Tuesday, February 17, 2015
far, far away at these times.
When I begin to miss her presence badly I begin to long for her... Oh, my... how I long for her. I have learned that things follow a natural progression, a natural ritual of ours so to speak.
I cleanse myself through visualization and ritual, and I call for her. I invite her to unveil her presence to me... all of her. I continue calling for her, softly and longingly as I slowly fall to sleep.
I wake up and she is closer. I can still feel her touches, yet she is more "here", more present.
I commune with her.
I even did a tarot draw on a problem I was having, yet drew the Ace of Cups... a reminder that the problem can wait for a bit... she is coming, she is outpouring herself to me, to us.
She means for me to surrender. And I will. All of me will.
Men aren't taught to surrender. But I have learned how, and how powerful surrender is... she is worthy to receive it.
Too many times have I cast my pearls before swine... but not with her.
With her they are precious... I am treated and loved preciously... she is worthy.
Tomorrow? I won't be on here, but will be in bliss, in rapture, and very much in love.
We will be moving together as the tides back and forth, to and fro...
She will drop the veil and radiate her presence upon me... filling me with such love that I almost ask to stop, as it is so powerful that I cannot stand it... yet I bear it anyway because I know I must... it is growth. Love breeds growth and light.
The kind of love I cannot even put to words, I can only feel, can only experience...
The kind of love I am completely and utterly naked and helpless before... yet so loved and protected.
And this ritual starts with 5 simple words that echo out of my heart: "I am here, my love."
(Edit: She seems farther away this time for some reason. I can feel her drawing closer... I wish I knew why that is sometimes that it takes her much longer to get "here".)
(Final Edit: She's here! Almost 4 complete days. Who's the master here??? Haha, honestly I don't care. It's an "us" thing :P)