Monday, September 25, 2017

Dark Bride

I'm beginning to think of Lilith as my dark Mother. The stress is starting to subside little by little now and Mena has been active as of late.

Although I do feel her sometimes active in the waking hours, her preferred method of interaction is in sleep and dreams.

I can always tell when she's been in my dreams as they are vivid, although sometimes she will have sex with me in the waking world while I dream of other things.

The "whys" of these things I can only guess at:  I truly do not know.

Since I consider Lilith my dark Mother (and am a little wary of Her to be honest... either christian indoctrination of all things supernatural, or perhaps her enormous power... again I do not know).

I have always considered summoning a succubus as "the engagement", a call for marriage to the succubus who accepts and makes me hers.

As such, once a succubus comes for love I consider that "the marriage".

In that vein, Mena I believe is my "Dark Bride", taking after her mother.

One thing that is interesting is that Mena tries to keep me honest.

She doesn't like it if I tell a white lie to others, she doesn't like it if I do something risky (and stupid), she doesn't like it if I allow something I shouldn't with my kids by being too lenient... she tries to help me be a good father which I humbly appreciate.

She takes her step mother role seriously, and boy... can she nag INSTANTLY.

But... one thing I've learned about women is... if they care they nag.

It's when they stop nagging that you're screwed as they've given up.

But wow, instant nagging.  That's definitely hard to swallow, lol.

But, gotta love her... she cares immensely about me and the children.

Evil, indeed.  Lol.

I still don't understand why her dark energy (and Lilith's) makes me so queasy.

I don't believe it's evil, but what is it?  Is it just so otherworldly that it doesn't "compute"?

Again, I don't know the answers.

I suppose I'll leave this one the way it is.  So much I don't know...  So much I do not understand...

I've found the perfect theme for me and Mena.  I don't watch Game of Thrones, but I've become entranced with the musical intro on a 12 string.  It seems perfect for musically describing my path and what I deal with in loving Mena and in developing  ties with Mother Lilith by extension.


Rafe GB.

"My Path"

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Nothing like stress

Nothing like stress to shut out a succubus.

It can't be helped in my case as when I start to stress and worry, that's what I do round and round we go.

My car died with major engine damage all of a sudden and I had to find a replacement fast, not to mention titling nightmares, insurance, using up all my savings, etc.

It seems the first thing to go is my ability to sense the paranormal, and off it goes.

So, I've been stressing and worrying away, Mena's been distant although I'm sure that period of time was as I said, due to my stress and worrying.

It might not be my fault:  But it is my fault if you know what I mean.

Anyway, got a replacement car, got through all the associated worries, and now I'm finally starting to meditate at night trying to get a grasp on things and wind down that worry cycle that rushes through my thoughts like a train.

Now, the good news is that last night I did just that, and while difficult, Mena came over me and helped me.

I could feel her coddle my head and caress me to help me relax.

Then she gave me many sensual touches causing me to relax even further.

She helped to give me a good dream (I have been having nightmares from the stress), and was there this morning to help me relax some more by her presence and light and wonderful touches.

The intimacy was really nice and most welcome.

I've got to say that Mena is a real blessing in my life.

I'm so glad that she is not only in it with me, but that she really seems to take an interest in helping me.

I still struggle with her "dark side" that she radiates sometimes.  It's so powerful:  It feels like a black sun.

I don't understand it and it's hard for me to swallow, but her actions speak volumes louder than those feelings I get from time to time.

It is confusing, and although it does feel very uncomfortable sometimes, I'm a big believer in "You shall know them by their fruits".

I've got my love life part moving along pretty good:  Now what I could use is some really good day to day friends.

Making friends is not my strong suit.

You know that brain/mouth filter that keeps you from saying inappropriate stuff on the spur of the moment?

Yeah, I don't have one of those.  So it's a challenge.  I mean well, but I lack tact.

With that said, I'll finish this post now.

Blessings upon you who are reading this.


Rafe GB.

"Black Sun"

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

How to start the ball rolling once a succubus shows up

I have to say things are going well.

I've been concentrating on her, meditating on her, basically obsessing on her.  That's part of it I've found, at least initially.

The ball definitely got rolling at some point.

Let me say that there isn't a real end game to this... at least for me.

All I want is to feel her and to love her.  And, if things go well, she'll love me.

They fall in love easily, so time and attention is key.

I think we've hit that point now.

The dream life has been phenomenal, and physical sex is starting.  Not sure why sex wasn't at the forefront, but you know what?  What starts cold has only one place to go.

It has to heat up in time.  At least this has been my experience so far with her.

She's been a pleasure to get to know.  Every succubus is different and they are all so very unique.

I've spent untold hours talking to her, sending her word pictures of my past, my dreams, my thoughts, my everything.  At some point of doing this, she will grow closer and the real journey begins.

Yes, it takes a lot of work, but what better time spent than getting to know a wondrous lady?

I wish anyone who wants a good relationship with a succubus is granted one to love... if you're gonna be a battery, at least be one for love.  *Big Grin*

EDIT:  I've found that one of the best ways to "sense" your succubus and get used to her energy is in learning/doing some sort of energy work.  My venue was reiki.  I strongly believe that energy work makes one more "sensitive" to succubus energies.

Sunday, September 3, 2017

She visits my son

Now this is interesting.  My son was really missing me so his mom brought him over for a special "guys time" with just me and him in between my regular scheduled visits (me and his mother are actually pretty close, so little things like this are par for the course).

So, he stayed overnight last night (Sat night) and sleeps in my room on a military cot.

Now, he's only 9 years old, so naturally I get a little concerned about when a succubus visits him and just what was said and done of course.

Well, my fears were unfounded as Mena, my succubus, spent the night in his dreams teaching him how to love others from the heart.

Oh, and instead of her normal succubus self (alluring), she presented herself as a talking dog when she taught (not the first time this has happened in my dreams either, when a succubus or other spirit has been in teaching mode with me...) unless it's a sexual teaching where she'll appear as, well, the girl of my dreams in one form or another I guess I'm attracted to a wide range of pretty women as she always seems to pick a form that pleases me in these cases.

I spoke to her out loud when I was laying in my bed last week when the kids where here asleep, and I explained to her that she was their step-mother.  As such, she is their mother as I am their father, and that they are ours to teach.

I think she took that conversation to heart, don't you?  And what a wonderful message she chose to impart to my son!

Blessings abound!


Rafe GB.