I knew it was all me and that something was energetically busted.
Anyway they're on the last leg of fixing the end of the "circuit" and it's starting to feel like it will be sex soon.
Ahhh. I figured it was permanent, no lie. At least I was thinking so.
Oh, congrats to everyone for making this silly blog of mine achieve 150,000 views! That's really a trip for me as I started with nobody reading this thing. Just me typing away and seeing what would happen.
Lately I've been increasing. Increasing? No. Getting closer to Lilith. I'm not sure why people are so scared of Her. I call her "Mom", or "Mother", or "Lady Lilith" when I'm being more formal.
I had that dream of Lilith where I was in a strange landscape and She was holding me, nursing me.
Ever since that dream I've called her "Mom". She really is like an adoptive mother.
Now I've been thinking about having a dad. A Dad, what? Yeah I know it sounds weird.
If you knew my past you'd understand.
So I've been figuring. If Lilith is my Mom, then Samael might be my adoptive Dad too?
Treading on spooky ground after I've been doing some research on Samael.
I was thinking about Him and was dreaming of Him talking to me. He actually went... and now... it's time... to wake up... and BAM, my alarm went off at the time I set it for the night before.
That doesn't scare me, actually. That just makes me think I've made contact at least.
How will it turn out? I dunno.
Fingers crossed for the best!
Also, if they are my adoptive parents so to speak (in the spiritual realm) then I just gained 3 aunts, too.
Lilith's Sisters and His Wives.
Lets see if I can find their names:
Eisheth Zenunim, Na'amah, Agrat bat Mahlat.
Aunts!!!
Here's the million dollar question.
I'm an Opie, a good natured, do good unto others kinda dude. Very white light natured.
How come I can have a relationship with Lilith and get away with calling her "Mom", and that she took such an interest in me that She suckled me on Her breast.
How??? and Why???
You'd think I was christian by demeanor (a good christian not one of those asshats) at least.
Why would Lilith, Samael, and His Wives/Lilith's Sisters give a crap about me?
(And I realize I'm being a bit premature about having relationships with anyone but Lilith so far, but it seems to be going that way)
I noticed a popular Satanist medalion has "Sameal/Lilith" written on it.
I'm no Satanist. I don't even like Satanists as a whole as they get on my last freakin' nerve. (Well, the ones I've dealt with, anyway. Don't take offense if you are one... I don't know any better than what I've experienced SO FAR.)
Most Satanists I know are all "I have dark magick fear me! And blah blah Christian God this and that ad infinitum." I'm not really into impressing anyone. Maybe that's why I don't understand Satanists... although to be fair white light bunny humpers drive me nuts too.
I might be a white light kinda fella, but I'm no bunny humper. I have my limits, lol.
I might be a white light kinda fella, but I'm no bunny humper. I have my limits, lol.
If you know the answer as to why a pretty much white light radiating fella like myself seems to have "other" experiences than both bunny humpers (which would horrify them) and Satanists (which I'm not) regarding being able to have a relationship with beings such as Lilith/ Samael... let me in on it because I'm stumped.
Actually, I've never figured out why I attract succubi either. Do they feel sorry for white lightish boys or something?
Actually, I've never figured out why I attract succubi either. Do they feel sorry for white lightish boys or something?
Blessings,
Rafe G.B.
EDIT: One of the girls was chewing me out in my sleep last night. I knew why in my dream and I was understanding it, but I don't know what it was about upon waking. Point is, I heard her, we settled it. Whatever "it" is. I sure don't remember...
EDIT: One of the girls was chewing me out in my sleep last night. I knew why in my dream and I was understanding it, but I don't know what it was about upon waking. Point is, I heard her, we settled it. Whatever "it" is. I sure don't remember...
This is so I can see follow up comments... temporary fix.
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear things are improving for you man! Congrats on the 150,000 views! Just goes to show you how much your writing is enjoyed and dappreciated, not to mention helpful to others ��
ReplyDeleteI hope people get something out of it, even if it's just learning from my mistakes. Thank you for the kind words :)
ReplyDeleteYeah things seem to be improving for the better.
I believe it doesn't matter whether you're light or dark. What matters is that you're a sane individual who doesn't immediately vilify those on the other side for being different.
ReplyDeleteThat works for me ;)
DeleteCongratulations to you rafe, you give people a lot of hope and encouragement as well as a personal story. How are you enjoying the journey so far?
ReplyDeleteThanks!
DeletePretty good. I'm like a bull in a china shop but at some point I eventually get it.
Lots of dreams with spirits in them as of late ;)
Unless your in the situation its hard to describe the excitement that spirits bring, especially intimate spirits.
ReplyDeleteIm really happy for you rafe, the queen who stopped by to help described you as a stubborn old boot but with a heart of gold, I think shes right ;)
That's a pretty accurate description, hahaha ;) She figured me out quick.
DeleteHow goes your journey, SW?
Wow where do I start, my family's grown significantly, somewhere in the region of 93,000, one of Solomon's personal demons, his sister has joined with me. Im working closely with Azazel, Ive had 2 soul bindings and had to have 4 spirits unbound, due to them being double bound so enough to keep myself busy haha The queen likes you, you're a challenge haha ;)
ReplyDeleteWow that is a lot of stuff going on. I wouldn't be able to handle that much change.
ReplyDeleteGlad the Queen enjoyed her stay :)
Tbh im finding it interesting, boy is it intense. Glad your circuits are rewiring.....wont be long, fingers, arms, legs toes, crossed haha
ReplyDeleteHey rafe, hope you are doing well, I tried looking for your email address on here but you know how technologicaly challenged I am haha could you let me know it, its quite important regarding some of your spirits
ReplyDeleteThanks rafe, just sent you the mail
ReplyDeleteNow that you've safely got the email I'm deleting it from the comments (bots crawl blogs for emails to send spam and viruses to).
DeleteThanks for the heads up rafe. Hope you are well
ReplyDeleteYeah I'm alright. Had a weird dream last night. I used to have Aphrodite as my Patroness years ago. I dreamed she was walking with me along a path, and ever so often there would be a pedestal with something on it that she would explain was connected to her in some way.
DeleteI've read that Lilith and Aphrodite are actually two sides of the same sensuality coin so to speak.
I wonder how that works.
Rafe, I love how you share your journey. So inspiring! Spirit Walker, are you ever going to enable comments on your own blog so that we can harass you there? ����
ReplyDeleteThank you!
DeleteYeah, allowing comments would be great SW ;)
I think the comment thing is fixed, hopefully lol.
ReplyDeleteIve not read that about Lillith and Aphrodite being two sides of the same sensuality coin, I can understand it from the perspective of energies, Ive not worked with Aphrodite personally but there is overlap between goddesses and gods in terms of personality and the way we interpret them, for instance they are both known for lust whereas Lillith feels earthier to me, her energy holds me and expands me as opposed to say ooonaugh who tends to make me rise energetically but its both expressions of lust.