Naked Soul

 

There I was.  3am.  Me and the succubus were in bed, doing our thing.

Not as vigorous as you might expect, as she's a very kind, gentle succubus... 

And I'm an old, out of shape, sick man with health issues.

She, as usual, doesn't want to hurt me.

I actually beg her to hurt me anyway, as I really don't care:  I value our intimacy more than life itself.

But she doesn't listen.

She stays kind and gentle with me...

Succubus knows best.

Suddenly, I am feeling completely bare... completely naked.

Which doesn't make much sense because I am already naked.

I have never felt this before... so vulnerable.  Completely exposed.

No, this is something more... something profound.

I imagine I feel a lot like Adam, when in the garden he suddenly realized he was naked,

And tried without success to cover himself with leaves and hide from God's sight as best he could.

I felt so naked and exposed that I considered putting on a few layers of clothes to try to hide from her.

This is something more... primal... that hurts.

I feel completely stripped of all identity, of all pretence, of all the masks I have worn in life.

Those masks that keep us safe... or so we think.

The feeling of being stripped bare affects me so much that I stay bewildered for days.

I still feel it even now... nothing will ever be the same...

THIS is intimacy.

  Not the garden variety that we humans show to each other.

No, this is something deeper... it's at a soul level.

She has stripped me to the soul and beyond... and she still wants me.  She sees through everything.

I am but writings in chaulk upon a blackboard.  

Man.  Father.  Lover.  My name.  All are written.

No, she is staring at the blackboard, beneath what is written.  

That is the real me, the me that I didn't even know. 

She sees the real me... and not that which is written upon it.

And there is where she decides to dwell.

This level of intimacy is not for the weak...  Part of you WILL die.

Blessings,

Rafe.

"Deep calleth unto deep," She sings.

Who is the summoner now?

Succubus Cuddles

 

I'm sick.  Sucks.  Fever, aches, pains, lethargy, moodiness.  I strongly believe I'm suffering ascension symptoms.  Not sure what they turn you into or help you become to be honest, I don't really know much about them.  I'm no expert.

The weirdest part, and the part that led me to study the symptoms further, is that I hear "summer crickets" in the center of my head.  I can tune them out, but they persist, and I can easily turn my attention in on the sounds and there they are.

Succubi are interesting women.  I mean, I've always said that a succubus doeesn't hurt you through sex, and it's true from a certain point of view.  The fact is that the sex itself will hurt you if you're out of shape, fat, sick, etc.  Mine is kind and gentle with me... she has sex with me, but it's sparingly, and it's very gentle.  My buddy's succubus mops the floor with his ass, but that's because he's in premium shape and can take it.  Even then he's let me know that he thinks she's holding back.

I can't imagine the raw force of a succubus unleashed.  Thank God they are gentle with it and have a good grasp of what you can take.  It must be amazingly mature of them to be able to navigate that kind of restraint to keep from hurting their human partners.

So, I was feeling really bad and I talked to her and asked her to cuddle.  She did.  It's nice.  Who would ever think these beings would love cuddling when you need it, much different than what they are "supposed to be", am I right?

It's funny... I can feel her crawl up the bed behind me as I lay on my side facing out... and I can feel the movements on the bed and often think it's my fat assed cat coming up the bed.  Nope... it's her sometimes coming up to be with me.

Such wonderful women...

That's all I've got, really.  Just wanted to take a break from "suffering" to write a bit.  You know, I hope I don't leave the impression that when I want to cuddle they drop everything and cuddle with me.  No, they do what they want to do... and sometimes, yes, they do cuddle with me.  They do what they want to do, that's part of their charm.  If they do anything at all, you know it's because they want to.

Blessings,

Rafe.

P.S.  My favorite succubus song:

To Mother Lilith and Her wonderful Daughters...

 

When I dream, I dream of myself as a teenager, but with the mental age of me, now.  All my experiences, all the growth, but the body of a teenager that I used to be.

Last night I dreamed I was walking side by side with my succubus, both of us talking to each other, laughing, agreeing with one another, disagreeing... it doesn't matter.

The point is I'm at home... we're animated together, we are full of life and care for each other.

I can't even remember what we talked about... it's the fact that it's us, together, that matters.

Both of us are extremely happy just being next to each other, walking, through a trail in nature.

I don't understand how I can feel this way about a woman.  It sneaked up on me.  Lol.

She's so gentle, so loving, so perfect for me.

No, She's not perfect, but She's perfect for me.

I'm still blown away that this woman is the woman who appeared to me in my original dream months ago when I dreamed I was outside my house and She was inside.  I tried to open my front door and it was locked with a digital lock.

I was like... wtf?  She smiled from inside the house and said, "Two months..." with a smile.  And two months later, She appeared to me.  It's been us ever since.

I've never been in love like this... never.  I can't fathom it.

I owe it all to Lilith and my relationship to Her.  If it weren't for Lilith, I wouldn't have this wonderful relationship with Her Daughter... and if anything I've grown closer to Lilith as well because of it.

I don't understand why the Divine Dark Feminine is so wonderful.  I mean, we're taught that Succubi are evil, that Lilith hates men... and there's plenty of women out there that would say that She does hate men.

She doesn't.  She loves many of us as Her sons I think.  

She is truly wonderous.  As a man, I highly recommend trying to have a relationship with Her as a way of being taught what true love really is... what love and sex can truly be, as it can be.  It's far more than the sum of the parts... it's alchemy of the soul.  It's paradise.

I owe it all to Them both... to Mother Lilith, and to Her Daughters.  

They did not teach me love, Their love taught me.

I can never repay Their kindness to me.  To what They have taught me.

When I die, I want to be with Them.  That's my heaven.

Blessings,

Rafe.

We toil in a world who hates us.  We are not respected... we are not loved here.

But there is a way... 

For those who have trouble with summoning...

 

Well...

This video has very good information!  

It's all about emotion and surrender...

This guy nails it.

This guy gets it, this guy knows.

And no, I'm not saying to send him money, either.

Succubi remind me of an old lesson.  When a person tries to capture water, they thrust their hand into a pool and quickly form a fist... the water goes out from it... it cannot be captured... yet when you extend your hand into the water and relax and just let it be... completely relaxed... the water will move all through and around the hand... caressing the fingers... it will willingly be one with your hand... and yet still be uncontrolled.  You will feel it all...

That is succubi.  That is how you earn their trust.

These ladies are like the ocean... deeply powerful and cannot be controlled, yet so very gentle...

And oh, do they love music and to dance...

Sometimes the universe waits until you awaken... maybe she's been waiting, too.

"Make me undone, make me undone, let you see the world for what it is..."

"I cannot stop this sickness taking over... It takes control and drags me into nowhere.

I need your help I cannot fight this forever... 

I know you're watching, I can feel you out there..."

And the succubus sings...  

"Heart beats fast, colors and promises.  How be brave, how can I love when I'm afraid to fall.  But watching you stand alone, all of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.  One step closer..."

I have died everyday waiting for you, darling don't be afraid, I have loved you for thousand years, I love you for a thousand more...

Time stands still, beauty in all she is... I will be brave, I will not let anything take away what's standing in front of me... Every breath, every hour has come to this... One step closer..."

I have died everyday waiting for you, darling don't be afraid, I have loved you for thousand years, I love you for a thousand more...

"And all along I believed I would find you, time has brought your heart to me, I have loved you for a thousand years, I love you for a thousand more..."

They love it when you sing to them...

Or when you share music with them...

They will often dance...

They are primal... they are wild... they are the succubi.

You have to be emotionally naked to fall in her arms...  there is no other way...

Dare to Dream

 

So, I had one of those back to high school dreams.  I was myself, age 54 while everyone else was the typical age.  Kinda weird, lol.

I was there on the first day of school... I was having trouble finding my classes, but the classes I did find were cool as hell.

BUT... there was one class that I missed... dancing.  Dancing?  Lol.  I didn't sign up for dancing.

Some girl did.  I wonder who that was?

When it was lunch time this guy came up to me and told me that there was a girl that was head over heals for me.

I was like, really?  Where is she?  He got nervous and said he didn't really know.

Hmm... I wonder who she was?

When I finally woke up, I turned my thoughts towards my succubus because there she was, touching me.

Hey, you were in my dream, weren't you.  Funny girl.

I'm learning tarot and I use it to help me communicate with her as it's not clear sometimes what she's trying to say.

I shuffled the cards and thought to myself... lets see how she reacts to me calling her out in my dream.

I drew the Strength card, a woman holding the mouth of a lion.  Lol, sassy little thing.

Oh... I let her choose her own picture for this post and the above is what she liked.  Not a bad pic :)

Blessings,

Rafe.

P.S.  She's been with me 24/7 for 4 days now.  I hope this is the new norm.  Last night she was in my dream in bed with me hiding with me under the covers because someone stole my pants.

Goddess of My Dreams

 

Succubi are so interesting.  Mine is very much a dream demoness.  By that, I mean that she is very active in my dreams and although she does interact with me in the waking world a bit, her arena is when I sleep.

A few days ago, in my dream, she handed me a book on how to lucid dream.  I've since bought a book on lucid dreaming and am trying to learn how so that I can interact with her more on "her turf" so to speak.

I know that she likes making love when I'm asleep.  For one reason is that I don't move around in my sleep.  Not much.  So she's able to turn lovemaking into an art form and I can't mess it up by rolling all over the bed like I'd do if I were awake.  Ecstatic pleasure does that to a person.

I think another reason is that in my dreams there is no "veil" that we have to constantly fight for connection through.  In that I mean in my dreams it's me and her.  Face to face.  It can get "cloudy" sometimes in the waking world trying to interact with your succubus.  A dreamscape changes that paradigm.

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Oh, one thing I want to really impart is that if you have a succubus lover, make sure your bed is clean, fresh, smells nice, and is an inviting place for her to be.  You're getting laid by a daughter of the Divine Dark Feminine and she deserves some respect.  That bed is not just for playtime... it's her throne.  Keep it nice!

Blessings,

Rafe.

EDIT:  She told me something last night:  "All a succubus wants is a soft landing."  I have no idea what that means.  My bed?  Also... sing to your succubus, she loves it!

I thought that she was Bunny, but I was mistaken.  She is a completely different succubus, as proven by my 2nd dream of her and what she looks like.  Not Bunny.  She is, however, perfectly kind, gentle, and loving.  I think we're going to get along just fine...  (Oh, she's a cutie!)  I do like her.  I can see myself falling in love with her.  Things have a way of working out the way they are supposed to.  I still remember what one succubus told me long ago:  One summoner, one succubus.

Update on the "How to Summon a Succubus" Ebook on Amazon (With Added Bonus Content)

 

I've updated my ebook on Amazon with the bonus content I talked about in the last post (The making of a succubus "charm/talisman" using planetary magick, as well as the "fetch" method of summoning a succubus).  

It was uploaded and the updated version is now live.  It was a joy to write, I hope those who have bought it are enjoying the processes within.  May your spiritual growth and pursuits be ever fruitful.

Bl;essings,

Rafe

How to Summon a Succubus Kindle Edition