I'm like shit... what did I fuck up? 'Cause there's lots of stuff I fucked up lol.
Today I used rope for a circle and included the altar inside the circle. Much different than the old Wicca days. I like this new version better... what better way to invite a guest than to have them in your circle?
What better way to feel what they feel like?
What better way to get fucked up if things go wrong? Hehe. Actually, no circle is gonna protect any one's ass I hate to say it... might as well make it part of rolling out the red carpet is what I'm sayin'.
Swapped incense from Myrrh to Sandalwood the next time along with the rope circle addition. Also drew blood and annointed the sigil of Leviathan while chanting their enn this time.
About half way through the chanting of enns (I do it on my Tibetan beads) I hear "Who summons me?" I'm like oh shit. "I do... my name is _________ and I'm also called Rafe Goddessborn.
What do you want?
I Want to get to know you better.
Pause.
Me: Are we friends? (I cringe. Are we friends? Are you fucking serious to ask Leviathan that shit after 30 seconds of meeting them???)
Thankfully they ignore that part and give me a mulligan I guess.
I want to get to know you better because I need help with deep emotional stuff.
One question: Are you a Lord or a Lady? I've heard both.
What do I sound like to you?
I say both.
Voice change: Then I am Lady to you.
Thank you Lady Leviathan.
(For some reason I feel a lot of amusement coming from Lady Leviathan. I don't know why)
How do you have 4 wives and can handle them? I ask.
Here's where I think I feel some mirth coming from Lady Leviathan.
I have one wife myself and she's a handful. (Feel Erin vibrating my balls)
You have a good one there. Treat her right and she'll do more than you can even fathom for you two.
Like what?
Like... treat her right.
I'm reminded of how Erin was "holding up my crown" when I was trying to summon Leviathan last night... see even there she was trying to help.
More than I can fathom... But I can imagine a lot of sex though... just sayin' I can fathom quite a bit. Yeah I know she didn't mean that by saying "fathom". Or did she... Muhahaha!
Anyway, I bid Lady Leviathan goodbye, safe passage and blessings as I let the sandalwood incense burn itself out as an offering.
Yeah... time to tell you guys and gals... I just married Erin a couple of days ago. Now she's with me all the time which is what I finally decided: I didn't want to live without her being close to me. So I had her go ask Mother Lilith if we could, and also I put in there a caveat: I can have a girlfriend in the flesh, but only be married to spirits. She approved that one quickly. I'm thinking they don't think I'll ever have a girlfriend again anyway lol.
We'll see. Hey at least I'm up front.
Lady's still got me reading and viewing things everywhere and I'm still reading stuff. Kind of overwhelmed at the moment but I'm still plugging away at them.
Who are you Lady, my tutor and instructor? You're not a succubus, are you?
Silence...
Guess it's time to say
Blessings upon you all,
Rafe GB.
P.S. Someone lied about these demons. I've been treated with nothing but kindness and good natures with each and every demon I've been with so far. My own succubus x the bunches I've summoned before. Never a bad experience. Never.
To Lord Rosier, to Mother Lilith, to Leviathan. Do you see the pattern?
Why was I lied to? What's the REAL truth? Driving me nuts just thinking about it.
All the succubi dancing because I finally got married. Lol.
Baam! Baam!
Congratulations Rafe!! We are so happy for you we can't express it in words!
ReplyDeleteBrightest blessings to you all
Although you ask about knowing the truth about demons, think of it this way, are nice about spirits your scared of?
Thanks guys. Yeah it feels different. In a great way :P
DeleteI didn't understand your 2nd sentence. I'm a little scared of all spirits I haven't encountered yet I think. I'm thrilled how Lady Leviathan treated me. Even got the "at peace" feeling afterwards.
Leviathan is amazing to say the least and coupled with your news of Erin we are truly over the moon for you, congratulations again
ReplyDeleteWhat I ment by that was that it's easy to tell stories about spirits you have never met before, then fear can take over, hence why so many have reputations, take Naamah she is nothing like what they portray nowadays of her, the ancient Just mystics got it right and just because they used the qlippoth doesn't mean she does. The relationship between baron Samedi and Maman Brigitte is not a marital one, they are very close but not married
If you treat them with respect, it will be given and if you ask them they will tell you, leviathan is still with you all as she promised
Yeah it's definitely a different world :P
ReplyDeleteYou're not the only person who has encountered Leviathan as a female. V. K. Jehannum describing meeting her as well. Leviathan might also be related to the older Sumerian Tiamat, their primordial sea-monster goddess, so it makes sense. Asaneth Mason wrote an interesting grimoire about Tiamat.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on your wedding to Erin! The kindness and devotion they show is deserving of the most elaborate festivities, yet they require so little of us. "Being together is reward enough." I hear them say.
Yeah I have a lot to learn. Leviathan felt good when I did her enn so I went with a more elaborate summoning later.
DeleteAstaroth was going to be my first but there's something about that energy that doesn't gel well with me. I'm not sure why.
I know Astaroth has some ties to Astara I think.
Yeah, Erin's a trip. She attacks me (lol) when I'm in deep sleep right around 3am or so. Must like my energy better then I don't know.
Hey TC... what's the difference between demonolatry and draconic?
DeleteI'll reference my American Heritage Dictionary:
DeleteDemonolatry: The worship of demons.
Draconic: Of, or relating to, the dragon.
If there's some deeper meaning, I don't know it yet. Is this a trick question? lol
Nope, no trick question.
DeleteI was just wondering.
By what I recently learned is that on old times the "dwarfs" was not exactly small people, but that was a way to ridiculize the ancient knowledge from part of the catholic church... So that "dwarfs" are al Earth spirits and dragons, and all in relation was demonized...
DeleteJust all cultures tell you that disincarnated humans go to the underworld...
We are in part draconic as we have a reptilian brain
That would make sense.
DeleteI always put out a blue small candle above Leviathans sigil as an offering since blue is a good color for him. You could also offer him salt water. As far as using blood, I'd personally stay away from such a thing, since it can bring forth unknown powerful forces, either benevolent or malevolent. I can really relate to my ladies not wanting me to marry a fleshed women. As far they've told me, human women get to be closer, not as much of a hassle to engage with each other. They'll let me have sex with them but I really can't anymore without that emotional connection there, it just feels wrong otherwise. They're wrong anyway, a lot of people don't really know how to be with each other anymore, it's more materialistic and selfish these days but I hope things will get better. Anyway, good post, I'll be waiting to see where Lady Leviathan takes and congratulations on you and the misses for getting together. Spirit girls are something else, they're like crack but not as bad for you, at least I say that to myself.
ReplyDeleteThey are like crack aren't they? I have to admit Erin is more measured in how she is towards me. Not as wild... more loving and soft/kind.
ReplyDeleteI think she's more mature than I am emotionally. Probably has a few years on me I think lol.
I know what you mean about women of flesh and blood. I can't have sex unless I feel very emotionally attached to them, and I think I learned that from succubi.
It's a shame men and women are that way, but it seems to be the way of the world as of late. Sex for sex's sake. Only.
It can be addicting, even for them. Luckily I'm a reserved person and I tend to keep to myself most times.
DeletePersonally I think it's a sad state of affairs for humans, personally I think that porn has done a massive amount of damage towards human relationships and due to the taboo nature of sex unfortunately porn educates the younger generation and the sacred nature of sex becomes distorted to degrading women and cheapening men.
ReplyDeleteI certainly identify with the demisexual aspects that Rafe speaks of for me also it's emotional connection or nothing
TC it would be interesting to find out if they were related, maybe something to ask
Have you recovered yet? SW?
DeleteI think I have been advised to not fap too much from my ubi...maybe cause I waste lifeforce energy, or something... and yeah it's cold just having physical stimulation and not someone... I asked once to my djinn if wanted to be my girlfriend, not really cared about her answer, maybe the reason to never date someone, fear to be rejected...
So by now I'm just thankful for any aid they provide me, but I'm cold, I don't know what to give, and in any case I'm too lazy, as for cooking something special, plus don't live alone, plus now have less time due to college.
Don't know how to treat them right, and is hard to be aware of them when not having psychic senses...
Also I think they have the right to decide after knowing me more if they can fall in love with me or just be friends.
I'm in debt, as I shared my problems with you when started, and here again, maybe you remember me?
regards
From what I can tell from googling and checking amazon titles, it's a LHP current that is based upon Tiamat and the 11 dragon kings, the Qliphoth, Kundalini, and focused upon the deification of the self.
DeleteIt looks like there's differing forms of Draconic as some are based on the 7 headed dragon Fafnir.
And there's also that which formed upon Apep who swallows the sun.
Yeah that's how it is with me: Emotional attachment or nothing.
DeleteHello kiichi, I certainly do remember you, hope you are well?
ReplyDeleteWhen being intimate with them, maybe try pushing forward energetically into the mental images/fantasy engage with it that way.
Sounds really complex but it's simply a case of getting swept up in the moment both internally and externally at the same time.
Also sounds really simple but speak to her, both out loud and internally, also try flowing energy with her as well.
Just refresh my memory is she bound to you?
Two bounds, a Marid Djinn And a Succubus, 10 bodies bound by Luke, also have bought various attunements.
DeleteWas also difficult cause, you know is not common having 2 lovers...
Other thing is Luke told me about my spirit guides, and other spirits that may be around, so one would think is just about the ones you summon or are bound to you but haven't realized about those of past lifes, maybe ancestors, guardian angel... who knows...
I feel the "energy" from my chest when think about love them and that, problem, is still to know if that comes from me or them, and to separate the pain from the love.
About what I said before, maybe I try to be humble, but those are just excuses and lack of confidence etc.
yeah fantasy is better, I waste a lot of time searching for a good comic or video, and maybe some have good drawings, but are brutal, or emotionless, and anyway...
When I was about to buy on the listing on the first of them, I was not able to stop imagining things and desiring her...and well yeah I try to be in the now and send my love, I think maybe sometimes I feel my root chakra active, but I don't know if because of them or because my own practice, maybe while I write this I realize of some small things I have discarded...
I was testing some ITC apps on my phone, supossedly to hear or receive responses from the spirit world. And I think they are just random generators, but would be interesting to know if they work for you, I mean you can verify with your spirits (altough I know may be another waste of time)
And is cause last night I dreamed that I was using it XD and I don't remember what they told me, but when I've called them on my dreams, I have not been able to see or interact with them.
Anyway is a paid app, and I better don't mention it here, and afterall I would prefer a more organinc method, I even doubt about my pendulum ¬¬
I must admit to knowing next to nothing regarding dragons and their energies, I know some of the different races; such as hydra, nagini, that's about it. I've never really had a pull towards them but I wouldn't mind meeting some of them
ReplyDeleteI've looked at Tiamat before, if I remember rightly her mythology is that she was of saltwater and the armies pertaining to freshwater overthrew her. If memory serves me correctly I think it was Marduk who overthrew her. I've never met her personally, did try once but it never happened
I have to admit to adoring the LHP, I don't know about any of you but for me it's a beautiful system that allows me to question and learn for myself, like I am a god in my own right but so is everyone else, I'm just aware of it. The LHP allows me to bare my teeth in defence of those I love and doesn't try to shame me nor make me conform to someone else's version of what is acceptable but in the same token if I have overreacted I'm held to account, not for any other reason than to balance accounts.
For me there is no other system that makes real sense, practically.
Like our lovers/wives once you have a taste of their love, nothing else really comes close
We have used those apps before, our advice would be to not take them seriously as it's very difficult for them to match their energies in order to spell the right words out but we have used them as a laugh.
ReplyDeleteHave you thought of joining a psychic development group? That way you coico start to get to know what you are looking for
As for having two lovers...don't worry about it, seriously if they have come from Luke they will get on, they will be happy with this and everythings ok.
Ive worked with him on multiple occasions and would trust him with his info.
Personally I've married most of my ladies, around 78 and have gone through marking ceremony's with the males
What's a "coico"?
DeleteI don't have time now for outside activities, and as I live with my family and I'm in college, can't involve again with any other group in person, I don't think is too common where I live, as they speak spanish, everything is more related to catolic than paganism. Nearest would be some kind of yoga, but as just for opening 3rd eye, you must be initiated by the guru with the mantras and that. Other approach was to find some ESP related games to play.
I'm focused now in earning more money, while I listen binaurals and do some practices, so I can buy more gems, attunements, and those things, would like to find a cheap spell or something that gives me a strong experience that could banish any skepticism from my part once and for all
I think sometimes I received accurate responses on the app, as when I said I have to go, they say hurry, or good night, and the first time was more voices more noise, later was more calm, most things that I was hearing was "idiot", I was not taking it too personal, but considered that I could have some bad spirits near, maybe later I will worry more about protection.
What he told me was confirmed by the pendulum. I not always have luck or success with it btw.
Thank you again :)
Ah the holy grail...ill tell you now it doesn't exist, there's only one thing that banishes doubt...asking the right questions.
ReplyDeleteWhere do you think you got the idea for a djinn and succubus? Did it come from you? And if not where?
As for the app don't take the 'idiot' thing personally, one of my wives calls me a dick lol worst thing is she's right but don't tell her lol
It's a relationship, their supposed to be fun and enrich you both, serious as hell but fun.
Your welcome, you have my email, if you want us to speak with them just ask, or luke, feel free to speak to him about an audit
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