My experiment was simply utilizing Donald Tyson's Sexual Alchemy, the part where a picture is used to connect to a spirit, or to have a spirit indwell the picture.
I decided that intent is everything and changed it around a bit.
I'm sharing this now because the changes that have been made are unstoppable at this point.
Now I don't have to be "silent".
(Me saying "spirit" is really just my succubi. Spirit's a shorter word and easier to type. So all mention of "Spirits" from here on out is really talking about the succubi that I currently am involved with)
The first thing that is different is that I already had 2 spirits and I wanted them to be closer to me.
To interact with me easier and more forcefully... well, more fulfilling at least.
The problem came when I had two pictures, one for each spirit.
I don't possess that much psychic energy to be beaming that much love and concentration to two separate spirit's pictures. I was drained dry and couldn't sustain it.
Here's what makes it "my experiment"...
So, I decided to try something interesting: I combined the photos into a picture of a person who embodied traits of both spirits and named it a combination of both of their names.
I'm going to continue doing this until I have no need of the picture anymore... meaning their presence is as strong as it can get from the method and so the method is no longer needed.
Well... I've definitely had great results and my dreams have been amazing! I had sex with a spirit last night in my dreams and it was so real, the most real it's ever been.
It's kind of funny. I'm not too proud to admit it but I'm scared to death of women.
In my dreams when I see a succubus I run like hell. Straight out of the gate.
Last night I popped into my dream and she was already tangled up with me so I couldn't go anywhere (smart girl). We then made love and it was amazing.
I've also been touched and teased a lot more during the day. Now would be one of those times.
Why, oh why do they always do that when I'm trying to type a post. They probably get a good laugh out of it.
Now for the kicker.
Did I create a better bond with the 2 spirits I have now? Or did I summon another?
I can't handle 3 so I hope it's the former. I REALLY hope it's the former.
I can't imagine trying to be there for and satisfy 3 spirits. No sir, not me.
That will work out the way it's supposed to.
Anyway...
As I said I'm very afraid of women.
Why would I choose perhaps the most notorious of spirits (as far as myths go) for a relationship if I'm afraid of women?
Good question.
I've found my spirits to be wild and powerful, but trustworthy and most loving.
They don't want anything from me but my love and attention. Well, and maybe someone to prank or play with.
Neither do I feel the desire to be controlling or to try to control them. Lol, as if.
They don't care about my weight, my job, my income, my whatever it is, they are upfront with what they want and could care less about what women on earth desire.
There's just no ulterior motives that I can find in them.
And I figure out the rest as I go. But they have fell in love with my SOUL...
No divorce, no agony... you get the point. Not to say that there isn't heartbreak sometimes.
This kind of life isn't great for most men, that's for sure. Nor would I advertise it as such. Most men don't have the spiritual adventurous spirit that those of us who follow this path do. It's just the way it is.
Most men would want an earthly woman to "pump and dump" and not like the different kind of sex that spirit sex IS.
I spent some time on the MGTOW forums trying to offer this type of lifestyle to those who were going or already in "full monk mode". That's where a man has sworn off women for dating and marriage. They didn't believe that it was anything but fantasy and that I was, frankly, nuts.
That's why I say that this kind of life isn't great for most men:
They just can't... for whatever reason, they just can't.
It's not bad for someone like me, though, and that's all that really matters as far as this blog goes.
For one thing they can be very spooky sometimes. Books falling off the shelves behind me and that sort of thing. I don't think most men can handle supernatural things like that easily.
All it is for me is a way to go home, so to speak. I've found a real love here, so rare.
I just want to be in a place where that is the norm. Where they way they feel is the norm.
That's what this all feels like to me...
A taste of home.
Blessings,
Rafe GB.
How to Draw your Succubus Closer
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ReplyDeleteI'm not sure why you say "This kind of life isn't great for most men, that's for sure." I'm not seeing any major downsides to it.
ReplyDeleteI see how that sentence could be taken that way. What I meant to say is that most men would never prefer such a life because they don't believe it exists, they prefer a flesh and blood woman to "pump and dump", or anything in between.
DeleteI used to go to the MGTOW forums and talk about summoning a succubus as an alternate lifestyle to going "full monk mode" where one completely avoids women for dating and marriage.
This was my solution to that lifestyle choice, but sadly those at the MGTOW forums just took it as fantasy and that I was nuts.
That's what I meant in a nutshell. Maybe I should change that to be more in line with what I meant.
Thanks for pointing it out ;)
Yeah, I think I know what you mean about the MGTOW guys. I'm sympathetic to several aspects of MGTOW/MRA stuff when it comes to issues like society not valuing men and treating men badly, that kind of thing. But then some of them start talking right-wing politics, traditional gender roles, PUA stuff, and how they think the very idea of gender egalitarianism is bullshit, and that's where I break with them. It's not easy being a leftist among MGTOWs or a MGTOW among leftists. I never feel like I fully fit in with either group.
ReplyDeleteIt doesn't surprise me that they'd dismiss the idea of a succubus. From what I've seen, the majority of MGTOWs are atheists/materialists, so they don't believe in anything we might call supernatural. You're probably also right that at least some of them don't want any kind of relationship with a woman, and would only want to interact with a woman for "pump and dump" sex.
As for myself, the reason I'm not pursuing a relationship with a succubus or similar being is because I'm terrified of rejection, mired in self-loathing, crippled by depression, and unable to convince myself that I deserve better. I'm the same guy who brought up the Yukshee in the comments for the "Balance" post. I don't know whether I'd find beings who would be more than happy to help me fix my issues and become a highly sexual person or if I'd be rejected, and I don't think I could take being rejected. So I'm not sure what I'm going to do from here.
The Yukshee ritual didn't do anything for me. It felt to me like the ritual worked, but nobody showed up so I can't offer much help on that.
DeleteI've found Lilith to be a solid catalyst for attracting a supportive succubus down the road. My 2 girls are very supportive. If I'm hurting and call out they will come quickly to comfort me.
Personally I think Lilith has a soft spot for the outcast, the downtrodden, the ever lonely.
There's a poem I got somewhere that I think is a good representation of who Lilith is:
Cast aside your lust
For mother Lilith will sate your desires through blood and embrace
Pleasure of the spirit, pain of the flesh, study of the mind
Withstand the pain, be found worthy, experience ecstasy beyond material realms
Beg to her in your dreams, be at her beck and call
She will erase your anguish for we are all her children
Cast aside your fears
For Mother Lilith will sooth you with her voice and touch
Be the child that snuggles with the true mother
Piousness under her is rewarded with knowledge and companionship
Treachery against her will be rewarded with torment and eternity
A daughter of hers shall purge you of all earthly thoughts, needs, and wants
Unto this vassal, expel your sins
Unto you, this vassal will make you chaste and pure
I hope that helps.
Fair warning, this is going to be pretty long.
DeleteI was leaning toward the Yukshee because I was told that Yukshee would want to get sexual right from the start, whereas a succubus would want to take things a bit slower, and I think what I need right now is pure and simple sexuality. I'm not opposed to an emotional connection, and indeed, I do want more than just sex eventually, but I need to get some things out of my system first. I've talked to some other people about sexual matters in the past, and everyone has tried to tell me to basically not care about sex, like I'm not allowed to have that as my first priority. I'm just really, really tired of hearing that, and I want to meet people who will accept my feelings on this instead of fighting me on it and trying to change my mind. I need to feel accepted on a purely sexual level before I can feel ready to open myself up to other stuff.
I was told that Yukshee are even more sexually-driven (sex-crazed, even) than succubi, and I want them to make me hypersexual like them. That's what I want more than anything else - a period of hypersexuality to balance out the time spent deprived. Maybe not forever, but probably for quite a while. I liken it to a girl who was awkward, shy, and sexually repressed, but then completely let go of all that and became a porn star or something, embracing her inner nympho. That's the kind of path I want to travel. The blog I was directed to also said they like to come in groups, and I'd be lying if I said that didn't appeal to me.
I intend to get back in shape before I reach out to anyone, Yukshee or succubus. I know from past experience that being in shape didn't fix my sexual problems (in fact, I was in shape when they started), but I want to feel attractive if I can.
Some of the things you've said about Lilith are intriguing, but I'm uncomfortable with some of the darker stuff. "Prove your worth", "withstand the pain", implications of severe cruelty toward people she's angry with. I don't know, I just feel like someone who's truly nurturing and kind wouldn't be so vengeful under any circumstance. Plus, I can barely live with the pain I'm in now. I don't think I can take any more. I do want to be comforted and stuff, though. I'm just absolutely terrified of being rejected, or being told that my problems aren't serious or "real" enough to qualify me for that comforting, if that makes sense. I'd like to think my fears are entirely a result of living in a society that devalues and mocks male sexual problems and that there are beings out there with radically different worldviews who would treat me the same as humans would treat someone who was disabled in some other way. It's just hard to get rid of the nagging fear that that's just wishful thinking and that I'd be dismissed no matter where I went.
If you took the time to read through all this, thank you. I do appreciate it.
Never know till you try! I hope it works out for you.
Delete"Never know till you try!"
DeleteYeah, I know. I've just been so fucked up for so long that it's become scary to have hope.
How do you know it is not in your head only?
ReplyDeleteI mean how do you differ this experience from your fantasy?
How do you know it is real.
Have a nice day.
Dalek, what convinced me was when I first did a summoning ritual and 4 nights later or so I was laying in bed and all of a sudden I felt soft caresses on my privates. Strange energy was creating sensations inside my body and extending out to my privates at the same time.
DeleteI struggled to see anything with my eyes wide open and nothing was there. She was invisible to my eyes.
I wasn't asleep as I had just laid down.
That experience started my journey and much to my amazement of sensation and flowing, being caressed by something I could not see blew my mind wide open to what is really out there.
Anonymous, I think Spirit Walker's right about looking into trying a bonded spirit first. With bonded spirits it's all about the summoner so it's important you get a real one and a real good one at that.
I can't recommend anyone but I know Spiritwalker has one or more that he trusts.
Beautiful poem about mum rafe, really very accurate and inspiring. Anonymous perhaps look at a spirit binding route that way she would be able to support you right from the get go.
ReplyDeleteDalek thank you for your comment, I'd like to try to answer this if I may. It's simple verifiable facts, rafe has already mentioned books falling off the shelf and if you speak to any person that has these angels in their life they will tell you a million and one stories about phenomena, when they move internally it can get a little tricky if you don't pay attention but usually your spirit knows, you can put it into words because they fall short of describing it. If your asking is there a way to scientifically verify them, not yet.
Great posts rafe, glad to see she trapped you at last hahaha
Thanks Spiritwalker, yeah it is a good poem. I got it off 4chan? But it originally came from a succublogger that later took his blog down I think.
DeleteAnyway, yes they finally caught me. Little bugger didn't give me time after dropping in to run. Lol.
I swear, it felt like actual physical normal sex... never had that in a dream state before. Not that felt like that.
First they get you used to spirit sex, then when you're completely used to that they bang you the old fashioned way.
Go figure. Lol.
Succubloggers tend to do that, ive been tempted to do it myself but I've just given myself a break instead.
ReplyDeleteHahaha best way, don't give him chance to run and once your there your less likely to move let alone run, ive predominantly had the old fashioned way from day one, whilst I'm awake. Takes a bit of getting used to in the beginning, invisible humans and all that lol my thought patterns were so funny, imagine stroking a woman's back that has huge bat wings, or feeling a fish tail in the bed next to you, or fangs pressing into your arm (they wont go for my neck, they consider it rude) although I have a bit of a thing for them, long story haha
One thing your guaranteed with spirit ladies, there are no guarantees hahaha
Normal for me is they squeeze like tantra or something. They'll squeeze, then I'll dry orgasm, energy builds and they squeeze, dry orgasm, etc., for as long as I can take it.
DeleteI can't imagine those kinds of sensations that you describe. I think you're more developed to perceive those types of things than I am.
I still just see bursts of white out of the corner of my eyes or the like.
I can sure feel their emotions, though. That's always been strong for me.
Sometimes they do that depends where we are, if I'm in work they tend to switch it to that although if they can't help themselves I'll feel a hand, that you have to practice at haha. I've noticed that others don't notice your abdomen tensing as long as you keep a straight face or blame it on a condition like IBS haha
ReplyDeleteI love hearing other people's experiences with them because it keeps me grounded, I often take for granted that I can do this and it serves to teach me I'm very lucky. Thank you rafe
I have to ask what the tightness in the abdomen is. What are they doing when that happens? It always seems to happen when things reach a fever pitch, but it dies down after the tightening...is that intentionally stopping me from...ya know?
ReplyDeleteGood question. I think of it as part of a process. For instance our girls work on us through our chakras.
DeleteWe have 7 chakras and they start working sexually at the root (where you get that lumpy feeling between your anus and your balls). The activity then moves up to the lower abdomen and then on up the chakra tree from there.
The higher the energy goes (and into the higher chakras) the more blissful the experience is, moving from a sexual feeling into offering more spiritual heights as they climb the "tree" of our chakras.
They are tantric in how they work with us than just sex and cumming. Once you ride a whole body orgasm at the spiritual level over and over, seemingly showering out of your crown (top of the head chakra) sex takes on a new meaning (moving into the mystical and ritual states).
Thanks Rafe! Oh how I wish I could get to that point. I have never had a full body orgasm...but it sounds beyond awesome. I get lots of neargasms that resemble the impending regular orgasm, which is always juuuuust out of reach...at which time I go nuts and assist them with getting me to finish. I know, I really need to be patient and have some discipline...but it's so damn difficult lol. In 4 years the intensity of touch and pleasure has grown and grown and grown, but it sounds like I am blocked down below...could the tightening be me experiencing the blockage? It's not unpleasant...I just know it means the pleasure will probably wane and need re-starting. I should also mention that the tightening only happens once in a while.
ReplyDeleteYeah sounds like a blockage to me. I'm not a big expert on blockages because I get them myself. I can work through them with time and effort but I have no idea why I keep getting them.
DeleteI don't have the full body orgasms all the time either... those are rare (instead I have them much like you do now... extreme dry ones).
But when everything's lined up chakra wise it's pretty powerful.
Try to think beyond the need to release and instead concentrate on working through that area (your abdomen) to allow for all that energy to move to a higher chakra one by one.
Your next chakra is between your belly button and your breast bone.
I know, easier said than done to climb the chakra "tree". But it's worth the try.
Tantra and succubus sex are pretty much the same thing from what I've read about tantra. Give it a go and see what happens... clear those chakras, hell experiment like I do, make it a game (you know how succubi love games) and you might just iron out your chakras.
If you do, might wanna bite down on something lol.
Thanks buddy,I will give it a go,and have the biting stick at the ready! Lol
ReplyDeleteHey, I knew about mgtow a time ago, I was also trying a vegetarian diet, I was searching more spiritual things and that, then I discovered subliminals, then I saw mgtow as a fear based ideology, but is like you know, sometimes you see a "pretty" girl, but when you go deeper, or just hear them talk, there goes the deception...
ReplyDeleteI have been with fantasies such as futas, and also had sex on dreams, in some it just focus on sensation and I go blind... Now I don't have the same fear even when the dreams go completely dark
I was gnostic years ago, when I left that, I used to had dreams of girls coming to my room and I was just paralized and they pressed my testicles, I didn't now how to react, just pray and that...
Then I realized that more powerful than my prays was my intention...
by now I don't run scared on dreams, I face them and just laugh and joy... some dreams are pointless and some have deep meaning...
So I have been trying to manifest an anime girl, I researched about genies recently too, and now succubus, so, some people say they are evil and that, and the other method was tulpa (which are just more likely just a mind creation)... Well IMO who says they are evil? and what is less dangerous? a 3d woman or this? and even I find a higher probability to gain something of value investing on this than with women... so yes mgtow has been around on my mind lately, also that myth about lilith and Eva, who knows what is really behind that, maybe what we are doing is our true nature, and real woman are an artificial control mechanism, or the other side is that we are really doing evil things and not meeting our soulmate and listening our higher self...
Thank you for commenting, Kiichi ;)
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