Many. I was married for 15 years.
They aren't so bad. Sucks when you first get the list, but once you finish 'em it's all good.
Stuff needs to be done, anyways.
At the end of the last post I expressed some worries that I had that were nagging me, mostly (I imagine) stem from my very strict religious upbringing. (Hey mom! Look at me now!)
Some things just can't be forgotten completely. Or, that's how it seems with me at least.
I got a good dose of Bunny's dark side (nothing to harm me) that left me a bit stunned and spinning.
I guess she decided the only way to show me it, was to show me it.
What's she supposed to do, send a memo? In hindsight, I guess this was the only way.
And so, my christo-abrahamic roots ran wild for a bit.
I have to realize that I will always doubt just a little bit. I can't seem to pacify that part of me, nor can I eradicate it completely. There will always be a "what if?" in the back of my mind.
Yay! Self doubt!
Well, being the maladjusted sort that I am, I came up with a project to help assuage my fears.
In short, I decided the best way to figure out if this relationship was positive for me was to see just how well Bunny does with what would be a part of a normal relationship here.
I know, it's not, and she's not, and... but I'm me, and sometimes common sense goes right out the window.
Ok, a lot of times.
I decided to make a honey-do-list for Bunny.
So, I tailored it to her in a way that works around her disabilities (being corporeally challenged).
Haha, ok, no that's not a disability, but it's kinda funny. No, I tailored it just for her.
I could actually feel some excitement from her for some reason. Maybe someone with more "succubus whisperer" traits can explain that, or maybe it's a loving woman thing.
Which means, of course, that I'm clueless. Ah well... that's never stopped me before...
First item on the list: Fix my problem with the doctor. I'd been going back and forth with the doctor on an item for a WEEK and a HALF that, for some reason, just wasn't being communicated and so no resolution was forthcoming.
24 hours after I put it on my spankin' new "Succuhoney-Do-List" it was fixed.
Next up? My lack of motivation for a few things, to help motivate me to get them done.
Girl can nag. In a good way.
2nd item has been started, and I expect will be completed tomorrow.
Bunny's got some mad motivational skillz too, it seems...
There's a few other items on there that I needed help with, things that I believe that she can perform well at getting them accomplished where I have failed, considering her talents.
I'll update this as things are checked off, and hopefully the list will be completed.
She really seems to be into this. I think she likes the idea of helping in a real-world way similar to what she would do if she were human like me.
I actually do know why she is into all this... she loves to help. And she loves me, so by extension this is an opportunity for her to express herself in new ways, both with herself, and with me, and with us.
...Ways that we both can appreciate as growth in the relationship.
I think that in being "incorporeally challenged" myself (fair is fair :P), her list is probably well suited to what I can do also. Add "listen to me, learn from me" to the list below, and that's probably pretty close to Bunny's "Rafey-do-list" :) Oh! And "sing to me". She loves for me to sing to her.
Have you loved your lover today?