Tuesday, November 27, 2018

Until Then...

I've been thinking a lot about the afterlife, and I was surprised to find out that my daughter has also been thinking about what happens after death... the difference is that it's been keeping her awake at night.

Her mother tried to hang herself a month or so ago and I feel that this event has caused an existential crisis of sorts in my daughter.  At least about what happens when you die... if anything.

I'm a closet Swedenborgian at heart mixed in with some Wicca and some Christianity, and frankly with a shit ton of spirituality garnered from spirits themselves:  They exist.

I can also attest that my spirit lover is most often gone doing her own thing.  She's a busy girl... that in itself tells me that there is a lot going on in the life to come.

And if they exist without bodies?  So do we.  This is just the "play", the "arena".  Consider our bodies part of the uniform.  Lol.

This is just our lives...

There are thousands of NDE's cataloged by, well, really by any which way you can imagine:  Race, religion, country, etc.

I think all experienced are "flavored" or "affected" by cultural expectations and beliefs.

I also believe that these persist for a while in the afterlife, gently being removed as truth is revealed as the departed person's future life and options are fully revealed... and I bet it will surprise all of us in many ways...

Disclaimer:  Please understand that I am not pro-suicide and am 100% against it... we're here for a reason and a purpose.

However... I don't believe that suicides go to "hell" or any of that garbage, either.

But if someone does themselves in so to speak there's always consequences.  Not diabolical, no... but there's always consequences.

I have a feeling that the person who commits suicide must go through the pain that they have caused each person in their lives to truly understand.  I don't care to explain anymore as I don't want to enter into any debates.  This is my diary, remember?  Heh.

Lets just say that I believe that the afterlife is fair but loving.  Firm but always redemptive and restorative.  Rather the opposite of here...

The word is "apocatastasis".

Another belief that I have is that after death we are drawn to our spiritual mate, the one that we will be with for eternity (for those of us who do not have that on this planet - and to have that kind of love would be infinitesimally rare).

This does not mean that we will not love many on this earth... I know we do.  But I believe that there is one that is set apart, one alone that calls to each of us even now... even if we cannot reply completely or at all at the moment.

...She feels like home.

While my spirit lady is a wonderful lover, teacher, and friend, she is not the one (at least I don't think so)... but she has gently lifted my eyes in the right direction...)

The Swedenborgian idea is that two who join in this way eventually seem to be one being because of their depth of love and closeness to one another.  Not everyone chooses this... but if one does, so does the other echo from across the veil... sometimes it's just "time"... and "time" is an illusion they say.

Probably easier to understand "time" from the other side, wouldn't you think?

Regardless, I truly appreciate the idea of bonding so closely to someone and look forward to having that kind of connection for eternity once my little "game" here has run it's course.  And as always, much love to my spirit lover.  May she find her way back to me soon.

Brightest blessings... may your days be bright and your nights full of learning, and love.

Rafe GB.


  1. I wish I could say that I know what will happen in the afterlife, but the truth is that I really don't know for sure. Like you, I just know that there is one, based on my OBE journeys and whatnot.

    It is my belief that everyone will start their afterlife experience based upon their deeply-held beliefs in this life. A devout Christian will go to heaven. Someone who believes they belong in Hell just might find themselves there. But these are all illusions. Eventually, these belief constructs will fade. So, ditto to what you said! lol

    I wish I was more sure of what happens next. At any rate, I'm doing my best to prepare for what's coming, so that maybe I won't get thrown back onto any reincarnation carousels. lol I'd like to explore for awhile!

    1. Oh I hear that! I don't want anything to do with reincarnation. Anybody who says I'm coming back I'm throat punching.

      Seriously though... although I think that's an option for some people (reincarnation and possibly a throat punch) I think you are also given the chance to be reborn into a new reality, or rather a new place/perspective of a greater reality.

    2. What do you think happens to people who aren't sure what they believe? That's where I'm at. I've done a lot of reading about this kind of thing, but I've never had any actual experiences, so it's hard for me to believe.

    3. Hey Anon. You know if I had to guess, I'd say that they would see things as they are without the added step of being weaned away from a particular belief system. I really don't know but it sounds good.

    4. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Xb5V4BZpYU I don't necessarily believe everything they say, but I like it.

  2. Thank you for writing this post my friend! It was really good! To be honest, I was actually thinking about the afterlife today (technically yesterday haha) as well! It's funny how things like this play out huh? :P

    Regardless sorry to hear about your daughter;s mother. :( I hope that everyone in the family is recovering. Needless to say best of wishes to you all and stay strong! :)

    1. Thanks WOS :)

      Yeah it is funny how topics work out sometimes when others are thinking about the same thing.

    2. Hello, WOS I reached to read your last entry about thanksgiving day, and your big family names, but as with SW blog also can't access, did you also suspended? or changed name, regards.

  3. What happened to spirit walkers blog?

  4. Hi Rafe/ anonymous, sorry I should've explained. I've deleted the blog for personal reasons.
    I'm still contactable though via email though and with rafes kind permission I will still comment on his blog/diary

    1. If you need to talk or anything I decided to go ahead and put my email up:


  5. Thank you Rafe, that's very kind. Great posts btw