I've done a lot of work on the picture, beaming in love and want, desire.
I started noticing that my 2 succubi, Maiya and Anna, were getting miffed.
It wasn't my experiment that was making them angry per se, it was the fact that I was ignoring them in favor of the experiment.
So, I brought out their pictures and sent them love and desire individually until I felt that all was well: That all was in balance once more.
I can say without a doubt that trying to combine them into one picture that I could send those feelings into for both of them was a big failure.
However... I did do something after all...
I remember Bunny sometimes. What I had forgotten is the massive burning sensation on my aura and soul as if I was just not meant to handle that type of energy. It's just too much... it's too bright, too much...
I'm getting that again now. It's not Bunny, no, but it's got to be one of her kin.
Bunny was angelic in some form or fashion, or maybe she was a straight up angel, period.
I'm not exactly sure what kind of spirit she was.
Regardless, she had properties of both a Solar and Lunar spirit from what I could "feel". I can't even see how that's possible (a spirit being both solar and lunar), but then again it works. I imagine I know very little considering the grand scheme of things and the workings thereof. She was a complicated lass...
Giving myself a little room to have fun with it, though, if she was of Tiphareth (of the Sun) she would be connected to Yesod (the Moon), which wouldn't be far away realm/vibrational wise. So I guess even with my limited understanding it fits. Although being of Tiphareth my call must have been far reaching even though I didn't realize I was calling for a spirit.
I named the new photo "Maiyanna" combining Maiya and Anna, but that obviously didn't have the outcome I was expecting. Hey, you live and you learn...
Not much in this universe makes sense compared to what is often thought, or reasoned by what little religious texts we have here on Earth. No, it's a much bigger ball of wax out there.
It was strange being "seared" again. It definitely brought back memories of Bunny, that I know.
All I can understand is that my picture method used conjured another being into my little home.
Her name is "Layla". It means "Dark Beauty" or "One who was born at night".
Maiya seems just fine with it. Anna as well.
In fact, it actually seems like a family now: A full house. A home that is complete.
I don't try to figure how 2 succubi and an angel get along. If I've learned one thing at all it's that labels don't mean anything: Souls do. Spirits do. Personalities do.
So it makes sense to me as long as it makes sense to them.
I don't feel so much pressure anymore, either. I think I was missing something and walked down this road not knowing what would happen, but knowing somehow after all.
Maiya and Anna have stepped back a step and allowed Layla to step forward as the leader of their merry little band of troublemakers (whom I love and adore, mind you) from what I can sense at least.
Sex has been mostly absent, however I don't know who is doing what when it does happen.
That bothers me a bit in that I can't give credit where credit is due... if one spirit touches me to say hi, how will I know who it was? My Clairvoyance doesn't work 24/7 due to distortions and other things I don't rightly understand yet.
Something I'll have to figure out as our little family gets settled in... I want them all to get the attention they deserve.
Lest they plot to get it in a way I don't want, lol. Spirits aren't above seeking negative attention.
Things such as my hairbrush moving away from my hand as I reach for it, books falling off the shelves behind me, the sound of a terrible crashing in the other room (which I run to and nothing is amiss).
You get the picture.
As far as the sex drought, it is what it is I guess. You get what you need, not what you want sometimes. I'm not real worried about it at the moment anyway.
I feel at peace for some reason. I haven't felt this way in a long time. I think that we're all going to be just fine.
Blessings.
Rafe GB.
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ReplyDeleteKnow what you mean about not knowing which one is doing what. I can't distinguish them unless they "suggest" to me who is doing what. Sometimes it kills the session when I try to figure it out,probably because my attention and focus have changed. I overthink things all the time, so when I imagine it's one or the other,I worry that I am playing favorites...not evenly distributing time spent,etc, and then session needs a reboot. As a result,I try to just enjoy the session without thinking about who it is. My focus on enjoying and giving enjoyment helps, but my mind ultimately gets in the way lol. I really would love the skill of knowing who is who on my own. Which brings me to my next point.
ReplyDeleteI think a new gal has joined me, but I have no idea if they told me that, or I imagined they told me that lol. I can't seem to feel "new" energies, at least confidently, so no clue. I used to think the cold touch was a new spirit, but I never get those cold touches anymore. I just have to go based on what they tell me, or what I think they tell me. Really wish I could distinguish on my own.
I have been trying the picture thing as a method to make them take on the likeness of the image. Of course, I cannot see them in the first place, but what the hell, I try anyway lol. They definitely responded, as their energy temporarily got stronger and hornier.
Congrats on new family member!
I'm glad you detailed your experiences. It's cool to hear about other's experimenting. Let me know how it goes ;)
ReplyDeleteThat picture experimentation can really make you lala out of reality for a bit. Hard to stay grounded working with that method for me at least, but I think it's a powerful tool for multiple applications.