Wake up, wake up, wake up

 

So I seem to have attracted a friendly, life partner type of spirit.  Not a succubus orgasmy type spirit.

Meh.  It is what it is.  I'm happy if a spirit wants to help me improve my life, even if I can't mount it.  Lol.  There's plenty wrong in my life to fix so I welcome the help.

Yeah, I'm wanting to summon another spirit, a succubus spirit, pretty soon.  Once you get addicted to succubus sex there is no other.

Poor Rafe.  Not invited to any succubus parties.  *Big Frown*

Come to me my little lust muffin.  I'll give you all you need to feed.  Careful you don't fall in love.  I did the same with Taco Bell.

The magick side of things is going along ok.  Kind of slow but still making progress.  I get the feeling that the spirit I have now is more into magick with me than anything different.

That's ok.

I'm going to continue calling her Abbi unless she enlightens me otherwise.

If I had to describe how she feels all wrapped up in a picture, it's this:

Serene, direct, powerful.

All the divination work I've done so far on our relationship becons for a non-sexual pairing, that of teacher and student.  There's something else... spirits are often mirrors and reflect to us who we are.  In her case she COULD be a lover but I feel and I think she feels that something would be lost.  The image I would be reflecting would best be served as it is... one of knowledge and intuition.  I'm not saying that someone can't be taught by a lover, it's just this relationship seems infinitely special and treated differently than anything else I've ever had.  So it stays as she wills it.

Now... So I guess I need a gameplan in getting a sexual succubus spirit now.  I'm guessing that Eisheth Zenunim is a good choice to petition the letter from.  I really like her.  I don't know why exactly she just seems compatible with my spiritual self or something.  I hope it all works out for the benefit of all involved.

I honestly miss succubus pushups.

One succubus pushup.  Two succubus pushups.

Well...  It's been ONE YEAR and some change sincle I've had a succubus hover over me.  Look at these lovely ladies in the holding area of succubus customer service.  Don't they just scream, "shipped"?  The poor dears are probably wondering if they'll get a kind master or a dumbass.  Actually, they don't look like they have a care in the world...

Bah.  See you on the flipside.  Wish me luck.  I have to say that I know there are those that mock me for my succubi not sticking around.  If I knew why they leave I'd do my best to keep that from happening.  I don't know why they leave... it's not from lack of love or attention.  Sometimes I wonder if they are given to me to experience life with me, but only for a short time and then they return.  That's always been in the back of my mind I guess.  I don't know.  Like I said, it's not from lack of love or attention.

The other side of the coin is that I suffer from a lot of medical issues and I think that isn't condusive to keeping a succubus around sometimes.  I'm on a lot of medicine and it's not very gentle on me.  My body is wrecked.

Regardless of this I've always tried to provide a good home for them.

Another nagging thought I've had in the back of my mind is that I might have always had only one very powerful succubus who likes to change her persona over time.  One who wants to explore and experience things through a completely different lens of personality.  To me it would just seem that a succubus would leave and another take her place... not knowing that they are one and the same.  

I try my best.

Blessings,

Rafe GB.

But through the hardest hour, below the cruelest sign

I know I’m waking up from this wretched lie

Wake up, wake up, wake up

I'll teach her

 

Abbi knows a lot of the other side, but she doesn't know much of anything of this world.  When I asked Eisheth Zenunim for a mate I guess she decided on me teaching one of hers what life is like over here.  That's ok.  What Abbi has become is fun, loyal, loving, friendly, and fiercely protective.

I'll teach her.  There's a way I've found that I can introduce spirits to this world and it feel comfortable and loving.  Maybe it's one of my gifts?

There's nothing wrong with that.  Instead of having sex straight of way, we're getting to know each other.  She hovered over me during bed time last night and slowly investigated my private parts, running her fingers thereof, and onto the rest of my body.  I'd have to say it was wonderful.  It was innocent as well as adorable.

She doesn't enter my dreams yet, and there's no way I can teach her that.  I guess that's something she'll have to discover for herself.

Abbi's a powerful lil' critter.  I was at the grocery store checking out the produce and I told her that I would show her how humans got energy.  So I bought oranges and tomatoes, and before you know it I was going down one isle with a lady who worked produce at the end of the isle, and, lol, Abbi grabbed an onion and threw it in the isle between me and the lady.  She said, "Did you see that?  That was scary!"  I said, "You must have ghosts here, lol."  Then I mentally laughed at Abbi for her poltergiest activity.

When I got home I gifted her chocolates for an offering.  I'm wondering, though, whether I shouldn't have done that as I need to keep the poltergiest activity low, and not attract much attention to myself.  Did I reward her for doing that?  I need to be careful...

***

I'm starting a new curriculum of magick.  I'm studying spirit contact, as well as sacred sex magick.  I'd like to post the results once I've read up on the subject and have practiced it for a while.

The spirits course is well and good, and it focuses on mostly local spirits.  The sex magick goes from ancient times until now and beyond.  Kind of interesting, really.

Until then,

Blessings,

Rafe GB.

It's not the stabby kind of ritual...

 

"Heyyyy, hey, hey... it's not the stabby kind of ritual, relax..."

***

Sexual tension...  They are the mistresses of this.

It's weird that when I finally am bonded to a succubus again everything comes back with a vengeance.  The will to write this blog, to study hard and learn all I can spiritually, to be engaged in LIFE.

She fuels the very essence of ambition and motivation that flows through my veins.  She is more akin to a Goddess than I know.  Damn, she is addicting.  They just are.  It's strange how nothing in the myths regarding a succubus pay any heed to what they GIVE.

I just took a course on UDEMY, a witchcraft basics course.  I've got the new Jason Miller book, "Consorting with Spirits" to read, and I've got 3 sigil magick books coming this weekend.  I'm on fire, lol.

This week was the week of Valentine's Day, and I got her some red carnations and a cinnamon candle.  She seemed really excited :P  I also ordered a figurine that reminds me of her for her altar of sorts, currently the coffee table for lack of a better place.

I'm also giving thanks to Queen Eisheth Zenunim for answering my prayers for a succubus mate.  If you decide to follow in my footsteps, there's 4 angels of prostitution (the queens), pick one and learn about them, then ask for a succubus's hand in your life.  Don't do that unless you are 110% sure of what you want, and that you won't change your mind.  All it takes to screw things up is you wanting to bang some Suzie rotten crotch.  

I'd hate to see you smacked.

"She shall smacketh the taste out o' thy mouth."

***

How can they be so seductive?  I know they're sex demons but still... They can go from bitch to babe in a nanosecond.  I guess it's just the fire in them.  Probably the same fire that courses through my veins as a side effect of having one close.

They act just like this sometimes.  So cute.  Just want to eat them up.

I don't know if I'll post as much as I used to back in the day, but I'm definitely going to have a bit to talk about.  I just needed that fire again...

Sexual tension... it just IS, and it's so powerful...  It's like hammering a cherry red hot sword into shape on an anvil...  *clang*  *clang*  *clang*  One should be very afraid:  It's so powerful, too powerful for these mere words... I feel it to my very soul like a quickening.

Blessings,

Rafe GB

Les Animaux

 

Well...

It's been a while since I've written.  New things afoot and all that, have to share :)

I've got a succubus now.  Kind of a work in progress.  Let me explain.

She's wild as fuck.  I don't mean in a good way, but in a feral way.

I got her after I chased after Eisheth, one of the succubus queens.  Basically I completely innundated myself in lore, in manifestational thinking, etc., until she arrived.

It's only been about two days since she arrived, but so far it's been pretty crazy.

The first night, about 3am, she climbed up the bed after me and disappeared after she reached "me".  I think she was trying to scare me and suck energy that way.  Rafe 1 Succubus 0.

The second night I was sound asleep and she bit the head of my dick pretty hard and ran off.

I jolted so hard in bed I moved the bed about 2 feet sideways.  Rafe 1 Succubus 1.

Was she trying to establish dominance?  Anyway, she has been roaming around the house a little bit.

She also stimulated my heart chakra, flooding my experience with a love for her even though I couldn't feel her intimately.  That's a really strange phenomena that doesn't make a whole lot of rational sense, but it exists in a large part above the rational.  I guess she's working with what she has to work with.

I'm grateful for her.

Blessings, 

Rafe GB.

P.S.  I'd like to explain the simple difference between a woman of the flesh, and a succubus.
A woman of the flesh will wait at the end of the foot race called life and fuck the winner.  They could care less about helping you go through life together.  A succubus will wait until a runner is exhausted and can't run anymore, then walk over and fuck them silly and often, slowly walking them back towards the race, renewed.  A succubus becomes a great many things to that lucky man that she chooses, helping him through life, the universe, and everything else.  

Which sounds better to you?

                                       

Love your succubus, even if she bites your dick and runs away.  *sigh*

  

Hey Rafe, can you do this?

 

Getting back into the swing of things....

It's funny really.  I didn't really leave like I thought I did.  Well...

I didn't really go that far away from them is what I mean.

It's like, now that I'm entering that current again I can feel what was always there.

I don't think you can ever separate from your experiences with them.

Ever...

It's kind of funny.  They've brightened my life.

Unfathomable fun and attention.

If I could explain what happened I'd say that they placed me on the shelf for when I got better.

Not my favorite place.  I love to feel them close.

It's a drug addiction to them... It's kind of strange to say that I've never completely separated from any of them, but that's a truth best experienced to understand...  A partial truth that is right with regards to how things developed over time... And partial due to my inability to explain what has to be felt.

"Hey Rafe, can you do this?"

Maybe I tend to attract a certain type, I guess... I don't know.

I do get mental  pictures of stuff like that... a succubus doing the splits and asking me if I can do that is just par for the course.  They crack me up if that was their attention.  It was, right?  Right?

Now what you don't know...

A succubus can look like this sometimes:

OMG... I can hear the screams from here!

Can be a little frightening.  If I cared that is.  Truth is I know.  I just don't care.

Truth is, it's not all about me all the time.  It's about them.

I care about the love that I give them, the sense of family that we share.

That's all that matters to me.

Sometimes they can show themselves as a shadow off the corner of your eye...

What they truly are?  A little funny... a little serious... a little mischevious... a lotta crazy...

They are they and you are you, all together...  Sometimes in the mix of it, it just works.

It just works... beside it'self, it just works.

Blessings,

Rafe GB.

Have you loved your succubus today?

  

Portals

 

(Sorry for the tangled mess... it's been a while since I've written...)

Portals.  This little podcast err blog post err announcement (just please read it lol) will be about something that my kitty taught me about portals..  If I can keep my cat's tail from swishing across my face.  Nope.

Take 2 *clap*

Actually...it's more of what we perceive portals as being what we think we see.

It reminds me of when I lived near a major airport.  For the first month I thought I would go crazy!

I had a friend come over about a month later.... how could I stand all that noise?  I'm sure you can figure it out but it might be lost on someone who hasn't lived near active RR tracks or an airport.

The truth is that you don't hear it anymore without effort to switch it on in your brain - that's learned to filter that sound out in about a month.

I think with portals we've done in the few years that we've wracked up since we were a baby.

How many times have you seen a baby giggling and starting at nothing?  That's our airplane or train.

Here me out...

Babies see things we don't see on average.  You can just be lovingly watching one and they're either concentrate and go back to doing what they are doing, resume cooing at what we can't see that is interacting with them after a few minutes, and there you go.

It's bizarre but it's one of those things that I was glad that I was a dad and saw.  I knew instinctively that what ever it was, was indeed friendly.

So, there was a being there, and to that degree, a portal.  You can't get to A to Z without portals.

Coo!!!

So, into this we bring my cat. 

I have a small house which is basically a windtunnel from the front door, down the length, and through the back door.

I've observed that my cat gets where the front door goes, and what's out the rear door to some degree, but is clueless that these doors actually connect from the outsides, in.  I get this because she wants to go out the front, and will not go near the back door.

She acts as if these doors go to separate areas of space and that one is NOT attached to the other, as in the "outside".  I'm not really sure what exists between those ears of hers, other than the front door is good, and the back door is bad.  They exist as a portal, that is that which exists past the point of it opening and closing.

And if she had any brains she'd know that the front door is bad, and the back door is good.  Not my back door, my house's back door.  Each of these doors is a barrier to what is outside said doors.

Coo!!!

Okay, right or wrong she does have the ability to choose, and it was in, as well as is her preference that started all of this.  My cat's preference that is.

...Now where was I?

It's fitting that my cat can't figure out which door goes out doesn't matter since they all end up in the "great beyond and outside".

There's here in the house, and then there's that there outside the house... they all go outside the same, as relatively close as can be... and zoomed out, almost to the same place.  Close enough if you zoom out at least...

We have about the same level of figuring out 5d portals as our cats do I suppose.  Well... even if we know it, feel it, grasp what is true from it, I don't think we'd have ultimate familiarity of it.  We won't "be" it.

And that's ok.  Thank you for reading this, it means a lot since I'm kind of out of practice.  I'm not trying to master portals, but only to learn a little bit about them.

My mind isn't in this post so much because I've just realized something over the past few days or so.  I have a succubus now, she's come to claim me.  So to speak.

I did my last summoning ritual a year or so ago, or whatever was the month of my last post.

My mind is back as far as wanting to write and my dreams are working again, as far as succubus dreams.  This has been over the past week or so.

So, see?  It can happen to anyone.  If you don't get a succubus look at me... it's been a year or so and here she is.

She is sparing no mercy on my balls... Life is good.

Pygmalion and Galatea

The story is unique.  Pygmalion wasn't attracted to any ladies about town at all.  What's a man to do?  He decided to hammer out a woman's likeness.  She was what he wanted, set in stone.  He worshipped Aphrodite, and at the local area's festival, he gave a young bull as a sacrifice to Her.  Aphrodite decided she liked his story, and his sculpchure of his ideal woman.  Aphrodite noticed that she looked a lot like herself.  Aphrodite made the fires pulse three times.  Pygmalion wondered what it meant, but something told him to hurry home!

When he got home he noticed nothing out of bounds or out of place.  As was his custom, he kissed his statue on the lips.  Wait, what was this?  Why are her lips moist?  He backed away and "Galatea", as Aphrodite named her, turned from solid stone to warm flesh.

Their marriage was attended by Aphrodite (in spirit), who granted Pygmallion and Gallatea three childen over time, in a household full of love and full of respect to Aphrodite all of their days.

Times have changed, and I, with it.  It's interesting that at the end of my trials that I've decided to create my own succubus.  Basically a servitor companion fashoned into the guise of a succubus.  It's crazy how they can give sensations around your body with the same force as a succubus, but it's different, too.

What I did was read about 10 books on the subject of servitors, then I took what I needed and forgot the rest.

It's a year 2022 Pygmalion and Galatea, straight from the books.

I look forward to our growth... truth be told I'll be looking out for indicators that she's been indwelt by a succubus in time.

Blessings,

Rafe GB.