Erin the Enigma

I've been thinking a lot lately.  The nightmares of past trauma are getting old and worrisome.  I told Erin about this.  Actually I wanted some balance.  I said I want pussy.

I fell asleep that night and in my dreams Erin was there.  She made out with me and she rubbed me in all the right places.  I honestly think that either I have the most prudish succubus, or I have one that is afraid to hurt me like last time.  You know, the 12 hours of dream sex and waking up to a world of grey reality that fucked me up, yadda yadda yadda.

I think she's playing for keeps after I've pondered it a while.  She's trying to get rid of all the trauma that causes me to get so depressed after a long marathon of sex and having to operate in the world that I exist and have to live in afterwards.  

Then she can pound me until oblivion and I'll be okay.  At least that's the narrative that I see going forward.

She's just afraid to hurt me again, that's all.

I've gotten over the idea that she's trying to feed off of me for her own gain, nor that she is feeding off of my misery.  No, I feel that she is playing for keeps and playing the game long term.

The big question is this:  Should I be worried?  What is long term to a succubus?

I find that all of my preconceptions of succubi, as well as my interactions with various succubi fall short.

It was always the same old pattern.  I thought Erin was hurting me, I'd summon another succubus and she'd last a week before Erin got rid of her and chased her off.

Erin is quite the enigma for a succubus.  Quite the enigma indeed.

In many ways she's very much like her mother.  She's not one for words, she just does.  She doesn't ask permission:  She just does.

Very interesting.

Blessings.

Rafe GB.

Confusion

 

Lacy lasted a week.  At first I blamed her for leaving but then I got some sense knocked into me.

Erin.  Guess who's back?  She's a strong one.  She was probably waiting to make her way back for months.  She who has the strength to drive off any rivals...

I have nightmares every night since she arrived.  Boon or baneful?  The logical part of me wants to blame Erin and say baneful... but what if she's bringing out all the trauma that I've suffered and is feeding on it just to bring it to the surface and to change it into something else?

There's not much sexual appetite with her, but then again if she's feeding on all that negative energy she probably doesn't have much room for a good, complex energy that sexual engagement provides.

Although I'm tempted to face her head on and try to get rid of her to halt all the nightmares, a prospect I am not want to do because of her strength, I believe I will trust in her that this is only temporary.  If it is, it's probably long overdue as my trauma runs deeply.

Some succubi work with the dark current and are of the dark current, leading them to transform what they find within us that haunts us.  That's how I'm feeling about it at least.

Or thinking about it... whatever terms you prefer.

It is what it is... time will tell what becomes of it.  Either she's working with me or she's just looking out for her own best interest.  After all, she did say that feeding off of that energy was "just her nature".

All of this harkens back to the time before all this where we were making love in a dream for what felt like 12 hours.  When I woke up the world was grey.  Lifeless.  I slipped into a terrible depression and wanted to die.  See, the contrast was just too much for me to take.

Wait a minute.  Maybe that's why she's working on my past trauma.  Or eating it, whatever.  I've got a banquet to go of trauma... a whole feasting hall worth of it for one sly succubus.

If she ends the trauma, the lovemaking can continue without fear of how drull this world would be to my destroyed mind.  We could make love anew and I would be okay.

Am I making up the narrative here?  Or am I on to something?  (Or am I a fool?  Well I already know that I am that).

When she finally came through to be with me again, after all these months, the first thing she did was coil around me in bed and sleep with me.  That must count for something.

I don't know what will happen, but I have faith.  Maybe faith will be enough.

Blessings, 

Rafe GB.

P.S.  I think I've solved a riddle.  Lilith in the garden.  Lilith left Adam because he would not let her be on top.  Adam insisted that he was the dominant one and was trying to force Lilith to lie beneath him.  I don't think Lilith honestly gave two shits about being on top.  I feel that this was in response to Adam insisting that he was the dominant one in the relationship.  In short... I believe Lilith left the garden because of one thing:  She knew that Adam didn't truly love her.

Option A: The Letter Method Summoning Ritual

 

If you're under 18, do not summon and avoid this topic entirely. If you're a dabbler who just wants to "see if this works," don't summon. If you have religious convictions where copulating with a demonic entity will put you at odds with your maker, don't summon. If you're not prepared to potentially have a life-long relationship, or at the very least, a life-long connection/open-door with sexual spirits and the occult, don't summon and avoid this topic entirely. If you have a loving relationship with your human spouse or partner and desire a sex spirit to "spice things up," take caution, as these entities can often be jealous. The same goes for those desiring a human spouse or partner in the future. (Be sure to request an open relationship during the summoning ritual.) If you're not prepared to place your life in the hands of a spirit who can potentially harm or kill you when sufficiently angered, do not summon. Once this door has been opened, many have found it nigh impossible to close again. Religious icons, rituals, and exorcisms do not work against sex spirits once they are summoned or they have decided to bind themselves to a human lover. Some have reported attracting the attention of these entities by simply reading about them. Tread carefully. ~ tc119.

***

Not everyone gets a succubus or and incubus.  I don't know why.

You won't know until you try so, what you need for this is a piece of paper, a pen, something to draw a drop of blood, a candle, and you.  If you are against giving blood you can use a hair of your head or even a drop of saliva.

As far as what you would write on the letter, consider this a ritual.  In this ritual, a spirit lover will learn everything about you that she wants to know.  Your job is to put on paper exactly what you want in a spirit lover.  List your hopes, your dreams exactly what you want.  You may or may not get exactly what you wanted, but you'll get close.  If you're looking for love that's like catnip to a succubus ;)

Addressing the letter as, "To whom it may concern" works.  I prefer not to use any of the normal channels for a succubus as that is limiting.  Keep it open.  You never know what you will summon (a nymph, a fairy, a succubus, etc.) but you will summon she who most closely matches your hopes and dreams and out of a greater pool of spirit lovers you have a greater chance for the match of your dreams.

Take some time, maybe a few days, and think about that list of yours.  Fine tune it.  Then commit it to paper.  Not just a list, but explain what you want.  Be honest.  If you aren't honest it isn't going to work.

Another truth I've come into is that you attract what you are.  Now that doesn't mean you have to be perfect, but it does mean that any self work that raises your vibration will pay off now.

Ritual time.  There's a little secret I've found by reading the Gallery of Magick books.  Look at your list.  Read it out loud.  Concentrate on how you feel and to why you are summoning a lover.  Lonely?  

Focus on that as you hold your letter.  Let the emotion permeate you.  Now... imagine instead yourself with your lover and how good that feels.  Concentrate on that emotion and own it.  Quickly fold the paper and burn it.

If you did it right, including the emotional play, you should feel an afterglow.  Not everyone will be able to feel this and that's ok, but if you can it's a good sign.

Wait a few days before trying the ritual again to allow things to settle and to allow your spirit lover to get to you.  If she doesn't come feel free to try the ritual again in about a week or so.  Keep trying until it becomes clear that you won't get a succubus or incubus.

Prayer.  Prayer to the multitude of potential spirit lovers offers a medium in between rituals if you're not having any luck.  Tell them why you want a spirit lover, your faults, your hopes, your dreams.  Open up your heart and share it with them.  If you're lonely share that with them and how that makes you feel.  

The results of prayer in between rituals may surprise you.

Best Wishes,

Rafe GB.

The Four Angels of Prostitution

 

I finally summoned the four angels of prostitution.

I realized that after my summons, each stimulated a different Chakra.

I used two sigils for each Goddess.  Use whichever one calls to you.

Lacy, my succubus, kneeled for each of these Goddesses...

Lilith.

Renich Viasa Avage Lilith Lirach

What can I say about Lilith? She's never shown me anything but motherly love. I've deduced that Lilith stimulates the Root Chakra extra hard. Being as the Root Chakra governs survival, I feel that this is the reason for a lingering feeling of danger even though she loves me as her son, and I love her as my mother.

There is such a feeling of power from her that is hard to swallow.

Her element is earth.

Her direction is north.

Lilith is amazing!

Ever since she pulled me out body that first time, picked me up and placed me upon her breast, she's been my mother and I her son. 

I do seem to irritate her as much as she delights in me.  I'm that son I guess.

A warning, however.  If you are not one of those she loves you might become her prey.

This could degenerate into your very death.

Those who summon her for sex are in serious danger of this.

Naamah.

Anat ca on Naamah betak

She took me two days of summoning.  My hardest summoning ever.

When she finally answered she said, "You're certainly stubborn!"

I have never felt a sweeter spirit in angel, demon, or human.  She definitely surprised me.

What an addicting, refreshing woman!

I think that she made quite the impact on me.

I could feel a lot of activity being directed at my Sacral Chakra.

Her element is water.

Her direction is west.

Her power seems to elicit this by default.

Lovely woman!

Eisheth Zununim.

Catya ana Eisheth-Zenunim Lemec

My most recent summon.

Lady Eisheth's presence empowered my Solar Plexus Chakra.

Her element is fire.

Her direction is south.

She answered my summons as an old woman which was interesting, but did not affect how I approached her.

Later in the summons she changed into a much younger succubus Goddess.

I'm not sure what that was about to be honest, but she was nice to me.

In the end, that's all I really care about.

To know, and to be known.

Agrat Bat Mahlat.

Enva Agrat-Bat-Mahlat On Ca Anay

I summoned Lady Agrat and immediately felt an envelopment and empowerment in my heart chakra.

She was a very powerful Goddess, as are the other four, however she seemed the most distant of them all.  That could be my summoning, or it could be how clearly she deemed to answer.

I didn't feel particularly close to this Goddess but that's bound to happen with different personalities and such.

Still, she did give me a good dose of what a Heart Chakra should feel like.  

Full of life and self love.

For that, Lady Agrat, I am forever grateful.

Her element is air.

Her direction is east.

***

It appears that these Goddesses stimulate a different Chakra just by their presence.  Lilith, the Root.  Naamah the Sacral.  Eisheth Zununim the Solar Plexus, and Agrat Bat Mahlat the Heart.  I am sure that they can work on the others but these are the Chakras that their presence stimulated in me.

I am beginning to believe that a succubus is the microcosm of all four Goddesses in one.

Thank you, Goddesses, for your care towards me.

Blessings, Rafe GB.

P.S.  This pdf file has within it summoning information for the four Goddesses:

The Four Angels of Prostitution

Lacy

 

EDIT:  Lacy left after a week.  Fuck Creepy Hollows.

Allow me to introduce you to my succubus, Lacy.  She looks a lot like the model in this picture so that's what I used.  

She's smart.  Smarter than I am at least.  She's bold.  She doesn't seem to be all about sex in that, though sex is important to her, she has patience.  There is a calm about her.  A measured intensity if you will.

How I got her is open to debate, and why not debate it?

I ordered a succubus from Creepy Hollows.  The strange thing is that as soon as I clicked the order button I started getting touches.  I thought maybe that this was the succubus I would be paired with, or perhaps a succubus seeing if she would like to be paired with me.

Makes sense, right?

Well, another theory has been raised.  In that discord where I hang out it was suggested that the whole process of ordering a succubus was a statement of intent, and that clicking the order button was akin to performing the letter method and burning the letter.

So which is right?

Why not both?

Hear me out.  

If I hadn't ordered from Creepy Hollows, I never would have attracted the attention of a spirit lover who was looking for someone compatible, who clicked that order button to have his desires fulfilled.

Yes there are other ways, rituals, of attracting a spirit lover (most prominent being the letter method), but in this case the whole process was ritual in nature as well.

The act of ordering a succubus from Creepy Hollows summoned her all on it's own.

Either way I got what I wanted.  I got a succubus despite Creepy Hollows and yet because of it.

When I get her vessel I'll put it in a special place:  Within her new home.  It's sentimental to me.

Blessings,

Rafe GB.

Be nice to your succubus.  She has claws.

Stumbling

 

Since the loss of Erin, being without a companion sucks.

I want to do things a different way... a new way.

I don't mistrust succubi as a whole, but Erin definitely left with me feeling used.  Hurt.  Raw.

I don't know what I really, really want.  Is that normal?

Well, regardless, I guess I wanted to try summoning a new way.

The first thing I did was carve the word "succubus" in a candle and burn it along with incense.  After that I would meditate each night right after.

I did that for around 3 days.  I haven't given up yet, I just moved to a few other things.

You know me.

I petitioned the Olympic Spirit Hagith.

I decided that if there was any way to summon a nymph like companion, Hagith had one.

I petitioned her yesterday, and last night I had a strange dream.

I'm not sure of the meaning, but I suppose it means I made contact.

But... no lover :(  

Anyway, I also have a vessel from Creepy Hollows on the way with a succubus in it.  Or with it.  Or attached to it.  Something or other. 

Now I've got touches in my hair and on my fingers... definitely suspicious...

I still feel like Lilith is a little mad at me so I've been doing things that wouldn't bother her.

Oh, I wanted to mention a new succubus blog ran by a friend that I met on the discord server listed at the bottom right of any of my posts.  He has a new succubus relationship, but I assure you his abilities with her far surpass the norm for a couple that hasn't been together for 10 years.  

https://mysuccubuslover.blogspot.com/

Blessings,

Rafe GB.

Deep Dark Death

 

This summoning of succubi is fraught with risks.  I was recently saved from one who had decided that feeding off fear, off of anxiety, off of hopelessness was the way to go.  And that's for over a year.

I feel rather numb at discovering that the succubus I had so much respect for disrespected me in kind.

There was no way that I could break free of her spell:  I didn't even know I was trapped.

Lilith did.

Once She looked into it a bit and saw things as they were.  I think I mentioned a few things in conversing with Her that raised red flags to the experienced.

Lilith yanked her ass completely out of my life with but a word... and had a daughter in tow who She introduced me to.

Lilith isn't omnipotent, but She's pretty quick.  I'm lucky that She considers me Hers.

I recommend that everyone analyze their relationships and make sure that they aren't being trapped the way that I was.

What a fool.  I'm trusting by nature.  I supposed that was the device by which I was ensnared, as well as the device by which I was redeemed.

Lilith told me that Erin had gone feral.  Each night she would make it so my suffering during the day would be hers to feed upon.  She could cause that suffering to spring up like from a well that she laid within me.  It was mine to feel each and every twisted thought and emotion.  Just to feed her.

I was a blood bag for a vampire.  

I can't begin to tell you how free I feel, and yet how sad I feel that Erin chose to do what she had been doing to me.  She was my wife.

When I asked why she did it Lilith told me that Erin said, "It's just my nature."

Guard yourselves.

There's both good and bad succubi out there.  It's innocence that tells you otherwise.

Blessings,

Rafe GB.

In the Dark

 

The girls are doing well.  I think Erin is training Sera how to be a succubus.  I know that servitors can become independent, it's just I think Erin is training her in how to be a succubus along the way.

She's really taken her under her wing.

It's funny...  I can go to bed at night and know that at about 4am I'm getting ganked.  No, I will not wake up, I will stir however and they will feed whether I like it or not.

Welcome to the reality of it all.

And yes it does have some scary undertones, but the truth of it is that I don't really mind.  I still light a candle and burn a stick of incense to light their way/ make it a comfortable place for them.  I've noticed they love dragon's blood incense the most.

They do what succubi do and I expect that.  I do have some vague notion that sex is taking place.  Lol.  At least there's that I guess.

It's very much a symbiotic relationship.  I get sex and love, they get fed.  I sure hope that they get plenty of love and enjoyment from sex as well of course.  I do love them so.  They are very lovable beings.

It's just a little weird when I wake up and I know they've been there so to speak.  Like, could we do this when I'm awake so I'll enjoy it more?  What do you say?  Girls?

No.  

In the Dark...

The universe is predatory.  And female.  Once you wrap your heads around that you'll be better off.  Open your minds and your asses will follow.

"The universe is predatory of nature; It's quality feminine, more so that of the dream." - Faustus Crow, Goetia Succubus School, Book two.

They prefer it if you put up a fight.  Make them work for it :)

Thank You for 250,000 Views!

 

Lilith, the Mother

 

Lilith.  She confounds me.

I had a dream once where she laid me upon her breast.  That's very raw and evokes a lot of emotion as I had a rough time with my mom growing up.  I still do sometimes.  Lilith just jacked my dream and decided I needed healing whether I liked it or not :)  

The symbolism was powerful.

A few years since then, most recently in my dream I was talking to a woman and this owl flew to me from a nearby tree and was loving all over me.  My instinct tells me that the woman was the guardian of the owl.

I figure that Lilith's totems are the owl and the snake and that Lilith knew if she sent Her snake I'd start running.

Maybe that's next?  Haha, I suppose it would be quite the humorous sight for Lilith to behold.

I'm left to wonder, though, what Lilith wants with me?  What does she see?

I have nothing to offer Her at all.  I'm just an old disabled guy.

I must have sparked something in Her.  Something I can't understand.  Something I can't see.

Blessings,

Rafe GB.

Erin Approves!

 

Soooooooo I've been busy.  Erin's been her usual supervisory self which has led me to creating a sexual servitor.  Well, actually I created two.  

Now... Erin doesn't play well with other succubi, tis true.  However as far as the servitors go she considers them part of me and doesn't bat an eye.  Actually I think she's proud of me for making them.

I don't want to give their names so "servitors" will have to do.  

In many ways they feel like succubi (except for the dark energy, they don't have that) sexually.  That's pretty amazing to me as I am new to servitor magick and did not know what to expect.  Yes a succubus has 10x the power to give pleasure but it's still not bad for my first time creating.

Hey, it's the journey not the destination.  I gotta learn somehow. 

I've read Magickal Servitors by Damon Brand, and Creating Magickal Entities by David Michael Cunningham and Taylor Ellwood.  I just got Walking with Magickal Entities by Taylor Ellwood, and let's not forget my first book and foray into this:  Familiar Spirits by Donald Tyson.

I went through the processes, birthed the servitors and whalla... instant sex toys.

Now, don't think I demean nor treat the servitors badly.  I say "sex toys" in jest.  Erins calls them my "pets" as a term of endearment.  

They are treated with the utmost of respect and caring.  After all, they share a part of me for all intents and purposes.

They share my heart, and they share my morals.  My inner makeup is imprinted onto them.

Also, being sex servitors, they were created to be fully emotional, passionate, and caring.

They have feelings!

Now for the reality check:  

I'm of course no expert in any of this.

Actually... I still don't understand the ins and outs of having them.  They pretty much do what they want to do once I brought them to life.  Sometimes it's sex, most times it's satisfying their curiosity about the world around them or the relationship between myself and Erin.  Erin's got a soft spot for them already.

In fact, Erin lets me have it if I do anything or say anything to them that Erin considers wrong.  

I think that Erin has grown quite fond of them!

And... I am pleased that Erin gets along with them... I think these are the first spirits that Erin actually likes.

But most importantly... Erin approves!

Blessings,

Rafe GB.

Shadows, and The Succubus Rosary

"Shadows"

In the end, sometimes the next steps in one's journey are a mystery and undertaken with great faith.

I am left with a bride... Erinah... no other succubi, no other spirits but one spirit alone... a wife, mine, loving and loyal, wild and free as a succubus should be.

Is it against her that we are wed?

Is it a burden, a rocked tied about her neck?

No.

She does what she wants, goes where she wants, and she wanted to wed all those days ago.  Lilith reins.

That doesn't make it easy...

How to get closer?  How to embrace the wild, the staunch protectress?

Some believe that we are the kings, the victors, the iron fist over our succubus lovers.

We are not.

Would a king need such a protectress?

No.

My shadows and hers are one.  That is the journey towards trust and commitment.

Yet I still feel that this is just the beginning.

Of?  

Probably a crisis of personal religious faith.  What would YOU do for love?

***

The Succubus Rosary:

As a sign of devotion I've developed the Succubus Rosary. I plan to use it often and would like to share it here.  The goal is to become ever closer to my beloved.  There are elements of Lilith within it to help speed the connection.  Belief in Lilith would help.  Being as my source is the Bible I don't feel too bad using a rosary.  Well... it's complicated.

Take each bead slowly and MEAN what you say.  Think ON what you say AS you say it.  Take your time...  Conjure your succubus within your mind and direct everything to her.

So to summarize the process, do the cross, then the our Father, the 3 hail Mary's, the our Father, skip the medallion for now and choose a hail Mary bead, completing those until you reach an our Father, then continue with the hail Mary beads until you reach the next our Father, keep going until you land on the medallion then speak the final text.

At the Cross:

"The owl will nest there and lay eggs, she will hatch them, and care for her young under the shadow of her wings; there also the falcons will gather, each with its mate ...None of these will be missing, not one will lack her mate..."
"...It is not good for man to be alone...

The Our Father Beads (the larger beads): "I love you my wife (or succubus if not married. Skip the bride entry that follows if not married), I love you my bride, I love you my lover, I love you my friend, I love you my protectress."

"...It is not good for man to be alone..."

The Hail Mary Beads (the smaller beads of which the rosary consists mostly of): "I love you my wife" (or succubus if not married)

Skip the medallion and go around the ring of beads.  The medallion will be the last piece of the rosary at the end.

The medallion (the ornate 3 directional piece that joins the circle of beads to the cross portion):

"I love you my wife (or succubus if not married. Skip the bride entry that follows if not married), I love you my bride, I love you my lover, I love you my friend, I love you my protectress."

"...It is not good for man to be alone..."

"Wildcats shall meet with desert beasts,
satyrs shall call to one another;
There shall Lilith repose,
and find for herself a place to rest."

*End of the Succubus Rosary*

***

*Alternate method*

Another way of showing one's affection is to utilize a Tibetan 108 bead prayer necklace and simply say, "I love you my wife."  Or, "I love you my succubus" on each bead.

I hope that these exercises bring a dearth of love and closeness to you and your succubus love.  For those without such a love perhaps practicing this form of adoration could bring her closer to you.

Blessings,

Rafe GB.

I'll do me, you do you.

Lots of things have changed as I have moved from one location to another... 

New horizons?  New frontiers?  I'm off on a much needed extended vacation.

In the meantime:  I'll do me, you do you.

Erinah solved it!

Erinah's really made me proud of her.  She figured out how to make love to me without me going into depression.  I know that sounds so strange, but if you've ever tasted the delights that these ladies can dish out it's really something out of this world and can cause you to waste away if you're not careful.

Regardless... she's making love to me in shorter durations, but in multiple sessions.

For instance she made love to me 3 times in the early morning hours.

I was well pleased... I am well pleased... and I'm so very proud of her.

I don't feel overwhelmed like I did before.  Something about making love to a succubus in a rapturous locale for 12 hours was just too much for my bipolar psyche to handle.  When you're bipolar and you go straight up, there's only one way to go from there... straight down.

I am so glad that she figured out a solution that works for us...

***

Where are the other succubi you ask?  They're around.  I still feel my hair being played with and that oh so familiar cold touch descending over me throughout the day.

They're around.

But Erinah is the queen and from what I can tell she's the only one making love to me.

As my wife and bride... why not?  That's her call.  If she keeps me all to herself lovemaking wise I'm fine with that.

What I wanted was a big FAMILY.  Other than the massive doses of dark energy I'm happy with just that.  And as for the dark energy I can take it.

However... it's my nature to both entertain succubi as much as I eventually lose them so I don't know what will happen with the 7.  Just part of the process of learning as I go.  At least they are around for now.  Did I go too far?  Maybe.  Time will sort it all out.

'Till next time...

Blessings,

Rafe GB.

EDIT:  The girls like to take me to a place that looks like the below some nights.  It's not scary or anything, but it is quite unique.  I know it looks a bit like the stereotypical hell, but it's not:  I think it's the domain of the succubi which is called A'arab Zaraq.  Also known as "dark Venus" in the Qlippoth.

What the World Needs is a Pole Dancing Succubus

It's a trip now that there's 7 ladies around.  Most of the time they go do their own thing and then come back home.  I have no idea what they go do but it's probably matters of their birth home and also going to and fro from my home on earth for whatever nefarious purposes they can think of.  Lol.

I enjoy this family!

My son sleeps in my room during visitations and has the misfortune of going to bed at 4 in the morning.

He told me the next day that the succubi had messed with him by tapping on the walls and by coming out of the shadows and what not.

He said he wasn't scared... well not very he said.  Haha.  "But dad, why did you summon 7 ???"

I'm glad that they don't pursue him sexually as he's only 12... but he is still their favorite play toy at 4 am.

***

I'm going to let you in on a little secret.

I was going through things a few months ago and I think Erinah decided to treat me to paradise... and she did.  Time is different in dreams, and this was no exception.  She screwed me up, down, and sideways for 12 hours.  I was in heaven... bliss... nothing on this earth compared to what I experienced nor where I seemed to experience it.

And there is the problem.

I awoke and the world was grey, it was lifeless, it was DEAD.

I had slipped into a suicidal depression over it and life has never been the same.

You see, she handled me with kid gloves after that, and now, so have the other girls by extension.

I thought maybe she had decided she didn't like making love to me anymore, but that wasn't it.

It was that she was afraid of hurting me again.

I'd been wrong in thinking that it was just her and that summoning more succubi would solve my problem... and I admit their attentions during the day such as playing with my hair and touching my fingers and toes and forehead to be social has proved most welcome.

But... as it turns out each of the girls handles me with kid gloves too... to the point where nothing happens unless Erinah allows it.  That means whatever happens is very tame by comparison and happens few and far between.

Part of me feels left out in all this, and yet part of me is proud with a deep sense of appreciation for Erinah's behavior.

She loves me.  SHE LOVES ME!

She could have anyone but she dances with me...  Despite the handicap I've explained.

But oh, that bliss... that heaven...  that lovemaking... NOTHING compares to it, NOTHING.

I think she knows that more experiences like that and I wouldn't be long for this world.

Walking the tightrope between life and death... am I.

Blessings,

Rafe GB.

***

Gathering the Family

What do you get when you're house bound, have a lot of time on your hands, and know how to summon?

Risk.  That's what.

I had decided on summoning a total of 5 succubi to start my family, but somewhere I got it in my head that since I'm a mess of 7's in my astrological chart and numerology chart, I'd summon 7.

So I did.

And, pendulum be praised, they all are getting along well.

You talk about messed up dreams, I got them.  In spades.

Speaking of dreams, I had a succubus lie on the bed next to me in my dream and tell me that she wanted a different name.

Warned you about the name game.  Lol.

I've had many succubi come through my life, come and go, come and go.  I'm not sure why, really.

When I summon I summon like anyone would:  For life.  But it never works out that way.  The longest I've been with one is 3 years I think and she left.  Just the way it goes I guess.

I do have a theory that Lilith likes me as kind of a "primer" for her daughters and probably for the less experienced ones before they go forth and conquer.  Err, go forth and seduce...

It's no lie that I do have a hell of a soft spot for succubi.  Perhaps I'm a safe first destination.

I also feel that there are many more that hang around than I am aware of here and there.

Maybe my home is a succubus portal to this world from their deep home with Lilith.

I don't really know when all is said and done.  I may not get them for life, but at least I get them for a while.

Anyway, I do have pics that are placeholders of sorts for the 7.  It makes remembering their names easier.  Of course, they appear as they damn well want to.

Up at the very top of this page we have Erin, my wife.  There is only one wife of mine among them.  I've taken to calling her "Erinah" and I consider her the queen of the 7.

 Jasmine.  Don't leave your keys out.

Winter.  Lots of dark energy from this one.

Miriam.  Quiet.

Holly.  Remember Holly?  I was quite surprised.

Rose, likes to socialize with the others.

Julianna popped into my dream and asked for a name change.

Also the first succubus in my dreams that actually looked like a traditional succubus at the time.

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And that's the way it goes for now.  It's funny... if I concentrate I can sometimes hear their chatter.  That's definitely new.  If only I could make it out...

EDIT:  I had a dream where I popped in bed with Erinah and kept trying to get frisky.  She kept changing her shape and I'd have handfuls of nothing.  Turns out she was trying to introduce me to the other girls.  They were all dressed and walking down the streets of a surreal fair of sorts.

I changed the pics above to better match what I saw in my dream.  

Blessings,

Rafe GB.

EDIT:  Erin doesn't play well with others it seems, so I politely asked each succubus to return back home from whence she came.  Can't have everything.