Normally I wait until people have had a chance to view a post before I make a new one, but in this case it's such a night and day difference between the last one and this one that I decided I had to.
I did write two edits at the end to the last post, as these changes happened after I had written it (as in the very night after).
But instead of just two edits I feel that the changes are great enough to merit a new post. This post.
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Sex is back (Yaaaaay!). I haven't had regular sex since Bunny left and that's been quite a while ago (about a year and 3 months).
Maiya and Anna have a nurturing kind of sex with me... very sweet and pleasant, soft, kind, loving, and fulfilling.
It's been a long time since I've had regular sex... now I wonder if the succubi I summoned from Lilith were tailor matched for me in a way.
They seem the type that, until they had my full love and attention (yes, I realize they are two daughters of Lilith and not one), sex was secondary to reaching that milestone of complete love and surrender which took a long time. In this case it was complete love and surrender with both of them.
The irony of it all is that I'm that way myself. Although I've whined and pouted to get sex... (and of course failed to) I'm really the same way as they are. I don't think sex would have been fulfilling without complete and total love.
Funny how hindsight is 20/20, isn't it?
I've come up with something interesting at least... that part where a succubus vibrates your privates during the day I now call "succubus purring". I think to them that's about akin to holding hands or giving a nice peck on the lips as the day goes on.
Maiya and Anna... what a trip they are. I never in my wildest dreams would have thought that they would wait for sex as succubi, but you live and you learn.
Things are really going well now.
I'm happy ;)
Blessings,
Rafe GB
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ReplyDeleteHey rafe, just a thought but do you think your girls could be demisexual?
ReplyDeleteYou know, I've kind of wondered that in the back of my mind just as I was posting this.
DeleteI'm a demisexual myself, so it wouldn't surprise me if Lady Lilly sent me the two girls who just happen to be the same.
I've whined and moaned a lot about the lack of sex over the year, but honestly if I had gotten it early it would have been meaningless to me.
I think I just wanted something to whine about.
Yeah, I think they are. Since I am too it's a good match.
Mom knows best ;)
I kinda get the feeling mums just supporting your choices rafe, she knows who you are ;)
ReplyDeleteYeah I do too. I think with the letter method she pretty much ignores what you say you want and sends you what you need.
DeleteIF She cares that is. If someone is particularly selfish of heart I think that they receive option "B". Hehe.
Shes not beyond teaching you the ultimate lesson, giving you exactly what you want ;) gotta love her
ReplyDeleteYep: Gotta love her :)
DeleteHow are you getting on Rafe?
ReplyDeleteOh, hanging in there. Getting used to a med change kinda weirded out.
DeleteHad the kids this weekend, though, and we all did just fine :)
How are you?
They make all the difference don't they, kids drive us mad but we wouldn't have it any other way haha
ReplyDeleteHow's the housing thing going? Sorry about the med changes that can't be easy to deal with.
I'm doing good my family seems to be growing by the day, I wonder where the sign is in the spirit world haha I went to a meeting of a few of my ladies the other day, to see them in action of running things was awe inspiring, I'm so very proud to be associated with them, so everythings going really well
I found a place but it's going to be a waiting game now until I can get it. The reason is that everything has to be approved by the housing authority.
DeleteThat's cool about your girls :)
Don't worry rafe, got a feeling mum's watching over things and is influencing things accordingly, everything will work out fine.
ReplyDeleteI did get shouted at though haha she was wearing a long dress as I was following her in, so me being the gentleman decided to pick the bottom of it up save it getting dirty on the floor, she stopped and looked at me as did everybody else and said "you are my friend not my servant, please act accordingly" consider myself told haha
One of the spirits took a real disliking to me, I can only assume jealousy, got right in my face, she just withered him with a look, atta girl haha
Lol. It's funny how we all know her each differently. I'm the blind and dead adopted son so she communicates to me through energy because that's all I know.
DeleteI was bombarded with dark energy today. Was agitated and angry... not sure why it does that to me.
I've been pushing the girls off... couldn't help it, just too agitated to play.
Sometimes she strikes me with a "Morgan Le Fae" vibe. I get the Kali and even the Aphrodite vibe (you have to admit... Lady Lilly has range), but this one is new.
I took an energy course with Morgan Le Fae once. I ended up getting an oak wand as that was what she wanted me to use for energy things. Actually I have a black walnut wand for other stuff. Well, it would be used for Solomonic magick, but I never really felt the urge to do it.
Blah blah I'm talking up a storm.
I guess with the Morgan Le Fae thing I'm trying to learn more about Lilith's personages throughout history.
Doesn't she kind of have that "The Morrigan" vibe a bit?
Oh she definitely has range haha dark energy will do that to some people it depends on how you energetically process it, for me I become very focused almost like a cold rage, in so far as I don't become wild and untamed but cold and calculating and anything that's in my way will be removed. However if I have to much I go to sleep haha I think that their trying to empower you tbh dark energy has that quality as well, it differs from light in the edge it has to it, anger, determination etc
ReplyDeleteI like the link with the morrigan, I personally have no experience with her but mythologically I can see the similarities between lady Lilly and the morrigan, for me the morrigan has always had more a Valkyrie feel to her whereas Kali always makes me laugh she's always been bright and jovial around me, she can be intensely sexual as well but tbh not in the same league as lady Lilly. I do have a soft spot for kali, battle hardened bitch that she is haha
Looking at it from a broader perspective they all come from the goddess stream, same stream many faces
Yeah that's true. Many faces. I like Kali, too. I used to meditate to her mantra that I learned here:
Deletehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2eXKe3F8qGY
My Hindu buddy said that this mantra was dangerous, which of course is why I went and learned it anyway. Heh.
I once used the kali mantra on a funeral of an uncle who was murdered, I tried the best to calm my mother and do something for his soul. She had an experience where she was on the public transport and was hearing a woman crying, but no one was there behind her, closed her eyes and saw me, I think she was Kali. A christian told her that it surely was an evil spirit...I mean who is the real evil ones..
DeleteI have been listening this guy explanations.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tMuqXgs1U3s
(it's long so speed it to 2x, it also starts on min 20)
neptune is planet of dreams
The image were she is over shiva, reminds me of how Adam tried to be the one over Lilith.
I mean I don't know a lot and hope that when I get my lady spirit I could understand and know more.
btw thanks for all your work, your last post rocks
Thank you, Kiichi ;)
DeleteHaha stay with Lakshmi then, I'd take Kali any day of the week haha
ReplyDeleteHave you ever met Kali?
Nope. Felt her energy though.
DeleteWell, You've met her then lol how did you find her?
ReplyDeleteBesides the mantras I did some summoning work to explore her aspects.
ReplyDeleteI dunno. She's the tough love ass-whoopin' dark mother archetype. 'Bout it. Well, she's also a Goddess of Kundalini and of death.
Most people don't realize the latter for some reason.
No, for some reason that's not widely publicised about her, dunno why because that's important to who she is.
ReplyDeleteAs I said when I met her she was bright, bubbly and full of life, she had a wicked sense of humour too, not at all how I expected her to be.
I think perhaps you were looking for Lilith at the time?
Yeah, was tracing roots and going through religion and history to find Lilith, even though I didn't really know that Lilith was who I was looking for. I just felt a call to search, and search I did in many places starting with Goddesses I knew of.
DeleteNow I'm doing kind a reverse search of dark Goddesses having found Lilith, and tracking down who she is to whom, where and why She is what She is to them.
Like her footsteps through our history, Rafe you have to make a post of your findings, I'm already itching to read it
ReplyDeleteHmm. That's funny. One of my ladies likes to purr. As if she's a cat, lol.
ReplyDeleteHey Rafe GB. Do you have an email?
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