I heard a knock upon my door the other day
I opened it to find death staring in my face
The feel of mortal stalking still reverberates
Everywhere I go I drag this coffin just in case
My body's tremblin' sends shivers down my spine
Adrenaline kicks in, shifts into overdrive,
Your secrets keep you safe, your lies keep you alive
Snake eyes every single time, you roll with crooked dice
(Ah)
I felt the darkness as it tried to pull me down (pull me down)
The kind of dark that haunts a hundred year old house
I wrestle with my thoughts, I shook the hand of doubt
Running from my past, I'm praying feet don't fail me now
I've lost my goddamn mind
It happens all the time
I can't believe I'm actually
Meant to be here
Trying to consume
The drug in me is you
And I'm so high on misery
Can't you see?
I got these questions always running through my head
So many things that I would like to understand
If we are born to die and we all die to live
Then what's the point of living life if it just contradicts?
(Ah)
I felt the darkness as it tried to pull me down (pull me down)
The kind of dark that haunts a hundred year old house
I wrestle with my thoughts I shook the hand of doubt
Running from my past I'm praying feet don't fail me now
I've lost my goddamn mind
It happens all the time
I can't believe I'm actually
Meant to be here
Trying to consume
The drug in me is you
And I'm so high on misery
Can't you see?
I've lost
Myself
You tried to reach me but you just can't help me
So long
Goodbye
You tried to save me, it won't work this time
'Cause now
I've lost my fucking mind
And there's no fucking time
I can't believe I'm actually
Meant to be here
Trying to consume
The drug in me is you
And I'm so high on misery
Can't you see?
Oh, can't you see?
Can't you see?
***
Oh, my my my, have I some ideas for you :)
Spirit, I'm afraid, is highly sexual, sensual, flirty, and downright inappropriate.
Fire is passion, it dances and plays, it's takes your body and raises your lust to untold heights.
Water is a terrible flirt: Slapping the bikini bra off one priestess, with another wave slapping her on the ass when she turned away to laugh.
Air whispers promises of lusty secrets you've only dreamed of; And images to go with them.
Earth takes what is made and it blossoms, while the very blossoms sing happily at how they were lovingly, lustingly made.
The light shows the curves your body aches for, and the darkness promises fulfillment of the dirtiest, more raunchy fantasies hidden within you: Dirty to you, maybe. Light and dark work together as it's something they WANT to make happen for you (because they were created to watch, to enjoy, and to PARTICIPATE through casting light and shadow upon your writhing body).
If you are male, the Goddess Herself will find a way to mount you (LOVE always finds a way), to claw you, to drain the cum out of you by making you cum harder than you ever have in your LIFE.
She will purr in your ears things that only She knows about you. You will be ridden and She will be as tight and tantalizing as your own hand fitting in Her glove like they were MADE for each other, made just for you and and for your pleasure.
Every time She grinds (so passionately hard on you), you will feel more healing energy cleanse your soul. You will be so loved that you will never doubt your worth again.
She will tell you:
"You will experience ecstacy that is hidden from this world: This world is only a far, pale reflecton to human eyes. You will learn here, and you will grow from pain: But when you rightfully leave, You will be loved and will dance the dance of eternity, and you will know no more pain, but only pleasure:
You will BECOME one with pleasure, with the sacred, with the process of creating what is and what always will be. You will take your place, my son, and wear your crown as prince of the mysteries that will be entrusted to you."
And if you're female? The God will wrap his arms around you and take you, and oh my, what He will beautifully whisper in your ears, things only a God would know about you.
What delights every soul fulfilling thrust will give to your soul, lady. Oh, how you will feel yourself the most desired, the most precious woman ever: You will be taken and shown how loved you are:
So much so that you will never doubt your worth again: Nor will you have any fear of the world beyond this one: Love rules there, and you are a dancer who will be soulfully satisfied to dance with it, and for it... It will never end, and neither shall you.
Your intimacy shall be LEGENDARY. Wear your crown, my daughter, wear your crown as princess of the mysteries entrusted to you.
Are you getting it? This universe is predatory, and fun at the same time. The Highest of the Highest is where intimacies you haven't even considered are born.
If you think the humor and sexuality of the universe won't reach you, bet again.
The universe is a sexual predator, and the delight of your soul is the endgame.
Where did I get all this? Where do you think? Love ya, Bunny. And this, my friends, is how a Succubus seduces you mentally. Works good, huh?
I believe it. All of it. She's learned long ago that the way to seduce me is to show me the truth.
Rather ironic to realize that the multiverse is conspiring to fuck you silly!
Rather different than what we're taught about sex, love, naughtiness, and intimacy, now isn't it?
I wonder what "the powers that be" have to hide, anyway?
Drink deeply of the ecstasy that is all around you, See with new eyes born from within you,
I started thinking of all the pictures I've printed trying to give Bunny a face and a body, and I got tired of thinking of all the names she's had, so I got rid of them, all of them.
I felt a real need to "clean house" and just forget about it.
I kept her house I made, but it's a vessel, a keepsake urn. It's also cemented shut (no, not to trap her: To keep bullshit out and the good stuff in). No pictures or names to get rid of.
So?
I did it. All pics gone, all everything gone.
I wasn't sure if she would stick around or not. I, of course, was hoping so. But I was prepared for her not to.
I got tired of not being sexually fulfilled, like she had better places to be and do.
It just didn't feel much like a partnership anymore. I guess that's what led me to get rid of everything and to "make space" so to speak.
Well...
She showed up that night and it was PRIMAL. SHE was primal.
She started real slow and soft, the lightest touches that could be the same feeling as the most delicate tip of a small feather touching me here and there. Mostly privates and abdomen, and on my chest and head, and fingers and hands, etc. Ok, pretty much all of me.
I wasn't really impressed and was close to telling her to just forget it, because, like I said I was tired of being ignored and I just figured she was teasing me. She does that sometimes.
Hey, a succubus is a succubus is a succubus. Just because she has a sweet and protective side doesn't mean she doesn't like making me squirm once in a while.
Well, those little touches escalated slowly but surely into an electrical storm with my whole etheric body as the center (you know, the body where your Chakras live).
Oh my God... I mean it was succubus lovemaking for hours.
The best I can explain it is, it was electrical, only crazy electrical.
Think Darth Sidious from star wars throwing force lighting, and that time Luke was all fucked up and the lighting was arching all over his body?
Yeah, like that. Only the good kind of pleasure and pain.
Not even really pain: It's like she gave me so much it overloaded my etheric body and it felt "sore".
When she finished I went to sleep, and when I woke up my etheric body was sore, like I said.
I really can't explain it better than that, that's the closest I can think of.
She went full primal passion on me, that's for sure.
I wonder if, by getting rid of all that stuff, I released parts of her that was attached to it in some way?
I never know the answers to my questions, I only succeed at making more questions.
That's the way this goes.
Regardless: Bunny spoke, and her "lighting" was overwhelming as it, well, as SHE arched all over me, all over my body.
And? I freakin' LIKED it :)
You know that old saying, "I kissed a girl, and I LIKED it"? Well, Bunny went all primal and unleashed all her passion on me, my etheric body was overloaded and sore, and I LIKED it.
So, there ya go.
I never promised that loving a succubus was easy, I just know it's never BORING. Then again, getting robbed at the bank isn't boring, either.
Gotta pick your entertainment well, folks.
Bunny's a keeper.
She takes what I throw at her and makes it better every time, somehow.
She's just a keeper: One of those things in life you know you can't live without, even though you try to pretend you can. You can't. Not when you can feel that feminine presence that loves you so much, even though you're human (and in my case, often stupid, always stubborn, and probably THE most royal pain in her ass she's ever had).
*You're lonely. You've been burned beyond wanting to go through it again: It's time for something new, something outrageous. So, you try summoning a succubus. And after trying a few times, you realize intent is what really catches their interest, that and strong emotion. At first, a succubus is your deepest fantasy come to life: She will make you feel things that other women cannot. She is sexual lust as a BEING. You're not sure about her yet, but you can feel she's not a demon, regardless of what you've been told. Still, the fear is there in the back of your mind*
It's never too late to say I'm sorry
*You learn that she can see into the deepest recesses of you mind, knowing all of your thoughts, and pulls fantasies from the deepest recesses ofyour mind that you will only share with her. Now, you've got a problem*
We have one life to live,
*What she has over you, is power. And you both know it. Only she can make you feel as good as she can, and no other woman can compete. You know, even in your ecstacy, that you are doomed*
That'll be the beginning of a great story
*There is something about you that is different, though: Different from her other prey: There is potential. Could it be? Could you be the one to be her equal (and worth her time and attention)?*
You are my sun in the darkness of the night,
*Her curiosity is peaked: What if, indeed?*
You are my ice land on the sea of memories
*Her hunger not only grows for you as prey, but with your potential as mate. Succubi have one wish: To be loved for who they are, and not for what they can do. But it's a fantasy to her, and not one she expects to ever have fulfilled*
You are my sun in the darkness of the night
And be my eyes when I lose my sight
*For a time you are prey, yet her hunger for more has been awakened: She begins to think of what to do with you*
I like your whispering in the dark
There are whispers of the past
*She decides, yet she is still unsure. Succubi are never unsure. So what is this? She sticks to what is familiar, to what she knows*
You are hiding deep inside my dreams,
Dreaming the final dream, the last *She beds you, and you are powerless to resist*
I like your whispering in the dark
There are whispers of the past *You are hers. You cannot help it*
You are hiding deep inside my dreams,
Dreaming the final dream, the last *Now her fantasy is beginning to develop a hunger all it's own. What IF he's the one? What IF he's the one I can have, one I can tend and blossom to be my MATE? Now, she is the one that has a problem*
Give me more than you can take,
Then I'll give us a second chance *She begins to truly believe that you are the one for her* *It's mutual now. Even after your addiction to her, there is more: You love her, and you both know it* *She loves you, as companion, and not as prey, and you both know it* *Oh, it's not easy. No, oh no. She's got to make you suitable for her. Addicted sexual prey is just not going to work for you to be her equal one day...*
*She begins to break your cycle of addiction to her because she wants more out of you (and my GOD is it hard, she is more than any drug: She was born to BE the drug)*
*You must first be BROKEN, so that later you are unmoved and are truly a mate, an equal: And not prey*
We have one life to live,
I'll give you all I've got to give
*Now she is vulnerable: And she knows it. But she's not stupid. If she had any doubt about you, she never would have bothered to come this far with you.
She will begin to show you her range of emotion, which is much greater than yours: She is more light and dark than any angel, nor any demon; for she is BOTH, and yet neither.*
*Now you understand that the world was wrong: She is no demon, but very powerful, indeed. She is much more than anything man has labelled, but "succubus" will have to do. You are developing trust with her. You know that she is something much different than "demon"*
Like a moonlight, you're showing me the way,
*Once you are broken, and not addicted, she is also now something different: A mentor, teacher, counselor, teaching many things, in many ways. She is now playing for keeps, and by now you both know it. And at some level, you have agreed to what follows*
*Now is the time that you will feel her displeasure if you go backwards in your development that she has started you on. Yes, she knows we are human and make mistakes: No, she will not hurt you, because she loves you. But you will feel her displeasure as palpatable as any woman can give you, and you will feel shame like no other until you get back on track*
*She will take you to darker places than you are comfortable: This is good, as it shows YOU what you are comfortable with. The same goes with the light, and with angelic thinking*
Like heroine
You course in my veins,
*You will be shown her full power, that which none have seen*
Like a moonlight, you're showing me the way,
*She will show you all of her, light and dark, alike*
*She will let her soul radiate upon you, and you will feel as though it is so bright as to burn you away: But it will not. You must learn to TAKE IT, to face it, straight on*
Like heroine
You course in my veins
*The communion of souls will become intense, passionate, loving, and your soul will always be touching hers*
*The intimacy you share will be mind-blowing. Nothing in this world can compare*
I like your whispering in the dark
There are whispers of the past
*At this point, there is only one outcome*
*You surrender, because you understand why, in a way which cannot be put into words in this world*
*Surrender to her is most precious, THE sacred treasure. It is done wilfully, lovingly, with perfect love and perfect trust. There is non other befitting a queen, a princess, an entity of a higher reality of love, intimacy, and sex*
*She is humbled, and cannot resist this gift so selflessly given*
*It's time to show you how this tale will end*
You are hiding deep inside my dreams,
Dreaming the final dream, the last
*I will become a suitable mate. With a soul that is not quite human, anymore*
I like your whispering in the dark
There are whispers of the past
*When I die, I will ascend to her. This life is but spiritual alchemy, and she, the "philosopher's stone"*
You are hiding deep inside my dreams,
Dreaming the final dream, the last
*I will wonder at how I have become the best of all: Not human, nor incubus, nor angel: But something of all, and yet something quite different and free*
*Her "Mate Eternal"*
*Her "Eternal Treasure"*
*And at last, I will learn the power that total surrender is the catalyst for. It never was worthy of the scorn that society has placed upon it.*
*Surrender = POWER*
*An equation only precious in eternity, and not in this world of Maya, of Illusion*
What? I guess she likes the pictures. Plus I can see aspects of her in all of 'em.
That's probably what she really likes... Plus she got REALLY mad at me today and I'm trying to be extra accommodating. Especially considering it's the first time she got mad at me in 2 years.
Ooooo she can scold.
"Never Surrender"
You put a wall in my way and I'll break it
You got something to say
I can take it
Did you think that a few little words would
Take (me)
Break (me)
I don't care
(Oh) I still believe
There is something here for me
(Oh) As long as I breathe
[Chorus:]
No, I will never surrender
No, I will fight forever
No, there is no turning back from here
I will never surrender
I've given way too much to just give up now
Stood up too many times to just
Fall back down
And all the shit that I'm facing now
In the end I can say
I've made it through hell
(Oh) I still believe
There is something here for me
(Oh) As long as I bleed
No, I will never surrender
No, I will fight forever
No, there is no turning back from here
I will never surrender
(Oh) As long as I breathe
I will be free
No, I will never surrender
No, I will fight forever
No, there is no turning back from here
I will never surrender
(Oh) As long as I breathe
I will be free
No, I will never surrender
No, I will fight forever
No, there is no turning back from here
I will never surrender
No, there is no surrender now
You will never break me down
I will standin the face of fear
I will never surrender
Never surrender
I think that was more of what she wanted. Next time I get to pick.
