Saturday, November 7, 2015
Who I am, What they are...
"Each of us has a Guardian Angel -- a companion and lover who waits just behind the images that flood our minds during sleep or reverie. A protector and guide who disguises as the individual with whom we fall in love; an ideal lover who has adored us since the beginning of our individual existence and who will never abandon us until the instant we merge our being into Absolute Godhead." ~ DuQuette
I think it's time to speak a bit about what I believe about all of this. I had a comment yesterday that said that I was being coy, and that I knew that Lilith was the mother of my lady, or succubi and incubi in general. I honestly didn't want to alienate anyone, nor get drawn into some debate, so I did not keep the post, nor my reply. But, maybe it is time to explain a bit about me, and a little of my own theories about some of this.
Truth is I don't think that Lilith is the mother of my lady. It's much more complicated than that as spirit and soul do NOT fit neatly in little religious boxes from mythology, from religion, or from anywhere else.
"Succubus" and "Incubus" is a title, a mantle. It is not the be all and end all word for defining those spirits whom desire a sexual relationship with us. Spirits are as different and individual as any of us, and as far as "race" even more so.
I've got stories from the fairies of English lands (which was very widespread in the 1600's), to selkies, to fox lovers, to nymphs, various nature spirits, elementals, angels, deities, and mixes of part of them all: The list is endless for those who take human lovers as their own.
One thing I learned from Hermetics is that nothing is 100% right, nothing is 100% wrong. I live by that... it keeps me from being boxed in, and free. It also allows for "thinking outside the box" so to speak which is a powerful thing.
As far as me being "coy" with you all, no. Just no.
I started this blog as an online diary with zero people reading it. And if people stop coming to read it, I would still post. It helps me to go back and reread things, to ponder my growth, and to simply express.
I'm a sorceror. Knowledge and the strong desire to express gave me this gift. Not from being reincarnated with it, not from anything but my own lust for knowledge, except perhaps a good dose of grace from... well, Someone(s) up there who notice my trials along my chosen path whomever they may be.
I know how to cause Eudaemons to indwell statues (freely, not bound) and even how to make them attractive to a certain type of Eudaemon spirit, how to summon and to cause Cacodaemons to destroy my enemies (which I don't. I don't traffic with Cacodaemons, regardless of having the ability to do so).
From hermeticism, to sacred sound, ceremonial magick, qigong, reiki master in 7 major forms (and untold minors), hoodoo, witchcraft, tantra, shamanism, pathworking, energy work and transformation, summoning, spiritcrafting, and a hell of a lot more: I'm not naive. And please don't ask as I will not teach any these things.
As a sorceror I have my head in heaven and my feet in hell where they should be.
Is "sorceror" an accurate title for me? Probably not. Again... things are always more complicated than they seem.
Why am I telling this? Because this online diary of mine is slowing becoming more: A gift to you. I want you to realize that although I have a broad background, I'm always learning, always yearning, just like you! There is NO difference. My background means nothing: I'm learning daily just like you: From encounter to encounter, from kiss to kiss, from lesson to lesson. Just like you :)
So, what have I personally learned about Succubi and their Incubi brothers?
I know that we, as humans, have this strange makeup with baffles the shit out of anyone but Jung and the followers of Jung.
If we are male, our subconscious is female. And the opposite is true for females.
Now, enter the spiritual lover... remember that quote from above from DuQuette? I believe our "Holy Guardian Angel" (which was code for "tutillary spirit") is indwelt by our Succubus lovers. For lack of a better term. Once enough time has passed and the relationship grows to that level. Guardian? Seductress? Teacher Friend? Wife? "Words are weapons of the terrified", so in truth... it is beyond words and labels.
Why does the HGA (Holy Guardian Angel) allow that? Because the succubus takes on the ability to become that spiritual teacher. She GROWS into it... which is why it is beneficial to all involved.
She doesn't replace the HGA, no... but she becomes the face of it. Again, hard to put into earthly words. If the anima is female, she chooses to exist within it's folds... as well as coming and going as she pleases.
One time I took a journey into my anima, being made love to spiritually as I travelled through my anima... and there was my lady existing within it. She was quite at home. Looked pretty comfy, actually. Maybe that helps with the visualization of what I'm trying to express.
As the succubus causes us to grow spiritually, so to does she become even more defined. Am I suggesting that they are thoughforms, or egregores? No, not so simple. They already existed, but they become "more".
Some have more than one incubus or succubus. Why? Well, it doesn't really matter. I suppose there is much room for multiple entities to grow in a mutually beneficial way. Personally I don't want two. Maybe other people do. I can barely deal with a highly intelligent, sassy, powerful one... and truth be told I love her so much I'm just fine trying to play catch up with her for eternity if that's what it takes.
My little lady can run me through the ringer mentally, physically, spiritually, sexually... all of it, and I am WELL satisfied. I don't think any more, or any less of those who have more beings. For me personally, I have found my match (and good God, is she a handful. But I have a feeling that she feels that way about me as well).
Read this from 1879: Demoniality: Or, Incubi and Succibi, a Treatise
I feel that succubi are both angel and demon, or a bit of both. Protecting succubus, lusty angel? Protecing angel, lusty succubs? Doesn't matter. They are both of these. It is what it is.
Angels? Demons? What is angel to one is demon to another. And vice versa.
That priest's studies in that book that I linked above show that these beings are unaffected by holy objects, which in conclusion he figures out that they are somewhere between angel and demon. Not really unlike us, as along with them we have the capacity for good or evil and complete free will.
So, what are we witnessing a rivial of?
Balance. Love lessons. Spiritual growth. A redefining of genders as they are closer aligned to those within the cosmic order: Teaching both males and females the way of balance,love, life, the universe, and everything: Including what lies far beyond for all of us who dare.
This is the right time for that and it is sorely needed in this world... and they do their best, one soul at a time who is willing to shut up, listen, and learn.