Erinah's really made me proud of her. She figured out how to make love to me without me going into depression. I know that sounds so strange, but if you've ever tasted the delights that these ladies can dish out it's really something out of this world and can cause you to waste away if you're not careful.
Regardless... she's making love to me in shorter durations, but in multiple sessions.
For instance she made love to me 3 times in the early morning hours.
I was well pleased... I am well pleased... and I'm so very proud of her.
I don't feel overwhelmed like I did before. Something about making love to a succubus in a rapturous locale for 12 hours was just too much for my bipolar psyche to handle. When you're bipolar and you go straight up, there's only one way to go from there... straight down.
I am so glad that she figured out a solution that works for us...
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Where are the other succubi you ask? They're around. I still feel my hair being played with and that oh so familiar cold touch descending over me throughout the day.
They're around.
But Erinah is the queen and from what I can tell she's the only one making love to me.
As my wife and bride... why not? That's her call. If she keeps me all to herself lovemaking wise I'm fine with that.
What I wanted was a big FAMILY. Other than the massive doses of dark energy I'm happy with just that. And as for the dark energy I can take it.
However... it's my nature to both entertain succubi as much as I eventually lose them so I don't know what will happen with the 7. Just part of the process of learning as I go. At least they are around for now. Did I go too far? Maybe. Time will sort it all out.
'Till next time...
Blessings,
Rafe GB.
EDIT: The girls like to take me to a place that looks like the below some nights. It's not scary or anything, but it is quite unique. I know it looks a bit like the stereotypical hell, but it's not: I think it's the domain of the succubi which is called A'arab Zaraq. Also known as "dark Venus" in the Qlippoth.
What's up with this shit? Lmao, if you believe things to be ideally 'perfect' such as this relationship blog or whatever. You see, nothing is perfect unless ideally which is created entirely by beliefs. I wonder if all you talk about is all a mirage built from vague knowledge and mere beliefs. The given privileges of free will and the ability to think, and consume lessons,etc. The accumulated knowledge we receive from our daily lifes. If you believe yourself to be superior than others is false. This can all be a false reality to secure your comfort. This can be all from your mental status and whether or not if it is stable or not. You post so much about this entity why? What will this entity do for you? You see, I know I am depressed but I believe for this being to be fake. I once wanted one yes, but did one ever come no. Why? Tell me, was it my lack of experience? Was I lacking something they wanted? Or am I not a 'perfect' victin for intercourse? I do not seek intercourse, I seek companionship and conversation. That's all I truly want, and to punish them for lack of intercourse is like slavery. Doesn't matter whether they are human or not, a being that breathes and a probable ability to comprehend and understand human emotions is human. Lilith, and all those succubus don't you think of what they feel? Or do you force them to do things they don't want to by inflicting fear into them. I am wary that I am diffrent, and I may be different from you all. This does not give me the right to title myself as a superior being just because of what I think, believe and know. If these beings are really real, then tell me what they say about this. If not, show one to me. If they say something don't hide and re type what they really said. If you think about it, these beings are superior to us. They can take advantage if able to or given opportunity. If you were this being, would you enjoy being caged and forced to follow orders scared of being punished for desertion to go to something that will allow them freedom. I will not say my pain, is greater than yours as I do not know what you feel or experienced. If you are happy right now, then what about me? Truly, everything is temporary but what I feel feels as if eternity. My loyalty is what I know to be forever. I live in loyalty, loyalty is all to me. If someone would treat me wrong, then I am allowed to decide for myself as at all times whether or not to stay with this person or find someone more of a better match. I see the date you posted this on, let me hear what you or your succubus will say. I want to hear from you both, if I offended you oh well. I have the privilege of speaking my opinions, my beliefs as it is my right said by the bill of rights. All beings should be allowed to decide and be treated fairly no matter where they are from, or what their ethnicity or race. What do you think? What do you say? What do your succubus say?
ReplyDeleteI'd highly recommend an anti psychotic. That's not an attack on you, it's merely an observation. I bet you'd feel a lot better about yourself and others and more able to see all in a clearer light.
ReplyDeleteAn anti psychotic? People say that these beings are better than the same species they are from. I'd read your posts, the comments and such. So, let me asks some questions first. If one were to be in the Islam religion and be a Muslim and pray to Allah, would this being still be able to come to the victim if under Allah's protection? In the Muslim religion, you submit, you confess to Allah right? Can this being still be able to come after being in a spiritual protection with Allah? This goes for other religion's globally. I'm not here to talk about my beliefs or my thoughts btw. I'm here to ask some questions because you seem to be connected well to this 'succubus' being you 'have.' If this is true, then you can answer my simple questions. Do these beings happen to watch us without doing the ritual to lilith for a succubus? Can these beings feel our intents? Can they read our thoughts and desires?
DeleteIt's kind of interesting the question you posed. What does happen when one cries out to God to save them from a succubus? There's an ancient book that addresses that and more called demoniality: succubi and incubi written in the 17th century by a catholic priest named Sinistrari. It's highly worth the read. As for your other questions I don't know if they can read our thoughts but I strongly suspect so, including watching us even if we don't do any rituals to summon them. There's another big question: Why do some succeed in summoning a succubus while others do not? I'm convinced that this question is answered in the light of Divine Providence. God has a path for each of us that He wants us to follow. If that path has no room for a succubus they will not be summoned. Lilith is another enigma of sorts. In the Gnostic faith She is considered redeemed. If one looks at Isaiah 34 She is given a place to rest that no one can take away from Her, given by God. This blog was started as my online diary and to this day I mean it only as such. Regardless, there are many blogs out there that speak about succubi and incubi with opinions that differ from myself and so forth, across the fold. If you notice my latest blog post, you'll see that I plan to take an extended vacation from the blog and have already taken down all the links and trimmings that used to grace the blog. I'm tired. After 6 years it's time for rest.
DeleteGood luck and God bless.
DeleteWell, that has answered most of my questions but I'm sure to have more then I can think of right now. As you are in a vacation, this will give me enough time to prepare more questions to ask you. Some may talk about beliefs, and thoughts and I will make sure not to offend you or make you think I am a person who is mentally ill. I was wondering if I could contact you further, I do not receive notifications. I use a private browser for this type of research, etc. I don't trust my history, as most of us are aware. There is constantly surveillance on what we search, watch, etc. That's why whatever I do, or research on is only on a private browser. I would like to have a deeper conversation of this topic if you do not mind. I hope I have not made you uncomfortable in any way, I come in peace only seeking answers to my questions. Thank you for reading this, I will check back in a few days to hopefully see a response. Of course, I can wait until you are done with your vacation. If you see ot an iinterestor anything then I would think that you would accept this offer. I hope!
ReplyDeleteI have no problems answering questions if it's something I know. If I don't know the answer I'll tell you that as well. I get nothing from this blog so I've got nothing to hide. I prefer to communicate here as I've done the email with people and it's always turned out bad. I just don't want to be writing anymore of the blog right now. I'm just not feeling it anymore. With that said, ask away and lets see what happens :)
DeleteSo, you accept? You would want me to ask my questions on here, okay. Well, first. A question that I have been thinking of for a while. What you said before, that some people who want succubus never get one because of God correct? If I were to still want a relationship with one, but I couldn't get one because of my path by God and my path would maybe be intervened with by having a succubus. I know, this may be unchangeable it could be possible. I think of myself to be complicated and other people I know said so too. I have told people that I am a deep thinker, open minded, introverted thinker, intellectual, intellectual thinker and an analytical thinker. I have told few people of this because I can not explain my thinking just as my emotions into words. There was once this person, named Jahseh Onfroy who had been killed in 2018 I believe. He had similar thinking to me, but I am much younger than him. I wonder, the way I think, what I feel, my approaches to things in life and thing I do and say other people are scared to say or do. You must think that I am glorifying myself but I am not. I am trying to tell you and give you a hint of what I think. Constantly I am always depressed, and alone. I am not alone, I feel alone because I feel as if there is no one like me, similar to me. That makes me feel alone, because I have goals that will help the world and teach them how to cope with these feelings but I want someone to share things that I will receive like money, etc. Nothing can buy happiness, unless you like hookers and that brings you joy. Whatever floats your boat. Different folks, diffrent strokes. I am always feeling alone, it's hard to live in a world that is governed by emotion. There is always people whi judge you based on what far they've seen or heard from you. People judge people based on preconceptions and appearance. I'm looking for someone because, if I am to complete all these goals and make people happy, then I at least want someone to help me. I don't do this for God or religion, I do this because I'm tired of people living in hell, and dying, being murdered, raped, abused and molested. I can't stop this, but I can at least try to tell people they aren't alone with whatever they are feeling and have experienced. I'm tired of people telling me the way out is through death. That is not true. To think that death will end your pain will only lead you to more suffering. I'm not here for politics, I don't like politics. People only tell you lies telling you they'll help people in need only to get your vote and do the exact opposite. I cannot change corruption, gangs, violence, etc. The only thing I can really do is help people live with it. The things I have learned, my knowledge will be shared. Knowledge, wise. It would be useless having knowledge of things people are blinded too or haven't thought of if you aren't going to share it with others. Back to my question. I wonder if I'm not supposed to have anyone and meant to be alone. Lilith, and them. I'd hate to have nothing I really wanted which is love that is loyalty, honesty, commitment. I live myself in loyalty. I am loyal I am sure. I have been disappointed for too long, I know what it's like to be broken hearted and choosen over things such as materials items, and status quote and things. I know what it's like, to be alone. That's all I've ever felt so far. Why is is that people that are ignorant, blinded, etc. People opposite of me are the ones that can get succubus. Why is that people who give up so easily or have no logical thinking, or anything get succubus? Not saying that you are any of these I'm just saying that most ordinary people with ordinary jobs and ordinary goals get these things but me, Jahseh, don't? Is there something? If you have a succubus would she be willing to tell you what she said? Thank you for reading this, hope to see your reply.
DeleteI don't know why. I wish I did. In asking my succubus she says that it matters what Lilith thinks of you or not. What she means by that I'm not sure as I've never really seen what She likes and what She doesn't like. It's not whether you like feminism because she hates it. She loves spiritual people with an open mind. Beyond that I don't know what She likes and dislikes.
DeleteAll I can say is that if one door is closed to you try another. Or, try, try again.
Another thing to mention is that you need a certain level of clairsentience, or supernatural feeling, to even begin to deal with a succubus. I wish i had the other "clairs" as well, it would sure make it a lot easier to communicate and interact with a succubus.
I see then. Lilith must need to approve of me before anything else correct? How would I approach this being called Lilith? Do I have to write a letter, mediate? I'm willing to contact but, what can I expect? Had anyone else contacted Lilith the first time? What were there experiences? What did you experience?
DeleteI contacted her, then nothing. Contacted her again, then nothing. At some point I had a dream that she scooped me up and suckled me to her breast. That was a powerful dream for me.
DeleteThere's a mantra called an "Enn" for calling Lilith. Renich Viasa Avage Lilith Lirache. I used to count it out on a set of prayer beads until I felt her presence. At that point you stop chanting and talk to her. You should hear her voice, sometimes it's in your voice... just depends on how good a connection you've established.
Lilith is wild and free, vengeful and wrathlike, yet motherly and loving. She's quite the mystery. Think of Lilith like a woman taken to extremes. Great power, great wisdom. Most times you connect with one or two of these rather than all of her. Think of it like connecting with a single facet of a diamond that is Lilith. This is the sigil of Lilith that I use: https://www.pinterest.com/pin/832673418578783642/ and for a sacrifice I use one drop of my blood placed upon her sigil. Some people summon Her and feel fear. I summon her and it feels very much like a mother should feel. Good luck.
The end just never comes
ReplyDeleteThe evolution is near
DeleteI understand. I just, I've always felt alone. I'm tired of seeing people alone. People walk past me, maybe they notice I'm alone but don't care. I'm tired of seeing people due because they kill themselves. I'm tired of feeling this way, with the same thoughts that imprison me and kill me. If we live in a world governed by emotion, let's just make sure it's a good one. People walk past me, this world cares to little for what you feel. People have their own worries I get it, but a person who worries about others even if that person doesn't know them, but this person sees them sad and quickly comes to talk to them, comfort them, without having any idea of what this person is feeling or who this person is. It's to late to regret, this world is cruelly moving forward. When people end their lives I say why I can't do it. It's because I'm to pussy to do it. I'm not scared of being alone for the rest of my life, I'm just scared of getting comfortable with the thought of being alone. It's not a phobia, I don't have a phobia. I just want someone to listen to me, someone who would help me kist as I would help them even if I'm depressed constantly. I can't let people be depressed, I don't want people to feel alone because I know what it feels like. I'm tired of feeling this way, people think the escape out of your mind is through death. Maybe, but I couldn't. I couldn't leave people who felt like me alone just because I'm feeling like shit. They probably feel worst than me. I'm just tired of the idea of being alone forever. I can't do anything about it, I'm an outcast. I don't like to he social, people judge you everyday just based on what they've observed so far. I can't give up though, no matter how hard it gets I can't kill myself. Something won't let me, I won't let myself. I just dont want people to feel alone, doesn't matter if I get nothing. I don't expect anything in return, just to hopefully be able to live with being alone. It kills, it does. There is still good people, but those people are being hurt and start to lose hope in finding anyone like them, that's why I mustn't give up, I do every to help the world, to help people and so they have a future to live in. I'm not doing it for religion or anyone, I'm doing it because I feel the same way. I doubt you'll know what to say, I'm sorry rafe
ReplyDeleteSometimes you have to put your attention elsewhere. Lots of us feel the way you do about things, myself included. This world is a school, but it's cruel. Too cruel. Contact Lilith. You never know: You might meet a new friend.
DeleteOkay. Rafe, I had to delete most of my text because it was to long. Could we do this on email? universalintrovertedthinking@gmail.com
DeleteIt doesn't really matter, if we text here or email. I want to talk about Lilith hopefully I don't change the topic. If I haven't said before Rafe, I don't have anyone to talk with about my beliefs, thoughts, theories, etc. What's happening now, especially Anonymous. George Floyd is dead, I've heard about a black woman saying that she understood that they were all angry. She said they needed to stop because they were only setting their people back. People will start to think of the whole black race as barbaric. No one will trust them, people will fear them. They will look at all things they've done peacefully in the past, then think how they evolved into monsters that destroy everything and steal. It's bad enough people don't like black people, and always stay alert around them. They're only making what people think about them right. That they are barbaric and violent. I am not black, nor am I white, I am Hispanic with some Native American blood in me. I do not speak for my race, nor do I speak for any other. I speak so people can see the error in their ways. We won't get into this unless you want to. I started searching more about Lilith recently though I wasn't that much into learning more. I know some things about her but there is much more to learn about this being then what is posted online. I believe books could help me. I have my eye on a few books, especially dictionaries from a white man, and a black man. I'm sorry for talking alot and switching topics alot. I don't have anyone to talk to Rafe, but you do. You have this intelligent being with you. That's what I like. Their intelligence. They may be way intellectual than me. But, there is some things I have thought that they haven't possibly. People doubt themselves and degrade themself saying they are low beings and stupid. That is false, we all know something others don't. We all have tthought something others haven't. That's what makes us all intelligent in a way. That's what really interests me Rafe, succubus. I would be interested in hearing what they have thought, and if they have somethings they live by or they have philosophy then I'd like to hear it to expand my knowledge. I don't care about intercourse, I seek truth and knowledge. And I plan to share it with the world. I have to help people live, I want them to have my knowledge and they could do with it what they will. That's how I'll help people, with my thoughts my philosophy it may help people live longer. I also need to comfort them, I won't give up on that I can assure you. People who feel my pain, and have been raped, molested, etc. They are my people, even though I haven't been raped or molested I have been abused at a very young age. These people who are traumatized, depressed, lonely are my people. Because I am depressed and lonely though I have never been traumatized I don't think. I haven't really been scared really, scared of what? To being abused, no, I can assure you if anyone is sighted with my own eyes getting abused, raped, etc. I'll kill them on sight. I can assure you I'll do everything I can do. I am limited, but I'll try I promise you. I'll wait for you to reply, then well talk about Lilith. I don't have much more space I believe.
DeleteI've got nothing to add to that, really. As for succubi being intelligent: Yes, but they're warped. I've nightmares from them every morning this week, all so I'll decide which succubus I can't take any more nightmares from. That's a succubus. They COULD have treated me sweet and decided that way, but NOOOOOO, that's not what a succubus does.
DeleteHave they read any of what I posted. You see, if you watch anime like Naruto, he can change you. How? His personality, his actions and his words. He's determines to bring his friend back even though that friend tries to kill him and leave him and hurts him. Naruto would blame himself and hate himself for not being able to save Sasuke. The main Antagonists in the anime like Obito, and Nagato were changed. Even when Nagato killed his friends and destroyed his village Naruto fought him and saw that Nagato also known as Pain was only doing what he believed right and believed that whenever his friend Yahiko told him he could create peace, and after Yahiko was killed. Nagato really killed many people, believing that he could make peace by showing people his pain. He wanted to strike fear into those that waged wars, he wanted to destroy Naruto's village becausea Leaf Ninja well they accidentally killed his family in front of him. After they fought, Naruto said that he knew his pain and that he would also fight for peace and he assured peace to all the nations. Nagato saw Yahiko, his best friend in Naruto because they both were determined and wanted to create peace. The same with Obito, after being manipulated to believe that his teammate Kakashi killed his crush Rin he went on a rampage killing those that were trying to capture Rin for her I think abilties. My point is, possibly if they were to read this, if they were to know my pain, my feelings, my goals. They would change because I would make them, force then to understand and know my pain.
DeleteLook, I believe I can change people. I won't give up. The way I am is spiritually gifted. I'm not glorifying myself, I'm only telling you what I have learned and thought long and hard. I won't give up on my goals, if I did that would make me just like everyone else in society. Fuck it, I'll be an outcast, an introvert I don't care. I won't let anyone hold me from helping people. If I contact lilith I'll show her my pain. If I get a succubus, I'll make her understand my pain. They'll know true pain that kills us Rafe. You may think I'm mental, I assure you I am not. I only sound mental being it's things normal people don't say. And unormal to people is 'crazy' I may seem unnatural because I'm trying to do things or say things people are to scared to do or say whatever. Look, I seem abnormal and unnatural because of the way I am, think, act and want to do. I don't like doing things normally, I do things because I know if I do something unnatural that a human being doesn't normally do the I'll be inspiring or looked up on as someone who does things most humans are scared of doing. People will ask questions like what are you? That's what I want, that's when I'll know my actions were unnatural to the things humans approach things. I don't like to he looked on as another fucking human being that gives up. I won't give up because I know this pain all to well. It's too hard to explain, look at an anime. They do things most humans don't because they are fantasy and don't care. That's similar to me, that's why I say people think it's unnatural because it doesn't follow what people are used to seeing. They aren't used to seeing actions that are unpredictable right? Its hard to explain. Rafe, I hope you are okay. I don't care if a succubus kills me or lilith does. I'll carry the burden for you Rafe, I'll carry your hatred and your suffering. Doesn't matter what you think of me as, I don't know you, but I want to help you. It's unnatural and most people won't do it because they have to much to deal with. That may be true, but I'll deal with it all. And live with the pain. Ate you okay Rafe?
DeleteStruggling with the nightmares but otherwise I'm just getting through it. Succubi are alien in thought and deed. People like to think they are pets, but they aren't. They're strong willed, devious, powerful, and yes loving if they ever get to that part with someone.
DeleteAll this I'm going through is telling me that I need that vacation NOW and BADLY. I'd give a lot if I could just step out of being involved with succubi for a while...