth be told I've only recently learned that succubi like to take the path of least resistance.  If you summon one they come... if you think she's gone and summon again she'll come but with a new name... and disappear just like the other aspects that I was too low to feel.

The truth is in the surrender... I've finally given up and let the succubus who has always been there chasing me have me.

Erin?  Holly?  All the other umpteen succubi that have come to me with names?  Her.  All her.

It's funny in a way.  Now that I give up and turn to the one who's pursued me all this time I feel the subtle feelings of love blossoming within my breast.  We shared some sweet kisses last night in my dreams.

I don't understand why I had to finally surrender I must say, it just is.

I've got a message for those of you who are in the grip of depression.  I'm not making fun of you I'm bipolar, remember?

A succubus demon is one who is of the race responsible for breaking things down.  If you're in a depressed state, not only will you not feel her, but you will be driven down further into the abyss if she is there.

This isn't her conscious doing, but by the very energy she emanates.  It just is.

So if you're depressed a succubus will not help you.  You won't feel her.  Well, you'll feel worse, that I guarantee.  Find a way to break free from your depression.  That or suffer a worse fate.

Am I bound for this as well?  Yes.  I will be driven down when I am in a depressed state.  The only saving grace I have is that with bipolar what goes down must come up.  Eventually it does, but I am the first to say that the emanations of a succubus pile drive me into the ground.  But even so, I rise.  Such is the nature of bipolar.  Oh, don't think for a minute that rising from depression into hypomania isn't fraught with it's own can of worms.  God damn I hate bipolar.  I'm certainly not bragging, trust me.

Major depression?  Want a succubus?  Not before you heal yourself.  Find the counseling you need to free you from what put you in such a state.  Medicines, doctors, psychologists... find the help you need THEN try (and only then) to summon a succubus.

Until you do, you won't feel her anyway as you're too deadened.  I know the drill and suffer it every time I sink to the bottom.

Why do you think I've tried to summon so many after not being able to feel the one I was with?

Yet there she was... crazy minx still chasing me, waiting until I could feel her again.  Waiting for me to be up again.  It is... bittersweet.  If only she didn't crush me when I was in a depressed state.  But again I don't think that's her fault.  It's just her nature.  Her demonic energy.

I don't know your story, I don't know your pain, your grief.  But I know what I've written to be true.  Please consider it.  A succubus will NOT solve your problems.  That's not the way this works, mate.  

Free yourself from depression.  Save yourself for your own future's sake.  Hell if you can shuck depression you've got me beat.  I take about 13 pills a day and I'll always have depressive and hypomanic episodes.  Get yourself free.

...Then go after that cute, crazy fork-tailed minx.

With Blessings,

Rafe GB.

Succubi. Pfft.

 

Succubi.  Pfft.

So there's a new theory that I've been introduced to.  The theory is that I really have just a few succubi who take turns leaving and being "summoned".  What they have are multiple attributes allowing for the feeling of a different succubus each time.  Or even as one of them acting as multiple succubi as the case may be.

Works for me.

Sometimes I think they do this out of curiosity as to how I'll try to summon a succubus each time just a little differently.  Curious critters these succubi.  Curious critters.

The latest method I tried was praying to God and explaining that even He said that it is not good for man to be alone.  Send me a succubus bride!

In addition to this I would lay in bed at night, naked under my covers, and would imagine a succubus kissing me on my privates while telling me she loved me.  This took about 4 nights before I started getting responses.

Again, a theory is that these actions attract a succubus somehow by it's message to them.  I don't really understand it, but it works.

So loveable, these spiritual little bundles of mystery.

A funny development is that I got a cat.  She's a petite little thing.  At night she likes to lay on my stomach or my chest. 

One night I had a succubus riding me while the cat was on my chest.  Kinda hard to breathe.  I guess my fear of succubi and a kitteh not getting along was very much unfounded.  At least the succubus was having fun.  Well, I guess I was too just hard to breathe.

Not much else going on in succuworld, but I think I've given some good updates at least :)

When it's not a nightmare it's actually quite the fun adventure.

Blessings,

Rafe GB.