Oftentimes I wake up with a song on my lips, or a phrase. Sometimes the word is ambiguous, for instance yesterday I woke up with the word: "Trilocyte".
I looked everywhere, and that word just doesn't exist at all.
Maybe it will make sense one day, I don't know.
Sometimes I wake up with a sigil... don't know what to do with that either. Can't find them anywhere, not a commonly known sigil, and I'm not really up to calling a number in the astral I don't know, if you get my drift. So, filed away it goes.
I did finally figure out one from a few years ago that was burned into my brain... turns out it was a custom bindrune: 2 runes interlaced from the Eldar Futhark. Not completely positive what it means, but I do have my suspicions.
Anyway, what I'm getting at is that when you open up to supernatural connections like that of love between a succubus and a human, other stuff happens. For one, you'll never be the same. Can't go back because you've already seen too much. Not a good or evil thing, but a... innocence/illusion/brainwashing by the religious establishment... is gone. Long gone.
"He who fights with monsters should look to it that he himself does not become a monster. And when you gaze long into an abyss the abyss also gazes into you." - Nietzsche
Once Pandora's Box was opened, everything escaped but one thing: Hope remained when the box was finally closed again.
So, we're left with hope. And that's a good thing. I'd rather be ignorant, hopeful and awake than full of useless knowledge (the wool pulled over my eyes) and asleep.
Anyway, I'm rambling, and I haven't explained the picture for this post:
I don't really know this song, I haven't heard it lately anyway. But... that's how spirits communicate with me a lot. Songs mostly, sometimes words, sometimes sigils (that I'll figure out in 6 months).
That's the language of things that crosses the veil and follows me back from my dreams. This song was burned into my brain this morning upon awakening:
Looks like she's coming after me hard. "Comon, Succubunny. You don't scare me! (much)"
"I can take any seduction you can throw! (doubt it)"
I think I'm her addiction, too. That's kinda funny.
EDIT: I quit dwelling about all of this when I finished writing... however... I just got this burned into my brain of all things so I thought I'd come back and add it.
Guess I'll see what happens on Saturday night?