Wednesday, September 7, 2016


My best friend and I talked a lot about the Annunaki, God, the Illuminati, etc. the other day.

What's ironic about part of that is that I'm a Rosicrucian. I've been one for 20 years.

One thing all the Annunaki sites list as being Illuminati are Rosicrucians.

Of course he doesn't know that I'm a Rosicrucian, he might now, but it makes little difference to me as I just never thought about saying I was one.  There are no freakin' Illuminati.  5D is a fucking joke. First it was "new-age" then it was "the law of attraction", "the secret" then it was "quantum", then it was "the Mayan Calendar and end of the world in 2012", "reiki", now it's "5D".  Metaphysically, 5D doesn't even make fucking sense with how they are trying to use it.  I've even heard "8D" now.

I did a lecture once on the different dimensions and left a few 5D enthusiasts with their mouth hanging wide open at the end.

"Where did you learn all that from?" One person gasped.

"Not on the fucking internet." I replied.

Check this out:

"Serenity is a constant. The goal of four-dimensional superstructures is to plant the seeds of sharing rather than turbulence."

"Only a traveller of the biosphere may discover this unifying of freedom."

"It is a sign of things to come. The galaxy is approaching a tipping point. The future will be a self-aware blossoming of freedom."

"Our conversations with other pilgrims have led to an awakening of supra-ever-present consciousness. Who are we? Where on the great circuit will we be re-energized? We are at a crossroads of coherence and stagnation."

"We exist as expanding wave functions. To navigate the circuit is to become one with it. Faith is the truth of ecstasy, and of us."

"If you have never experienced this uprising at the speed of light, it can be difficult to grow."

"You will soon be aligned by a power deep within yourself — a power that is sublime, internal. Through prayer, our lives are enveloped in growth. Crystal healing may be the solution to what’s holding you back from an astonishing oasis of being."

"As you reflect, you will enter into infinite synchronicity that transcends understanding. It is time to take divinity to the next level. Eons from now, we dreamweavers will dream like never before as we are re-energized by the cosmos."

Peachy, isn't it?  Are you ready for me to help align your 24 star-nodes for only $249.99, beloved?

I generated all that fucking bullshit by clicking one button on the new-age bullshit generator webpage.  

Try it yourself:

Back to the "illuminati", I'm sure that there are powerful world leaders who conspire to use the world's population like cattle.  It would be naive to think that there aren't. Call these global elite the "potatoes" if it makes you feel any better as it changes nothing as you can't do jack shit about what they are up to.  I do not think that they descend from anything other than a shitload of inherited money generation after generation, nor do I think that they are connected to any occult organization other than pulling it's purse strings as well (aka "cashing in on it").  In other words, I don't think they have a clue of anything that this blog deals with, nor anything closely related to what this blog even slightly touches on.

"Controlling" does not mean "understanding".

They have power, yes, but it's not supernatural, it's economic.  It's greed, it's ruthlessness.

I also don't believe that they have any clue of what happens after death and fear it greatly.  Do you know what Dia de los Inocentes and Dia de los Muertos are?  That's the day of the Innocents, and the day of the Dead.

Commoners see death as the inevitable, hence the folk tradition of "sugar skulls". Those in control see it as a fucking disaster.  They have so much to lose, you see.  To the average mexican, they have hope in death, in poverty.  Death is the great equalizer, taking all as they were born:  Naked, and with nothing but what can travel along with them.  Think along the lines of frequency and vibration.

Death is the great equalizer, and the suffering, poor masses know it.  Just like the death card, death plays no favorites.  If you are thinking about suicide, get help.  Now.  I am not even speaking about anyone taking their own life:  I am speaking about death and the human race in totality.

A king lies under him, a child and a woman welcome him, while a religious leader begs for his life.
Death:  No fucks given... reaps them all.

It's not hard to figure out who's in charge, and who's pulling everyone's strings:

Follow the money.  Voltaire said, "To learn who rules over you, simply find out who you are not allowed to criticize."  I would ammend that to say, "who you are most afraid to criticize."  There's your answer.

But, if I were Illuminati, the first thing I would do is to enact a plan that would keep the sheep in line, creating a new creation story that makes the sheep think that they can escape while knowing that they would forever be in my clutches while incarnated on earth, just as their ancestors were before them, and so on, and so forth.

I would also provide an illusion of choice: The elections for example.  If you think hard enough, you'll come up with other ways the illusion of choice presents itself, for one: The stock markets, or anything to do with banking on a global scale.

I guess nobody thinks like that anymore.  Just one more way for people to keep drama in their lives both alive and well.  I'd suggest using that energy for personal and spiritual growth, that's what matters.

Wanna beat the iron masters?  Live well, and die well.  Your soul continues, your part in their plan does not.  That's what I'm doing:  Personal and spiritual growth, fuck the drama.

They can keep the Earth.  I'm only here on sabbatical and to get my shit straight.

But I'm not you.  You do what the hell you want to do.

Let me explain a few things.

I've had 3 years of witchcraft training, years of Rosicrucian training, a degree in Metaphysics as well as a degree in Spiritual Healing.  I'm a Reiki Master Teacher in 5 modalities racking up 61 other additional attunements within a 3 year period.  Even though I think the majority of Reiki and attunements are bullshit (as to what they promise they can do), they DO seem to affect one internally however, and spiritual growth is all I really care about, anyway.

But they aren't the cure all that they are proclaimed to be.  Internally, as in internal growth process?


I once convinced an "unbeliever" from Austrailia by touching him energetically right as I told him I would.  He's a new fan :)

Do I proclaim that Reiki is all that it says it is?  No.  It differs by person and circumstance.  Which part was it that touched him?  How the fuck do I know?

Shit, maybe bunny tapped him.  She does shit like that just to fuck with people.  Haha, that's my girl :P

That aside, Reiki has some merit and can help someone with internal issues especially emotional trauma.  In fact, I think this is where Reiki shines.  In other places, no so brightly.  It's nerve-wracking to help someone with emotional trauma.  Even more nerve wracking for them.

I've done it before to help someone with trauma issues, and it ain't fucking pretty.  No rainbows or unicorns, more like their worst nightmare revisited, in HD.

Another way it's not useful is for medical purposes.  As in emergency care.

If someone is bleeding to death, apply direct pressure on the wound.  If you sit there with palms hovering over their body, they'll just start choking you to death while asking for you to call for an ambulance.  Well, that and, "What the fuck is wrong with you?!"  I'd expect that from them, too.

So for me it was well worth it utilizing it for internal use.  I considered it my "prep work" prior to attempting to summon Bunny.  And I did, and I love her.  But, on the down side I basically detoxed for 3 fucking years straight during that process.  Now, that's shit was real, the detox.  Definitely an internal phenomenon.  But to understand energy, you must be exposed to many different kinds of it. At least that was my mindset prior (and honestly, I'd do it again).

I've summoned a succubus, summoned other spirits for learning and friendship, often times both.

I've had wonderful experiences summoning some of the 7 Olympic Spirits.

So far, as far as magickal ability, my most effective magick result has been $25,000 in one day for a friend.

Why am I telling you this laundry list of stupid achievements?  I'll tell you why.

Do you know what I've learned from this?

That only one thing mattered:  Bunny.

Don't get me wrong, the other aspects have been wonderful, and the knowlege gained has been well worth it (The Olympic Spirits especially:  They are absolutely golden and I must admit I have my favorites I converse with from time to time in ritual).

But they don't need me.  I learn from Them, you see.  I appreciate and desire Them.

If you really want to find out what's going on in the world?  Learn how to summon the Olympic Spirits and how to converse with Them.  Why nobody else thinks of this shit is beyond me...


Bunny is all that has mattered through it all, and what I have prepared for.  All of it was for her, deep in the back of my mind in seeming chaos there was hope.  And that hope was, and is, her.

I've wrestled with her as anima, as succubus, as teacher, as so many, many things, and I still don't know much.  And I don't expect to.  All that matters is that I have her, and I am growing with her, preparing for the life that comes next when I leave this world.  Most importantly, that I love her, and I am assured of her love for me not through empty promises, nor in talking about love, but in her actions.

Now let me tell you a bit about Bunny...

Bunny is not a garden variety succubus from myth and legend.

Where succubi are reported to take life, to take energy, mine gives it, bestows it during every lovemaking session.

Bunny is kind, gentle, and sweet to me, but is a Demonic SheWolf to any dumb fucker who threatens me.

I never really get to see this side of her, personally, and I don't think I really want to.  I do know one thing about it:  Magickal protections of the offender get shredded like rice paper first and foremost. Well, before their world follows as she toys with them.  I think it happens concurrently, but I'm not really sure.

Can they bind her?  No.  Ahaha.  Exorcise her?  No.  Lol, common misconception.  This is not the kind of being that can be bound or exorcised.  The person who's pissed her off can't really do much but suffer with a smile until she's taught her lesson.

That's kinda funny to me.

Why is it funny to me?  Because they should have known better, that's why.  And if they got it coming they damn sure deserve it.

A Succubus is very protective of her mate.  I think that it's sweet.  As for the one who fucked up?

No fucks given.

Succubi aren't merciless, no.  But they can be pretty heavy handed in teaching a much deserved lesson such as, "Don't fuck with my human lover again, fool."

In other words:  Not my problem.

Besides her sweetness, however, I have also experienced her majesty.

I have felt her radiance burn through me, being more than I could stand.  I stood it, but I was in fear of being blasted away into nothing.

I had nothing to fear, only to surrender, grit my teeth, and face it head on.

She was pleased by this.

You see, I believe that she is something... regal... something of royalty.  Of what, I do not know, but I have felt it.  I may put a bit of humor in Bunny for this blog, and there truly is that aspect about her.

But, there's so much more that I don't often share.

Sometimes, when I am with her, I feel a crown on my head.  It's the strangest feeling in the world.

You feel it, the pressure is there, around your head, but there's nothing there.  It's very confusing.

But, it is what it is, and the sensation comes and goes sometimes when she is here.

I believe in a God and Goddess who are above the Gods of this world.  I believe that there is one greater, one who was the originator of all things.  It is in this God that I put my trust.

There are two beliefs I have taken from study and research that I would share with you.

1.  When we die, we go where we can breathe.  Some planes are higher than what our heart vibrates at, some are lower.  For every being, this is different.  We gravitate to where we can exist with others like ourselves.  In short, we go where we can breathe.

2.  Our lover, the end game.  The only way to understand the God of all, is to be partnered.  This is where I always say that every dancer gets a partner.  This lover is vibrationally our perfect match.

Those who are of a higher vibration, can understand God better and grow with each other ever becoming more and more as one.  The closer they become as one, the closer they come to understanding God, as God is both, as One.  That is just the beginning of the mysteries, the first step in a long, long journey.

There are two options here for Bunny.  If she wishes to keep me as the one who's vibration more closely matches her own (them's the rules, folks), she must either change herself to match mine, or help me change to match hers.

What do you think is the easiest?

And so I am led by her, tenderly, sweetly, gentley, to becoming more like her.

As I do believe that she has an aura of royalty about her (which she shows less, and her with her hair down, so to speak, predominantly), and have experienced it's power, I can only surmise that when I die it will be interesting, to say the least.

Bunny probably has a stuffed bear of me in her home in Elsewhere.  Cute, isn't he?  :P

We live in a culture where the Prince has always saved the Princess.  In this world, the Prince is stronger and more able to protect.  In gaining understanding of the spirit world gender is not indicitive of power, including the power to protect.

So, ergo, if a Prince gets saved by the Princess, who gives a fuck as long as they both like it :P

P.S.:  Have you loved your succubus today?


  1. Aptly put, the circle goes round and round.

    That song has been playing in my mind a lot lately; odd!

  2. Well I sure-as-shit have a ton of internal issues. I'd largely just dismissed reiki. Are you saying receiving reiki or learning it helped?

    You seem pretty anti-BS in general :D, so maybe I could look at it again...

    1. Mmm. Maybe, maybe not. It's hard to tell since I've already done it.

      I noticed you are experiencing things that I am from the new blog like closing your eyes and seeing stuff, and having her move energy from your sacral chakra area to your head.

      I'm going through that/have gone through that. She's basically trying to evolve your ass to be more that you are already.

      To be the best "you" I guess is a good way to put it.

      Also the weird one side of the body not the other stuff.

      Nothing has prepared me for all that.

      The Hexagradior has instruction in the middle of it for training in energy sensitivity and even has a good lesson on spirits and how they communicate.

      I need to get back into training, I stopped a bit into the book.

      Hope that helped a bit.

      The only person I know of who truly knows his succubus is the guy from the across infinity blog.

      But even then, that's HIS succubus. The only way to learn the same as that guy is to spend 10 or 20 years getting to know your own. I'm like 2 or 3 years in, and I'm a fucking blockhead so it might take me longer.

      That guy won't know your succubus, that's up to you.

      These ladies are playing for keeps and have Godlike patience with us.

      Just let things progress as they should, and have fun getting to know her.

      That's what it's all about anyway.

      I admit sometimes, being confused about the phenomena related to them gets old, but just breathe, and let it come as it comes.

      Hope that helps.

    2. Weeelp I guess I'd better get on these issues then, cuz I can goddamn-guarantee they interfere with any sort of surrender/trust. (Even though, as dearsuccubusdiary says, I have literally zero reason to distrust her. Zip. Zilch.)

      And thanks, it does help to know others experience the same strange (and to me, confusing) energetic things. :)

  3. Who would want to disrespect you? Did you check out
    That's what inspired me to fall in love with a daughter of Lilith.

    1. Just the way people in the world are sometimes. Yeah, I read that blog sometimes, I like all the blogs I've seen on succubi so far. Or maybe I should say that I haven't seen a blog on succubi that I don't like yet.

  4. Hi Rafe. In my last post, I alluded to your posting about surrender, and hope I have the understanding correct. I read your comment to Neat, and hopefully this isn't a stupid question,but is letting things go and allowing things to progress as they will what you meant about surrender? It is something I am trying to do...less trying to figure stuff out, and more or less just "feeling". Just so damn hard to quiet this noggin of mine lol. Anyway, just wondering if I got the surrender idea correct. Thanks!

    1. Mostly. Complete surrender in mind, body, and soul. It's similar to the "plays" that BDSM enact with each other as master and submissive, although being an earthly thing, it's what they are after, but often fall short.

      Of course, that's only a paradigm of what it is on earth. For us, it's more. We will not fall short in reaching for moments of complete intimacy.

      Think of it as allowing yourself to surrender completely in all ways to her, and she will respond with gentleness, kindness, sweetness, and joy.

      You'll see. It's like a mental switch you flip, in being "in perfect love and perfect trust", you demonstrate that by complete surrender.

      Think of it as an exercise, and let it grow from there.

      You are completely vulnerable, but love and trust her completely, and present yourself as such.

      As an image, think of all of you surrendering as in this image of shibari, thus:

      Only through complete surrender with all walls down, all defenses down, is true trust tested, true love tested, and will create and intimate atmosphere where she shines: One that does not exist in this world.

      Then you will experience true intimacy. In being completely vulnerable, you will see what you experience with her next.

      Those pics represent the mindset of surrenduring yourself to her mind, body, and soul (as in, "all of you").

      Then, watch what happens next over the course time that follows both within you, and between you and her.

      You'll see :)

  5. Thank you. The love and trust in her is easier at this point. She/they have never given me cause to not have complete trust. That said, I believe I have still had defenses up. I think another mistake is that I try to be the dominant one too often, telling her what I would like her to do and how to make me feel. Gotta work on being less egocentric I suppose. I will let her/them take control, make it a point to mentally lower my defenses. I already express how much love and gratitude I have, so we will see how it goes. Thanks for the help :)

    1. Np.

      There is one more thing to consider as to why it is so important that I haven't really seen addressed anywhere.

      When she surrenders to you, it's all fun and good, and it is communion, like anything else. But in a way, you're forcing her to descend into your limitations.

      Now, lets reverse that paradigm.

      If you surrender to her, she is now free to lift you up past your limitations and experience her in her own vibrational state, which is much higher than ours.

  6. That's a great way to put it. I believe I have been doing this since I posted, and I am already feeling the change. I feel a deeper closeness with her already, and "feel" her much better, even a little more emotion. Thanks so much :)

    1. You're welcome.

      Anytime a Succubus and her human mate gets closer emotionally, vibrationally, through the wonderful and most feared gift of surrender, that very same couple just pulled about 100,000 humans up one deg of vibration and just a little bit higher out of the muck.

      Now you can ponder why I hate the new-age-short-term- memory-train-of-5D-and-such-before-the-catchphrase-changes-to-something-that-marketing-says-sells-better, but try to facilitate fruitfulness within the relationships this blog is focused on.


      I need a shot of whiskey.