Monday, December 8, 2014
You May Sleep...
You may sleep with a brunette.
You may sleep with a red head.
... but you'll NEVER sleep with a Succubus :)
I've been drained the past few nights pretty bad.
Now wait... lol. It's not what you think and I'll explain.
The age old premise is that Succubi drain you of life energy through sex.
Honestly, in my personal experience it's nothing like that. In fact, after sex I have much more energy, I am much more alive and feeling "in the present".
My outlook is better, and my emotions are healthy and well.
But what I HAVE learned about Succubi is, lovable women they are: You don't always get what you want, they love you too much... you get what you NEED.
I often have dreams I call "teaching dreams". In this case I have been wrestling with things from my past and trying to come to peace with them... things that happened as a child, and after.
When my Succubus helps me to tackle these, it's very draining. I think it's because they make me more present in those "teaching dreams" in order to reclaim a part of myself that was lost long ago.
It's like I am partially rearranged to make room for what was lost. It's very hard to explain with words to be honest.
What beautiful women they are! I am healing thanks to them, I am emotionally drained from the dream experience, but I feel better... like part of me is being reclaimed. I have only Her to thank.
Edit: She came by this morning. She sat on my lap and I could feel our heart chakras merge for a bit (kind of felt like an affectionate hug, kiss, and "hello" all in one). After a few minutes of merging, I could feel tingling all over my body and heat rising off of it... and now I know why she visited: She grounded me. Back to my sarcastic, misspelling old self, lol.
Actually... I don't feel as drained and I feel I am in a much better state of mind now. That was very kind of her to come and get me all balanced again after helping me work on things through the night.
She's left for a bit... although we are always connected. I can think something and feel a light touch on my body and it reminds me both of Her, and makes me pay attention to my last thought. But when SHE comes, yeah... it's extremely palpable and changes the whole dynamic of my living space... the whole environment, my very aura and into the depths of my soul.
I love you, my Beloved Succubus. Thank you for loving me so much that you give not what I want, but what I need!
Thank you, my Love.