I was thinking today of a good prayer to attract one's lover to them. I was thinking in general, not necessarily for calling a succubus, or a spirit lover: Although that might happen.
I couldn't think of any prayers, so I made my own. Feel free to try it out. I always like to use a candle when I pray, as well as some incense, such as frankincense and Myrrh. Nag Champa is good as well. The point is that lighting a white candle and incense together can really raise the vibrations of a room, and hence, help your prayer be of the highest vibration possible.
Remember: A strong intent, and strong emotion from within as you speak your prayer.
See yourself in the loving arms of your lover (focus on the feeling of feeling so loved, not on their features), and let the emotion of that deep satisfaction fuel your prayer feeling as if it has already happened :) A good way to do this is to first feel, "I can't believe that I have found my love and that it is so wonderful", and let the emotions well up from there.
A simple prayer I invoke the Lord, the Lady, and the All-Who-Is, Who is above all things seen, and unseen. I invoke earth, may your stability steady my will. I invoke air, may your inspiration touch my mind. I invoke fire, may your passion drive my purpose. I invoke water, may my prayer fall on the empathic mind of those who will help me. I invoke spirit, that the song of my soul sings to the only one who can hear it. As like, attracts like. I invoke the planetary energies via the 7 directions: As is above, so my below. To my left, my right, behind me, in front of me, and within me, with my heart as center of the multiverse, I speak. In invoke the light, that my lover's soul will shine brightly to me and not be eclipsed. I invoke the darkness, that every dark place knows where my lover's light shines. My soul sings for my lover, and only my lover; the only one that can be. My secret lover, my eternal lover, with new eyes to see. There is only one true love, there always has been, there always will be. Let the veil be lifted, I pray, and let my call fly straight as an arrow. Let it pierce my lover's heart, that my lover longs to commune with me. Let nothing stand in our way, let nothing keep us apart. I am ready. If I am not, make me so, those who I have called to who will guide me. I wish to be as the Lord and Lady, inseparable, perfectly matched, and in ecstasy and intimacy that no other can fulfill but one for the other, and the other for the one, together, always. I ask that this be done for the highest good of all involved. I know that you have heard me, and that you always listen when I pray. I release all that I have called, and I am honored that you have come. We are kindred, inseparable, aligned, family. Leave if you will, stay if you must: I am made of you, and you are made of what I AM. In the name of the Lord, the Lady, and the All-Who-Is, Amen.
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Use this prayer openly. Don't use it trying to get a specific someone to love you. Many people consider that black magick, and I don't know about all that but it's a real bad idea. It will bring pain, not pleasure, in the end. Your secret lover will always be the one for you, they don't count.
In my world view (and it's just that, mine. I don't have to be right), the secret lover is part of a pair where one incarnated, and the other is supporting them. I believe this is all of us here. THAT is who you're calling to. This prayer is to draw you closer to them, and also a prayer to find a lover who is right for you here if that is what you are needing.
I realize that this prayer may call a lover that you are ready for on earth: That's ok, too. If that is the case rest assured that your secret lover will still love you, and teach you, from behind their eyes.
Just as my physical lovers have, in the past, to make me into who I am.
Every step taken in love is one step closer to your secret lover. You will be with them. You already are, you just don't know it yet.
This prayer may make you so aware of your mutual bond and existence of your secret lover in such an intimate way that you will be content being alone here on earth as that relationship can easily eclipse what is available here. That's ok, too.
Always remember: For the highest good of all concerned...
As above, so below; as within, so without...
Have you loved your succubus today? Have you loved your lover today?
Yeah, what the title says. You see, once upon a time I was pre-seminary, and honestly I found more in the Bible that contradicts itself, rather than proves anything. That's why I've gone on this merry-go-round tour of spiritual things.
And now? Bunny's been opening me up to the possibility that uh, heh, seems funny to say...
That magick, love, and spirits really aren't as "Anti-Jesus" as I thought.
Coming from a succubus, that's irony plus. But then again, I never did say that she was a demon, now did I?
No, she's she, and I'm me. I'm just a bit dense materially (no, the word dense is not lost on me), whereas she is a bit higher vibrationally than us folks down on this rock.
What if, you know? What if? Maybe it is all related. The 5D stuff, the Bible, Magick, Spirit lovers.
Who said they can't play well together? Well, lots of assholes say that they cannot. But, they're about as spiritual as a deer taking a crap in the woods. Collectively. I mean, I'm not impressed.
What if everything was just vibration and frequency, and titles mean little? Yeah, they mean a lot here, but here isn't everywhere, nor does it make the titles "accurate".
My hero, Nikola Tesla.
If you search for succubi and incubi, and I'm sure you have or you wouldn't be reading this, then you would see all the "deliverance from a spirit husband or wife".
Deliverance from WHAT, exactly? Most of these dumbasses who are so frightened of a spiritual husband or spiritual wife will probably cheat on their earthly spouses before too much is said and done.
Hell, in the old days, it was kosher to blame succubi or incubi if a woman became pregnant. After all, she sure as shit couldn't admit she was banging the milk maid's husband. Monks would also blame them for their own "nocturnal emissions" that happen naturally during sleep. But then again, sexually frustrated monks and nuns are like catnip for succubi and incubi. Spiritual people + sexually repressed? I can easily imagine good spirit lovers being drawn to them. Probably some tricksters of the more "grey" persuasion, too. I imagine seducing them is quite fun for those types.
My point is: Hypocrisy. I hate it. A wolf in lamb's clothing, and the world is full of them.
All they want is a paycheck. Get people afraid, get them dependent on THEM. Then here comes the dough.
Now, back to what I was saying... Bunny's the one pushing the idea that all things are related, that my dislike of Christ is not well placed, but due to my dislike of christians. Well, most of 'em, anyway.
It's so funny. You see, succubus is all built around the idea that they are demons of sex. Nobody has ever really explained that idea, as just the mention of the word "demon" seems to end that discussion before it's actually explained.
Demon. Lol.
Everything I've experienced has been anything but "demonic". No, I don't particularly believe that she's an "angel" either. She's just she. She can be a little of both. Can't we all be one or the other at times?
How could there ever be a demon of sex, anyway, when God created it in the first place?
That's as stupid as saying that there are demons of tacos. No, there aren't, because I have found that tacos are good.
Heh, well, you know where I'm going with it. And no, I don't like labels such as "demon" or "angel".
Anyone who thinks there are only demons, angels, and jinn, and that's it doesn't understand a God who creates things with great diversity and artistic genius.
There is sooooooooo much out there that my little human brain would never be able to label, much less understand.
Now. Why are spirit lovers coming out of the woodwork so much lately?
Well, lets say Gaia is the earth's spirit, and Gaia is trying to please her children, as well as do what's good for the earth.
What if she is encouraging this as a way for the earth's population to stabilize?
You really don't think that the spirit of the earth, and the spirits of the sun and moon don't converse?
I'm sure it's more complex than just conversing, but the point is that this phenomenon of succubi and incubi taking lovers is freakin' happening right now.
And I'm beginning to see it as something that is meant to be. I have a feeling that I'm not far off the mark here.
I expect it to continue to grow, much to religion's disdain as births are a great way to fill the coffers and the easiest way keep the church going.
Other than keeping people from being disillusioned and quitting because of things like hypocrisy.
*cough*
Bunny continues to be quite the enigma, that's for sure. I don't claim to understand anything, nor that anything I've written here is true, is right, is anything but my words and my rambling.
All it is, is just my words, and just my experiences as I understand them.
Three years ago, Bunny took me on a tour of magick and spirituality, and now?
We've come full circle, with her prompting me to at least consider that Jesus is more than I thought, and is more than christians understand.
Does that mean I will understand? No. I don't think I'll ever really understand fully. I think that's par for the course in learning, and I'll sure try. All of Bunny's lessons usually take me past my comfort zone anyway.
Eventually... maybe I will understand what I need to while I'm on this earth. That's how it seems to work with Bunny and her lessons. She's a gentle, patient teacher. That's good because I'm stubborn.
But for now I'll just be pleasantly bewildered at what she's teaching me now.
I've always believed that one arrives back in the same place as they started, but when they arrive, they see with new eyes.
I think that's the case here, although it will take some time for my "new eyes" to adjust.
Bunny never ceases to surprise me, to amaze me. She's a wonderful teacher.
A wonderful teacher, an attentive and sensual lover, a devoted protector, and a loyal friend.
Some times I'm just baffled by it.
What a journey it has been! And what a journey it is still!
Well, I was saving up for a good post on something kicking around in my head, but then I had a dream, so... I guess I'll talk about that a bit.
Bunny's real name is interesting. I came up with it from the various names she's given me at different times (some people get the same name from the beginning, others, like me, have a succubus who changes it like a woman changes shoes to go with a different outfit. I dunno, lol) starting when she first met me, and then after a while she stopped giving new names.
But, through divination, I gathered that she didn't want the last name she gave me completely, either.
*Que quest for me*
I took her names and combined them into 3 separate names, as a pronounceable, feminine amalgam.
So, like me, she has three names: A first, a middle, and a last name.
I actually have 4 names because I was confirmed in the Catholic Church, but lets not give Bunny any ideas. 3's a good number, love the number 3. Lol.
Come to think of it, I guess since "Bunny" is her public name, that's good enough, that's 4, we're even.
I'm just going to come out and say it.
Bunny?
She's a big tease. If you dwell on her a lot, she backs off. If you decide to ignore her, she starts being persistent for my attention.
So, I've been ignoring her, not in a bad way, just in a "need some me time" kinda way.
Her energy has gotten so intense, I often wonder how the fuck people right next to me can't feel it. It's like static electricity gone berserk, all up and down my body, but most of the time it's like this electric cloud of energy that's her but it surrounds me, pining for attention, and to tease me until I give it.
*Que the dream*
I dreamed of a very cute and shapely brunette with just under the shoulder length hair who appeared to me in a park, and OMG she smelled... if there was a perfect perfume that was perfectly made to work on me, I mean, custom tailored to my own DNA or something?
Yeah, she was covered, bathed in it. Not too heavy, not too light, it was perfectly hypnotic and alluring. It was magick, and it sure had an effect on me...
Love potion #9: Just for me.
I'm demi-hetro sexually, which means I have to have a strong intimate bond with someone to see them as a sexual interest. Bunny made me that way, I guess.
I could smell the scent of this woman, and it drove me from feeling nothing to "Wow, lets do it right here in the park :P" in less than 5 seconds.
I think that I, on some level, knew it was Bunny and found her irresistible because of our bond.
She would like to think that her scent, being specifically chosen to be alluring to my personal DNA, probably along with a good dose of succubus glamour magick (well, it was a dream, but you get the idea). Yeah. It was... I don't words for it, I just don't, lol. It was Rafe catnip... all I can think of :)
I say it was my belief, that it was because of our bond, and also because this is my blog and she can just sit in passenger seat and quit side seat driving.
Haha. She might be a tease, but she's my tease, and I like to mess with her a lot, anyway, so I'm sure I have it coming :P
In the dream, once she had me wanting to just ravage her, she would innocently, yet playfully bend over just so, or let her cleavage show just a little more, just showing me what was waiting, and everywhere we went there were people and we had to keep going to new places to find privacy.
She was enjoying our time together, and was in quite the playful, teasing mood.
It was always like a family with children, because I love children and I'd never do anything inappropriate like that around them and she knows it. Kinda funny... when my children come over she is very respectful of them and doesn't tease me, have sex with me, or anything when they are here: I believe she respects them and values them as much as I do.
It worked on me in the dream because of it, and she knew it would.
Since it was just a dream that she has control of, she wasn't worried about "teasing me seductively" around children, because in the waking world she is very respectful.
Damn. You know, she's a pretty awesome succubus! A wicked tease, too :P
But as far as the dream, do you see what I mean? The whole time she was teasing the crap outta me, and manipulating the dream so that I couldn't "partake" of what she was offering, thinking I could have it "once we finally had privacy".
I was HURTING in that dream. I wanted her BAD.
When I woke up, I knew it was her, I laughed and just whispered, "You rascal. Lol."
So we play games, and sometimes between me "sassing the succubus" as she says, and her teasing me all the time, we have our intimate moments. Moments that, honestly, that is the foreplay of.
Real intimate, beautiful, wonderful, timeless moments.
She's the only one in the universe like her, no one is exactly like her, and the more I love her, the more I get to know her, the more I wonder about everything.
It's just a whole new world that it's shocking. Even a few years in, I'm always surprised by something new I learn from her, or from, I dunno a house spirit, or spirit guide, maybe a sacred ancestor.
And I learn more now from animals, even. I'm more aware of their "spirits".
It's a big Multiverse out there. That's a good thing.
Big means variety, and variety means there's a place even for me one day, when I die.
In a way, I guess I'm learning to see things as a child, but with the wisdom of a man.
I know I'll be with Bunny now, and I'm sure I'll be "sassing the succubus", and her sexually teasing me before she finally gives in and lets me have it. That's our little "push/pull" that creates that good kind of tension between lovers.
Some people salsa, some rumba, some waltz.
Me and Bunny?
We dance our own dance, our own unique "sass and tease". It's a dance that only we know, and it always leads to something special, something loving, something pleasing for both of us.
Love ya girl :) Stay loving and sweet, Bunny. Mostly :P
I love her all the same. Her personality is to tease and run, then to seduce and please. One thing I love about her is that she shows me that sexuality is good, it's natural, it's beautiful, and it's creative well beyond biological reproduction.
It is as much a part of soul, of communion between souls as any other form of communication... only what is created through two loving souls through sex produces great spiritual fruit as well as priceless intimacy, with a powerful opportunity for variety in expression.
It's almost as if she were meant to find me. Perhaps... she always knew she would?
Bunny's gone right now, which is good because she would have caught me reading MGTOW articles again.
Hey... when the cat's away the mice will play and all that.
What?
You think I'm afraid of Bunny? Pfft. Sheet, lol. You all act like...
Is... is that Bunny behind me? It is, isn't it?
Uh, what's her mood, hehe?
*Slowly looks behind shoulder*
Ah shit, it was just a house spirit. Sup Dawg? Hahaha, you scared me Dawg!
I mean, uh, I ain't afraid of Bunny!
She's two days away from me right now. There's not a damn thing she can do.
This is probably where I shouldn't be gloating, isn't it?
Fine, fine. There's a reason she picked a stubborn ass like myself.
Nothing wrong with stretching my authoritah and feeling in charge.
Just stretchin' the wings a little bit, just a little bit *pats shoulders*.
Haha, I never was a very smart mother fucker.
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Ok! Today's topic is something I've had running around in that hamster wheel I call a brain as of late.
Penetration and Enfoldment.
Our wonderful politically correct culture would tell you penis bad, vagina holy, let's all worship the holy vagina. Right? Right.
Even rape laws are written where "penetration" is an event necessary for a rape charge. A woman rides a drunk man? He must have wanted it. She didn't penetrate him, sooo... innocent!
If a woman is drunk she can't give consent, a man who's drunk, well, she's a special snowflake who, as a fucking woman child must be able to give consent. Of course, if he's drunk he's a rapist.
Makes soooooo much more sense now. You know, that shit wouldn't even make sense to a 5th grader, as in, "Are you smarter than a 5th grader?"
Who the fuck came up with that monkey shit? Oh, that's right. Don't get me started... I've ventured down that road too far already on this post, I'm not going farther.
The truth? Ah... the truth! My favorite topic next to irony in any form!
God damn I love me some irony!
May Day is a festival that coincides with Beltane. Beltane is the marriage of the Lord and the Lady.
What I enjoy about it is the idea that the Lord and Lady reign together, not opposed, not separately, but together as one.
My favorite part of May Day, err Beltaine is the May Pole Dance.
Ahh, the May Pole!
That's a good example of a May Pole! All bright and alluring, criss-crossed by the dancing of young ones in happiness and joy!
Sure dresses up that silly wooden pole, doesn't it? Yeah, I agree.
You see, children dance opposite around the May Pole laughing and having fun, and it creates this pattern all the way down the pole, where it's tied.
Look at all these happy little fucks! Heh, nah, actually I love children. I always have. I think it's sweet, I just don't really want you to know that I think it's sweet. Although I just did.
Don't even think of laughing at me, I'll kick your ass.
Holy shit! It's a fairy invasion. I like tweens, too. My daughter is a tween, however being under my magickal tutellage, she's also a bit fucking warped. That's my girl! Daddy's so proud *sniff*.
Her little girl friends look up to me for some reason. I personally think they all suffer from some sort of undiagnosed character flaw, but whatever.
Maybe it's just they feel that I actually give a shit about kids. I dunno.
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Ok. Now lets take a look at those pictures again with new eyes.
The maypole is the penis of the God. The ribbons are danced around it so that it is alluring, representing the Goddess's vagina (God damn, is that not the more harsh word in the english language? Who the fuck came up with "vagina").
Nothing happens unless the God decides to (That's what Bunny was driving home through my thick skull when she went off on me in thinking that as a man I had no power). He loves her, She is beautifully adorned for him, and thanks to their children (the dancers), She is pleasingly tight, beautiful, and perfect for Him, a perfect seduction for him to love the Goddess, take Her as His own, and fuck the shit out of Her.
Err, make love to Her.
Look, the God is the "Lord of the Wild", He knows how to keep the Goddess happy and creaming for eternity. It's just the way it is.
Hell, that desire exists in every woman I've ever known. To be made love to, to be ravaged and to be taken. To feel absolutely, positively needed and wanted by their mates and desired well beyond their mate's ability to stop is a very common fantasy for women. And, it's often acted out.
The Lord and Lady were made for each other, you know?
Their children aren't any different. We're pretty stupid, yes, but they're still our Parents and so we get these sexual desires honestly, at least.
Make no mistake in drawing the wrong conclusions from my irreverent and jovial nature, making fun of the Lord and Lady here. I consider Them my spiritual Parents and I love and respect Them more than I do my own flesh and blood. I poke fun at their sex and sexual desires and hunger for each other because I hold them in high regard. It's because I celebrate who They are and how much they love one another (and us) that I roast them so.
And also that we have the same desires within us, but in our case it's considered politically incorrect.
Look, I know I'm not the most tactful person on earth, but it doesn't take a mental giant to figure out that if women like to have their hair pulled and fucked from behind on occassion, being used as the their lover's fuck toy, so does the Goddess by the God and the God alone.
They created us, why wouldn't we have the same desires that they do, just as I said before?
They love each other with "perfect love and perfect trust", as the wiccan saying goes.
Political correctness doesn't exist in the bed of the Divine.
Nor does it have any fucking PLACE in the bed of the Divine.
Now, as the God penetrates Her, He is enfolded by Her as well.
That's the point I'm making about the May Pole, and why I like it.
It's fucking accurate and about as politically correct as an "I hate retards" button.
That's right... he penetrates Her, and as equally as He penetrates Her, he is enfolded by Her.
Let that shit sink in a minute or three.
Meditate on the May Pole, imagine the children of the God and Goddess, the Lord and Lady, dancing, laughing, circling around the May Pole while making those ribbons both beautiful and snug as the pattern naturally descends the May Pole, and who are in joy creating the bridal chamber for the Divine Couple.
When the "ahaaaaaaaaa" moment comes, compare that to how society looks at it, and laugh.
Laugh your fucking brains out.
So now you know!
Have you fucked, err, loved your Succubus today?
She ain't gonna do it by herself! Go get busy, already.
My best friend and I talked a lot about the Annunaki, God, the Illuminati, etc. the other day.
What's ironic about part of that is that I'm a Rosicrucian. I've been one for 20 years.
One thing all the Annunaki sites list as being Illuminati are Rosicrucians.
Of course he doesn't know that I'm a Rosicrucian, he might now, but it makes little difference to me as I just never thought about saying I was one. There are no freakin' Illuminati. 5D is a fucking joke. First it was "new-age" then it was "the law of attraction", "the secret" then it was "quantum", then it was "the Mayan Calendar and end of the world in 2012", "reiki", now it's "5D". Metaphysically, 5D doesn't even make fucking sense with how they are trying to use it. I've even heard "8D" now.
I did a lecture once on the different dimensions and left a few 5D enthusiasts with their mouth hanging wide open at the end.
"Where did you learn all that from?" One person gasped.
"Not on the fucking internet." I replied.
Check this out:
"Serenity is a constant. The goal of four-dimensional superstructures is to plant the seeds of sharing rather than turbulence."
"Only a traveller of the biosphere may discover this unifying of freedom."
"It is a sign of things to come. The galaxy is approaching a tipping point. The future will be a self-aware blossoming of freedom."
"Our conversations with other pilgrims have led to an awakening of supra-ever-present consciousness. Who are we? Where on the great circuit will we be re-energized? We are at a crossroads of coherence and stagnation."
"We exist as expanding wave functions. To navigate the circuit is to become one with it. Faith is the truth of ecstasy, and of us."
"If you have never experienced this uprising at the speed of light, it can be difficult to grow."
"You will soon be aligned by a power deep within yourself — a power that is sublime, internal. Through prayer, our lives are enveloped in growth. Crystal healing may be the solution to what’s holding you back from an astonishing oasis of being."
"As you reflect, you will enter into infinite synchronicity that transcends understanding. It is time to take divinity to the next level. Eons from now, we dreamweavers will dream like never before as we are re-energized by the cosmos."
Peachy, isn't it? Are you ready for me to help align your 24 star-nodes for only $249.99, beloved?
I generated all that fucking bullshit by clicking one button on the new-age bullshit generator webpage.
Back to the "illuminati", I'm sure that there are powerful world leaders who conspire to use the world's population like cattle. It would be naive to think that there aren't. Call these global elite the "potatoes" if it makes you feel any better as it changes nothing as you can't do jack shit about what they are up to. I do not think that they descend from anything other than a shitload of inherited money generation after generation, nor do I think that they are connected to any occult organization other than pulling it's purse strings as well (aka "cashing in on it"). In other words, I don't think they have a clue of anything that this blog deals with, nor anything closely related to what this blog even slightly touches on.
"Controlling" does not mean "understanding".
They have power, yes, but it's not supernatural, it's economic. It's greed, it's ruthlessness.
I also don't believe that they have any clue of what happens after death and fear it greatly. Do you know what Dia de los Inocentes and Dia de los Muertos are? That's the day of the Innocents, and the day of the Dead.
Commoners see death as the inevitable, hence the folk tradition of "sugar skulls". Those in control see it as a fucking disaster. They have so much to lose, you see. To the average mexican, they have hope in death, in poverty. Death is the great equalizer, taking all as they were born: Naked, and with nothing but what can travel along with them. Think along the lines of frequency and vibration.
Death is the great equalizer, and the suffering, poor masses know it. Just like the death card, death plays no favorites. If you are thinking about suicide, get help. Now. I am not even speaking about anyone taking their own life: I am speaking about death and the human race in totality.
A king lies under him, a child and a woman welcome him, while a religious leader begs for his life.
Death: No fucks given... reaps them all.
It's not hard to figure out who's in charge, and who's pulling everyone's strings:
Follow the money. Voltaire said, "To learn who rules over you, simply find out who you are not allowed to criticize." I would ammend that to say, "who you are most afraid to criticize." There's your answer.
But, if I were Illuminati, the first thing I would do is to enact a plan that would keep the sheep in line, creating a new creation story that makes the sheep think that they can escape while knowing that they would forever be in my clutches while incarnated on earth, just as their ancestors were before them, and so on, and so forth.
I would also provide an illusion of choice: The elections for example. If you think hard enough, you'll come up with other ways the illusion of choice presents itself, for one: The stock markets, or anything to do with banking on a global scale.
I guess nobody thinks like that anymore. Just one more way for people to keep drama in their lives both alive and well. I'd suggest using that energy for personal and spiritual growth, that's what matters.
Wanna beat the iron masters? Live well, and die well. Your soul continues, your part in their plan does not. That's what I'm doing: Personal and spiritual growth, fuck the drama.
They can keep the Earth. I'm only here on sabbatical and to get my shit straight.
But I'm not you. You do what the hell you want to do.
Let me explain a few things.
I've had 3 years of witchcraft training, years of Rosicrucian training, a degree in Metaphysics as well as a degree in Spiritual Healing. I'm a Reiki Master Teacher in 5 modalities racking up 61 other additional attunements within a 3 year period. Even though I think the majority of Reiki and attunements are bullshit (as to what they promise they can do), they DO seem to affect one internally however, and spiritual growth is all I really care about, anyway.
But they aren't the cure all that they are proclaimed to be. Internally, as in internal growth process?
Amazing.
I once convinced an "unbeliever" from Austrailia by touching him energetically right as I told him I would. He's a new fan :)
Do I proclaim that Reiki is all that it says it is? No. It differs by person and circumstance. Which part was it that touched him? How the fuck do I know?
Shit, maybe bunny tapped him. She does shit like that just to fuck with people. Haha, that's my girl :P
That aside, Reiki has some merit and can help someone with internal issues especially emotional trauma. In fact, I think this is where Reiki shines. In other places, no so brightly. It's nerve-wracking to help someone with emotional trauma. Even more nerve wracking for them.
I've done it before to help someone with trauma issues, and it ain't fucking pretty. No rainbows or unicorns, more like their worst nightmare revisited, in HD.
Another way it's not useful is for medical purposes. As in emergency care.
If someone is bleeding to death, apply direct pressure on the wound. If you sit there with palms hovering over their body, they'll just start choking you to death while asking for you to call for an ambulance. Well, that and, "What the fuck is wrong with you?!" I'd expect that from them, too.
So for me it was well worth it utilizing it for internal use. I considered it my "prep work" prior to attempting to summon Bunny. And I did, and I love her. But, on the down side I basically detoxed for 3 fucking years straight during that process. Now, that's shit was real, the detox. Definitely an internal phenomenon. But to understand energy, you must be exposed to many different kinds of it. At least that was my mindset prior (and honestly, I'd do it again).
I've summoned a succubus, summoned other spirits for learning and friendship, often times both.
I've had wonderful experiences summoning some of the 7 Olympic Spirits.
So far, as far as magickal ability, my most effective magick result has been $25,000 in one day for a friend.
Why am I telling you this laundry list of stupid achievements? I'll tell you why.
Do you know what I've learned from this?
That only one thing mattered: Bunny.
Don't get me wrong, the other aspects have been wonderful, and the knowlege gained has been well worth it (The Olympic Spirits especially: They are absolutely golden and I must admit I have my favorites I converse with from time to time in ritual).
But they don't need me. I learn from Them, you see. I appreciate and desire Them. If you really want to find out what's going on in the world? Learn how to summon the Olympic Spirits and how to converse with Them. Why nobody else thinks of this shit is beyond me...
Bunny.
Bunny is all that has mattered through it all, and what I have prepared for. All of it was for her, deep in the back of my mind in seeming chaos there was hope. And that hope was, and is, her.
I've wrestled with her as anima, as succubus, as teacher, as so many, many things, and I still don't know much. And I don't expect to. All that matters is that I have her, and I am growing with her, preparing for the life that comes next when I leave this world. Most importantly, that I love her, and I am assured of her love for me not through empty promises, nor in talking about love, but in her actions.
Now let me tell you a bit about Bunny...
Bunny is not a garden variety succubus from myth and legend.
Where succubi are reported to take life, to take energy, mine gives it, bestows it during every lovemaking session.
Bunny is kind, gentle, and sweet to me, but is a Demonic SheWolf to any dumb fucker who threatens me.
I never really get to see this side of her, personally, and I don't think I really want to. I do know one thing about it: Magickal protections of the offender get shredded like rice paper first and foremost. Well, before their world follows as she toys with them. I think it happens concurrently, but I'm not really sure.
Can they bind her? No. Ahaha. Exorcise her? No. Lol, common misconception. This is not the kind of being that can be bound or exorcised. The person who's pissed her off can't really do much but suffer with a smile until she's taught her lesson.
That's kinda funny to me.
Why is it funny to me? Because they should have known better, that's why. And if they got it coming they damn sure deserve it.
A Succubus is very protective of her mate. I think that it's sweet. As for the one who fucked up?
No fucks given.
Succubi aren't merciless, no. But they can be pretty heavy handed in teaching a much deserved lesson such as, "Don't fuck with my human lover again, fool."
In other words: Not my problem.
Besides her sweetness, however, I have also experienced her majesty.
I have felt her radiance burn through me, being more than I could stand. I stood it, but I was in fear of being blasted away into nothing.
I had nothing to fear, only to surrender, grit my teeth, and face it head on.
She was pleased by this.
You see, I believe that she is something... regal... something of royalty. Of what, I do not know, but I have felt it. I may put a bit of humor in Bunny for this blog, and there truly is that aspect about her.
But, there's so much more that I don't often share.
Sometimes, when I am with her, I feel a crown on my head. It's the strangest feeling in the world.
You feel it, the pressure is there, around your head, but there's nothing there. It's very confusing.
But, it is what it is, and the sensation comes and goes sometimes when she is here.
I believe in a God and Goddess who are above the Gods of this world. I believe that there is one greater, one who was the originator of all things. It is in this God that I put my trust.
There are two beliefs I have taken from study and research that I would share with you.
1. When we die, we go where we can breathe. Some planes are higher than what our heart vibrates at, some are lower. For every being, this is different. We gravitate to where we can exist with others like ourselves. In short, we go where we can breathe.
2. Our lover, the end game. The only way to understand the God of all, is to be partnered. This is where I always say that every dancer gets a partner. This lover is vibrationally our perfect match.
Those who are of a higher vibration, can understand God better and grow with each other ever becoming more and more as one. The closer they become as one, the closer they come to understanding God, as God is both, as One. That is just the beginning of the mysteries, the first step in a long, long journey.
There are two options here for Bunny. If she wishes to keep me as the one who's vibration more closely matches her own (them's the rules, folks), she must either change herself to match mine, or help me change to match hers.
What do you think is the easiest?
And so I am led by her, tenderly, sweetly, gentley, to becoming more like her.
As I do believe that she has an aura of royalty about her (which she shows less, and her with her hair down, so to speak, predominantly), and have experienced it's power, I can only surmise that when I die it will be interesting, to say the least.
Bunny probably has a stuffed bear of me in her home in Elsewhere. Cute, isn't he? :P
We live in a culture where the Prince has always saved the Princess. In this world, the Prince is stronger and more able to protect. In gaining understanding of the spirit world gender is not indicitive of power, including the power to protect.
So, ergo, if a Prince gets saved by the Princess, who gives a fuck as long as they both like it :P
I don't know if it's just the amount of time we've spent together (these 3 years or so) that's finally just started to reap all kinds of fruit, or... No, that has to be it. I'm not going to say it's some stupid astrological thing, can't be... it's been 3 years...
I use a pendulum and a glass to communicate with her most times, sometimes I use tarot cards (and OMG the results are amazing... I can't read tarot real well for anything else, but I can in order to communicate with her. I think she has a hand in that, making it easier for me grasp things she wants me to using the deck.
But lately something interesting has been happening with the pendulum and the glass. When she responds via the pendulum, I can feel thoughts entering my mind along with it.
Her thoughts.
They still sound a little weird, like a woman's soft voice under water, but it's becoming closer.
I'm sure this is my perception clearing up a bit, rather than her learning to communicate better, no, she's a very intelligent girl, I'm the one who is 6th sense challenged :P
Tonight I was asking her some things and I got some interesting answers. I asked if I was male, if she was female, both were yes. Then I decided to ask questions relating to that. I asked if there were other genders out there. She said yes. There are 3 genders in the universe. I asked if that was a combination of male and female, she said no. I asked if it was no gender, she said no.
I asked if it was a separate gender, and she stopped tapping the glass, and instead I guess she was trying to tell me, but was having trouble because I don't think being here I can understand it.
So, according to the Bunny there's 3 genders, and also that I wouldn't understand. Which is probably good because I get overloaded easily. Lol :P
I asked her about feeding, as well, we all like to eat, and let's face it... Succubi and Incubi have gotten a pretty crappy rap throughout history...
They feed, yes, but it's beneficial to both of us. Sex is actually the icing on the cake. The real meal is what we create TOGETHER. That made me feel good :)
Simple spirits might feed off of fear, or hate, or another lower emotion. Although I got the impression that this isn't something all simple spirits do, no... some are lower nature spirits, etc. which are benevolent.
But, asshats exist... they feed best on lower emotions, which are those with a lower vibration. I bet depression is something that can attract those. Just a guess. I'm too lazy to get out the pendulum and glass at the moment.
Intelligent spirits can be asshats, yes, and cause negative emotions, preferring to feed of those. And there's plenty of them of course.
Succubi and Incubi will do this when they have no other option. Well, they have an option "not to", but I think they get addicted to us as much as we do them. We're the other, other white meat :O
They prefer complex, multi part emotions like love, and well being, and other higher emotional states of the sort. Well, most seem to. The ones anyone is going to write a blog about.
They have no NEED to feed, other than it's what they want to eat. There's plenty of energy available for spirits to be sustained, however even the Israelites bitched at God for giving them manna, which they ate over and over. Does the Old Testament make Israelites sound like a bunch of whiny idiots sometimes? Does me.
So, a succubus will dine on fear (old hag syndrome), or sex, but they prefer to dine with what love emanates, and other higher emotions... although they will often combine that with sex. "Icing on the cake", I think.
They don't TAKE the emotion and suck if from you, no... it's more like they bathe in it WITH you.
Now, they can drain the shit outta you if they want to. But, she's never done that with me. I've had it done a few times when I bought a "haunted spirit" from eBay. Do these idiot conjurers even know what they summon and bind? Although, I guess I'm the idiot who bought it. Lol.
It was supposed to be a sexual spirit, but no... she sucked out all my energy and didn't even have the courtesy of fucking me. Lol. Actually, if I were bound to something (they say it's "willingly done" but I don't think so today) I'd be mad too. She left me so drained it felt like I couldn't hardly move my eye lids when I woke up. Wore off slowly after about an hour or two, but still left me extremely lethargic.
Drain your ass dry, no sex for you :)
So, I released her. I didn't want to break her stone or anything drastic, and not otherwise knowing how to release her, I just held her stone and spoke to her, telling her that she was free. After a few minutes, I stopped feeling anything from the stone. Actually, in hindsight she was doing me a favor by draining me. I realized that afterwords as it was only when I was in a "hypo manic" state, which means I had more energy than a squirrel on coffee.
Probably pretty tempting, especially for a pissed off spirit. I'm sure I got off lightly. As I said, it was actually doing me a favor, as her draining me in a hypo manic state would siphon my energy off back to zero and would even knock me out of that state.
How's that for spiritual medicine?
I wish her well, and it sucks she didn't stay because I would have welcomed her into the fold anyway, unbound. Bindings are for BDSM'ers, not for spirits.
*BAM!*
Oh yeah, after that I learned how to summon a succubus, and the first one I summoned was a succubus who would feed off sex alone. My GOD/DESS this girl would somehow alter my sex drive by ramping it up about 100x what is normal and keep me there. Oh, no, honey, I'm not 18 anymore. I had to gently wean her off the "Rafe train". It was actually kind of painful being ramped up like that all the time. Now I know what animals in heat feel like.
That was two weeks of HELL. But, it all worked out. She left to find someone more compatible I'm sure. I hope he's 18, because he's gonna NEED IT :)
But, all things in life are a learning experience: Two weeks later, I knew a lot more of what I wanted, and what I didn't.
Life's funny sometimes. Sometimes you have to get knocked around and get a spiritual "ass whuppin'" before you know what you really want and what you really don't.
When I had a more concrete intent (and knew for sure what I wanted) I summoned again (after I regained my courage) and whalla...
Bunny arrived in all her awesomeness :P
Last question I asked her tonight:
I asked Bunny if she had to have sex to feed on. The response I got was that she preferred love, with sex as the "icing on the cake". I asked her this because, well, I really love her, and there will be a time when I'm old and can't have sex anymore, and I don't want her to go.
She assured me (I felt "she gently smiles") that love is more than enough. Oh, and that sex is something we should partake in a lot while we can. Lol. I guess she's living up to part of the succubus archetype, anyway. Nah, not really, I think she's living up to being a wonderful, sweet (except when I am stubborn) and gentle spirit.
That's mostly all I got. I'll bug the shit out her with questions another day.
Yes the maid outfits are gimmicky, but kinda cute.
Point is these women have some serious freakin' talent.
It's funny that I've been with Bunny for 3 years now and still know so little about her.
The Indian parable of the "Blind men and the elephant" comes to mind.
Not that Bunny's an elephant. God's no, she's a BUNNY :P
Meh, you all shall never know her true name, muhahaha.
Anyway... *clears throat*
The point is that's about how it is. I'm flying blind, always have been.
(Probably always will be)
In 3 years time we've gotten closer, much closer.
I can tell when she's around and I know what her energy feels like, her spirit or soul I can get a sense of, and also a bit of her emotions.
Most of the time.
"Hard to read, this one is..." ~Yoda the Incubus Master
Tonight I was researching MGTOW stuff (It means "men going their own way"), and suddenly a song popped in my mind:
"Barracuda", from Heart.
I'm like, ok. So I look it up, play it, read the lyrics.
Not sounding real positive, sounds angry.
I whip out the pendulum and glass I use for quick communication with her, and yep... she's angry.
She's never really "angry", but this is probably the most frustrated I've felt her be.
Of course, I can't tell WHY she was through that method, so I let my mind go blank.
I see myself as I was searching MGTOW stuff earlier today...
Then it clicked... *snap*
Bingo.
Then I think why that would make her mad... and I start to get an emotional response. No words, but I get it...
Why am I researching that shit? Why do I care about it, anyway?
I've been celibate for years, by choice. I'm basically a monk. Well, kinda sorta.
I'm also highly spiritual. Duh?
Oh, btw, those 2 traits = Succubus bait.
I dunno why, really, they just seem attracted to that combo.
Poor monastary fuckers. Hahaha.
To be honest, I guess I tend to fall into that MGTOW mindset (Bitching and complaining, sense of community). But why?
Who cares, anymore. I ended up with something different. Someone quite different.
Well, regardless, she wasn't pleased.
Now I get why: Leave it ALONE and pay attention to what you GOT.
Besides that: It's not my world, anymore. That life is gone.
And honestly, I'm not sure why I tend to fall back into the trap of getting all involved with MGTOW issues anyway.
It doesn't concern me anymore.
MGTOW had it's purpose in my life, before I discovered Bunny, it brought comfort and community, but this life now is a rather independent one.
On the one hand, I have intimacy and ecstacy that isn't possible here on Earth.
(From what I've experienced myself and observed from others)
On the other, it gets lonely.
Lonely in the sense that it's hard to share this stuff... hence the need for me to write this blog.
I'm very happy with what I have, but I just wish I could SHARE it with others who have something similar.
There's very little out there on this kind of stuff, little except for misinformation and bullshit.
The other bloggers offer some sense of community... sort of.
It's just not as talked about as I would like, not enough people doing the talking.
I just wish it was much bigger, a much larger community sharing the same experiences and information with each other.
I know that there are many, many others out there who can relate to these things, but for whatever reason they are secretive about it.
I wish more people would write about their experiences.
Because just as most things "need more cowbell", the world needs more succubi and incubi...
One sad fact is that there is less information on women who have an incubus spirit in their lives. I know there aren't less of them, no...
There are some articles on celebrities who have spoken about it, but it's usually framed into a feminized "men bad, spirit sex good" kind of bullshit which is exactly what I'm leaving behind in the first place. That goes for succubi sites bashing women as well (yes, I was guilty once but I grew the fuck up).
Incubi are male... The same goes for Succubi, who are female.... Still male, still female.
Still men, still women. Any questions?
The difference between Incubi, and Succubi, and us is they all think gender warring is fucking pathetic. They also wish that we would grow the fuck up and start seeing the big picture past this dustball called Earth.
When you look at things cosmically, it IS bullshit.
Point is (and getting back on target), I'm going to concentrate on what I HAVE, and not what I shouldn't even be messing with as it no longer concerns me.
It makes sense to me that MGTOW is about freedom, the freedom to go your own way. That's the point. The final act of freedom (I think at least for me) is to be free of MGTOW as well.
*BAM*
There went my MGTOW folder of bookmarks... gone. If I was a female and a feminist, I'd have done the same damn thing with feminism and go about my new life just as I am going to right now.
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There are some men and women out there who have a succubus or incubus and have had them all their lives. These are the people I wish would WRITE about it, TALK about it.
Use an internet persona, but for God/dess's sake don't keep that knowledge from those who WANT you to share it.
I like this picture. It was the first I ever found of a succubus when I first experienced one. I like it today because it looks "busy", just like mine is. She has her own stuff to do away from me, but she always returns... and that's what's important to me.
Had this song planted in my mind upon waking this morning, after I posted last night.
Tell me she doesn't watch and listen :)
"Anthem Of The Lonely"
A heart made of stone
Callous and bone
Fracture and tear it out
To let it go
And to think
I called it my own
And I would have never thought
The pain could grow
So I'll break it
Knowing what you said
The pain is what you make it
Sadly you are so mistaken
I will take you with a grain
And step into the changes
Throw away the empty heart
Right now
Never want to leave this place
And right now
See it in a different way
So right now
Even if you take me on
I'll stand the lonely
Stand the lonely
It's harder to know
Just where to go
If only the stars aligned
The sunsets glowed
I don't need
A calm in a storm
Or something to scream about
With empty lungs
So I'll break it
Knowing what you said
The pain is what you make it
Sadly you are so mistaken
I will take you with a grain
And step into the changes
Throw away the empty heart
Right now
Never want to leave this place
And right now
See it in a different way
So right now
Even if you take me on
I'll stand the lonely
Stand the lonely
Right now
Never want to leave this place
And right now
See it in a different way
So right now
Even if you take me on
I'll stand the lonely
Stand the lonely
Right now
Never want to leave this place
And right now
See it in a different way
So right now
Even if you take me on
I'll stand the lonely
Stand the lonely
(Stand the lonely)
"I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you.
I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh."
