Tuesday, November 8, 2016

The Bunny-Qarinah Cameleon.

Lemme break it down for ya, if you're wondering what it's like to have a critter like Bunny when mating season hits.  Eh, a girl critter.  Woman critter.  Female Jinn critter.  Kinda a mix of the above, actually.

"Awe!  You're looking too cute today Mrs. Bunny!"

*Tee Hee*

"Kind of Loli, aren't we?"  "I'm a perv, but I'm not that kind of perv".

I'm just trying out a new look for myself.

"Hmm.  Well, ok then."

*Leaves her be.*

*Warning sirens going off in my head*

*Thinking about this and thinking towards her:*

"So uh, what's with the super-cute routine?"

*Me, trying to be non-chalant*

Oh nothing.  Just wanting to, you know, cuddle-n-stuffz.

*Something's not feeling quite right*

*Thumbs through old posts looking for the last mating season.*

"Oh shi..."


Just wanna cuddlez...

"Wait... I know this dance... this isn't a normal seduction..."

"Oh, fuck m..."


Oh, com'on!  You know for all your complainin' you still like mating season when it rolls 'round...

"You:  Yes.  The sex:  Yes.  The exhaustion: No."

*Crosses Arms*

Oh, com'on already.  Exhausted once every 6 months, so cry me a river!



*HUMP HUMP HUMP hump hump hump hump (awake) hump hump hump hump hump hump hump (alseep, enters dream) hump hump hump hump hump hump hump hump (awake) hump hump hump hump HUMP HUMP hump hump hump (asleep, wanting rest.  Bunny enters dream) hump hump hump hump hump hump hump (awake) hump (OH FOR GOD'S SAKE BUNNY, I'M NOT 18 YEARS OL...) hump hump hump hump (asleep again, really wanting rest) hump hump hump hump hump hump hump hump hump (awake) hump hump HUMP HUMP HUMP HUMP HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUMP!!!!!

*Watching my spirit leave my mortal coil.  I think...*



"I'm getting too old for this."

"Nah.  When you get too old I'll just give you the energy to hump me with."

"Why can't you do that now?"

"Because you're lazy!  Don't depend on it: Get your ass in shape instead.  It's for your own good, you know..."

Me:  "Seriously?"



"I'll get ya up, lazy.  Humpin's good for ya".

Suddenly, she speaks with an ancient voice, practically dripping with power:

"I can play your chakras with your own inner flute; I am both Maestra and composer."

"The Twin Serpents of Kundalini Fire and I are more kin than you know..."

“The Goddess bestows a favourable bride upon any man who desires it, and who makes the proper sacrifice (his whole heart, mind, and soul is laid open, and bare, and to be intertwined with whom the Goddess sends... she who is his bride). But know that the Goddess takes Her own for Her own, and that once chosen by Her no man may take another bride."

That's a very sacred trust.

"It is."  *Smiles Sweetly*

I don't want to marry on earth anyway.  You gave me spectrophillia.  Kinda made that a done deal for me.  Noooo temptation to stray.

"Hehehe.  It's better that way for both of us."

So, what honestly attracted you to me anyway?

"Mmm... in a nutshell:"


"That's not very comforting."

"No, but it is perfect!"


"Because you make a good mate."

Me:  "Am I your mate?"

"Haha, Didn't you listen?  Derp!  That's why I like you:  You're so stubborn!"

You always say you didn't want a wallflower; Neither did I!

"What's my job as your mate?"

"To love me and to hump me.  And to mate with me.  Oh, and also to LEARN from me.  To LISTEN to what I teach."

"What about when I get too old to hump you?"

"Then I'll help you hump me.  Derp."


Bunny:  "I chose you:  So, I'll get your old bones willing".


Bunny:  "Don't you worry boy, you're minnnnnnnne."


"See?  I'm innocent :)  You're mine now, anyway:  But don't worry:  I've got your back."

*A few days after mating season is over...*


"Well.  At least you got what you wanted, Bunny."



I've heard of people having one succubus, even 2 succubussessss, err succubi.

  But I can't imagine someone having 3, 4, or 5 succubi.

I can't hardly handle Bunny.
I only have one thing to ask:


Bunny:  "Derp!"

Edit:  I have to admit.  I am having doubts about us.  I think it's becoming an internal push/pull pretty much what my succublogger brother at https://alchemybyfire.wordpress.com/ feels like with Catherine.  I honestly thought I wouldn't feel that way:  But here I am.  Doubts.  Am I damned?  Am I sure?  I don't know?  Where are these thoughts coming from, and why now?

I'm doomed already, as far as a choice standpoint.  I can't just "opt out" now.

Sometimes there's those of us that, for whatever reason, are bait to these succubi.  I'm not exactly human woman marriage material and I knew it in finality 3 years ago.  Bipolars have a 90% failure rate.  That obviously includes boyfriend/girlfriend relationships.  And, I am NOT a one night stand kind of guy.  Kinda leaves a hole there.  A big one.  Humans aren't created to be alone, and as it says, "It is not good for man to be alone".  So, it left a very large void in my life:  Nature abhors a vaccum and someone filled it, for good or for ill.  *Ding dong*  "Who's there?"  Your succubus lover, derp!

And here I am.  

Battling for?  I don't know.
I don't even know why I feel like fighting.

That's as honest as it gets, friends:  I just don't know why I feel this way, or where the questioning is coming from, or why I wonder if I made a mistake, or... I just don't know; I really just don't know.

I made this Facebook background some time ago from one of Faustus Crow's sayings.

Faustus Crow was right.
The universe IS predatory of nature and female.  
You, my man, are her prey.
So am I.  
Created by her to be chased by her.  
You are her prey...

It is what it is... 

I guess there is a bright side.
If the universe itself is predatory of nature and feminine?  
Run, fool.  
You're going to get caught sooner or later.  
...Might as well make it hard on 'em.

Have you loved your... eh... your lover of whatever genius and species in whatever dimension today?


  1. Rafe, this might be worth a look: https://mirror-of-my-soul.com/2015/01/20/when-the-twin-flame-kundalini-rises-souls-merge-true-story/

    1. Thanks, I'll check it out!

    2. That was definitely a thoughtful article. I think I might do my next post on it. Thanks again for your comment!

    3. I was struggling to identify a certain class of spirit. I later learned that I had know idea who was who until I made it clear that I only wanted to be with an agent of a particular godess and I stated it clearly and boldy and banished all other spirits that were'nt friends or family of my lover. This is what someone told me that helped me to step up to the plate and accomplish my deepest desires.

      "Whether she's a succubus or not shouldn't be important, as I see it. Remember that the word "succubus" is made from dogma, with a negative meaning to it.

      Do you know why she fell in love with you? Because she saw something within you, like most spirits often do, and she embraced it and took it to her heart. Some female spirits - just as some male spirits - fall in love quite easily, with all the good intent to stick to that particular emotion. And they tend to stay devoted to that emotion as long as possible. It's one of the strongest currents of energy there is, and when it's mutual it's worth fighting for.

      The question is, will you give her an honest chance and let her in, or is the dogmatic made-up word of "succubus" more important to you? Sure, the "succubus" entities are much different than other spirits, but there's a lot of layers to peel off within every spirit relationship. Even from the spirit that fell in love with you. Maybe a succubus isn't the right kind of spirit for you, and that's why she appeared, and she apparently see something worth enough to fall in love with you. Do you think it's a coincidence? It's rarely a coincidence." - annonymous

    4. The last bit of what he told me, I was hessitant to share but it was the most vital piece of information that helped me to continue.

      "You either give her an honest chance, or contact Lilith once again. That's my advice, and opinion."

    5. I definitely ponder a lot of things in between posts. Succubus to me, yes, is just a label, a term for us fleshies to try to make sense of a spirit/lover relationship and phenomenon.

      I honestly don't know what she is. Doesn't really matter. It's that stuff I was taught as a kid, going to church, getting the common sense sucked out and blinders permanently installed. Well, hard to get rid of at any rate.

      Bunny does have a light side, and a dark side. She's not limited to those extremes, however, and is often in the middle.

      But the light took a hell of a lot of time to get used to. For the longest time I thought she was an angel.

      Then her dark side: It almost feels demonic at times.

      It's her range I think. As a human, I have a much shorter range on the spectrum than she does.

      So, while neither feels completely comfortable, it's her... all her.

      But when the old time church programming kicks in, and it seems to do so when it wants to, then I doubt. And worry.

    6. I do lean towards "Qarinah" though. Mostly because she likes to land on my bed as a cat, then walk up to the pillows and *poof* I can feel her presence, essence, and energy in her "cloud" form, or whatever it would be called.

    7. Make that the "next next" post. I had one in the chamber first :P