Lilith gives...

Lilith gives more than just succubi or incubi.

She gives succubi, incubi, companions, and familiars.

Some, I think, have petitioned her for one or the other and got something quite different.

I have good reason to believe it's because it's what we needed at the time, not always what we wanted at the time.

Maiya is a sweet and loving soul... she's also not technically a succubus.

I would put her under the category of a loving companion.

I never did really have sex with her as a focus, perhaps sometimes in the middle of the night when I was asleep... or did I?

We did have sex at least twice I believe, but I could tell that she was forcing it... it just wasn't her forte or her "joy" to be honest... emotions are.  Love, joy, faith, hope, peace... even comforting me when I'm down.

Now, lots of books say that any spirit can engage in sex and maybe that's so.  Or maybe it's that not every spirit knows how to have sex with us is my guess.

Maiya is still here rest assured.

I don't dump spirits.  Once you're in my life you can leave but I won't force anyone to leave.

And my mind has turned to attracting a bona fide succubus.

And I did. 

That's why it's taken me so long to write another post.

Lilith has granted me a succubus daughter that I have nicknamed "Athena".  That seemed to be the name that she wanted.  The funny part is that I used to believe that names were sacred.  Well, they might be but I don't know her real name.  I have never known a succubus's real name.

They probably translate into all 1's and 0's I imagine.  At least I wouldn't be surprised :)

Me and Athena are doing well.  We're going through that "honeymoon phase" that I had forgotten so much about.

Funny thing is she feels a hell of a lot like Bunny.  Just a little different but very close in how she "feels" to me.

But, she's Athena.  I'm quite excited I must confess.  It's been a long time since I've had a succubus proper... probably all the way back to Bunny herself which has been a long, long time.

Bunny left in May of last year... so it's been a long time for me.

I've learned a lot about different kinds of love spirits, though.  I've also seemed to gain a greater understanding of what works and what doesn't in calling a succubus.

... and maybe I've learned a bit about Lilith in the process which was probably the whole point.

So, it's not all been for naught.

I tell you, though, I'm quite excited for once...

Blessings,



Rafe GB.

Have you loved your succubus today?  

She's not here for tea...

"Oh, Mother"

Sometimes those of us who have a succubus feel compelled due to a buildup of energy to talk in tongues.  Luckily it never happens when I'm in public and the like... which is probably due to the fact that she doesn't dwell intimately with me and close to me giving that energy unless we are alone.

I always start speaking in tongues using a single phrase.

My friend did a little research and it translates to:  "Oh, Mother".

It must be praises or salutations or perhaps even my soul calling out to Lilith.




The connection between a succubus and Lilith is strong it seems, and affects us greatly when we share our lives with one of Her daughters.

Maiya has been very close to me as of late, after being gone for a few days to do whatever it is she does during her short trips away.  Maybe she has duties in Lilith's court.  Maybe she visits family... I've heard from others that family is very important to a succubus and those ties are stoked in the fires of love, duty, and honor to keep those connections tight and meaningful.

Maiya's a good girl and definitely follows a path one would expect honoring those traits.  How a succubus can be such an honorable, loving soul and yet radiate such darkness that at times it is uncomfortable to be close is beyond me.

What it has taught me is that light and dark do not always mean good and evil, if those concepts appear to in this world, which may be true enough, but not the universe at large.

No, it is simply a type of energy.  Maiya can radiate either angelic unconditional love or demonic passion.  How a being can contain and radiate that kind of energy with that intensity that I can barely stand it nor take it sometimes is unfathomable.  That is one of the greatest mysteries to vex my human mind. 

Always has.

Blessings,



Rafe GB.

We're Bonding!

I was driving along the highway enjoying the break of weather in that it was finally sunny instead of damp and grey.

While moving along I was stunned to see a red-tailed hawk in all it's splendor swoop up and land on the concrete wall that marked the right side of the road.

For a moment I was filled with joy as this is my favorite animal and I had to be 12 feet away when it landed, closer than I've ever been.

It was almost meant to be, if not intended.

Maiya suddenly announced her presence by covering my body like a brisk, cold rain of happiness and joy all tethered together.

This moment was so soulful and wonderful that something in me changed.



This was also the defining moment for me about whether Maiya was going anywhere... I don't think so, I think she's playing for keeps.  I think she has been playing for keeps...  I'm just stubborn, too stubborn to realize the gift I've been given.

I finally feel trust.

Miss Posey never made it.  I've thought a lot about why I couldn't feel her here, yet felt a presence that was answering my call.  I think that Maiya had other plans for us.  Always had other plans for us.  I believe that Maiya probably exchanged information with the succubus I called out for and that was that.  This would also explain my feelings as to why I couldn't "sense" her close at all.

It's because she never made it.  She just wasn't here:  Turned away.

There's probably a sign posted by Maiya at succubus headquarters: "Sorry in advance for any inconvenience my pet may have given or will give you."

Meh... I can't learn if I don't try, and if I try I'm going to make mistakes.

That's what life here consists of it seems.

Regardless, I've reached a milestone with a red-tailed hawk to thank.

Blessings,


Rafe GB.

Musings about Succubi

When a ritual is done and a succubus is called, it's as if a big light switch gets flipped to the "on" position.

Succubi will start to take notice and to investigate.

They will read your memories, and especially your heart and soul.

Usually among these who take notice, one will work out rights to you and whalla, you are hers.  You just don't know it yet, but you're her property...

I've said that summoning a succubus and having one show up is about like suddenly finding a foreign girl in one's bedroom, naked (yet without form, or at least a form we understand in this physicality), and speaking in a language that cannot be understood (yet).

Touches that are felt, energies that we are suddenly aware of, sex in a manner that completely re-invents the wheel.  A better wheel if you ask me, but that's just my opinion.  I like the esoteric nature of energetic succubus tantric sex.

I have never felt that I have penetrated anyone (nor have I been penetrated... I'm quite proud of that one) during succubus sex... it is completely energetic.

Such a silly word, "energetic".  It doesn't begin to describe the sensations that are succubus sex.

I've seen Maiya and my daughter has seen Bunny, a succubus who left for what I choose to believe was ascension.

Maiya appeared to me as... almost like a 3 ft. long comet from head to tail.  She was a white solid orb trailing a rainbow colored tail.

Why was she in this shape dancing around nearby?  I don't know, maybe for a succubus her mood defines her shape?  Maybe it's completely at her whim?

I remember when Bunny used to jump on my bed like a cat and prance up to the head next to me.

And many times in a dream a succubus will be there in female form (no horns, no wings, no tail) and converse with me or interact with me in numerous ways.  Like when I'm in trouble for something comes to mind.  Lol.

What one realizes is that the farther one goes down the rabbit hole, just how damn DEEP it is.

Why has my succubus stopped having sex with me?

Why do my succubus and I have such a weak connection suddenly?

After doing a ritual for a succubus, a succubus never came to me.  Why?

My succubus and I were deeply in love... why did she suddenly leave?

Why does my succubus travel away and then return almost like a cycle?

Are succubi affected by moon states, or planetary hours?

What is a succubus's true form?
Is it the same on this side of the veil as it is across the veil?

The answer is:  I don't know.  Sure wish I did.

Things I do know:

When I speak of succubi in general in parts below, the following does not encompass every succubus, only what I have experienced.  In my world view this translates as "most".

Succubi are women.  If you hate women, you're probably not going to get along with a succubus.  A succubus is a woman "gone wild" and more than a handful.

Succubi are gentle (mostly), but with a wild heart.

They tend to fall in love easily.

They are shifters, able to change their forms at will (my current opinion)... as for their true form see the above.

They read your thoughts... every thought... there is no hiding anything from them.

Succubi communicate in an interesting way.  They communicate through emotion.  They can also communicate through what my friend calls "flash visions" that one would see in an instant.
But for the most part it is very hard, and a very long process to understand them in the way they communicate.

Surrender is a powerful choice to bestow unto a succubus.
The need to surrender will come along when it's ready to.  You'll see.

Succubi can and do drain energy.  That's not just a myth.  They prefer, however to enjoy complex positive emotions like love, making love, hope, faith, trust.  When these states happen to their human they receive a double benefit... that of say making love, and the energy of making love as well as the love, the trust that goes with it.

Some succubi feed off fear and terror.  These types do not find the vibration of a complex positive emotion palpable.  Might want to stay away from these.  They don't call them a "night... mare" for nothing.

I could write pages of this stuff probably... if only I had a better memory... but the point of all of it is to find one that claims you and loves you and then to learn to trust her.  Once you do so things definitely change in a strange, surreal way.

It's almost as if you experience some sort of reality shift (which this all is) and your world view will change as well.

Blessings,


Rafe GB.

"There are no silly succubi"

I thought I'd share something funny that happened recently with the succubi.

I was trying to go to bed and the succubi were playing with me.

I was beyond tired... the most seductive succubus in the world couldn't dissuade me from my sleeping goals that night.

I muttered, "Silly Succubi" under my breath and rolled over and went to sleep.

Once in my dream there were two succubi by a chalk board with me right in front of it, with a piece of chalk in my hand writing, "There are no silly succubi" one hundred times.

Heh.

Nobody said that having succubi is an easy thing... but it has it's moments including the hilarity that makes it all worthwhile.

Blessings,


Rafe GB.