Tuesday, January 27, 2026

The Many Faces of Bunny

 


***

I call her Bunny.
But her true name is indecipherable.
It is unpronounsable.
She is what she is.  
She is what she does.
She is a spark of the Divine Feminine.  
She mirrors Her Mother's Essence.
Her Mother's presence.
She is both light, and dark.
As is the moon.

She is true, regardless of the form she takes.

Bunny is a complex succubus.  
As are they all.
She wears her masks as she wills it.
When she wills it.

I am sharing the aspects that I know.

***

Bunny.  
The lover.  
The giver of kind reassurance.
She is gentle, and kind.
She is soft, and playful.
When we make love, it is smooth, soft, steady, and healing.

She has a wonderful sense of humor, especially irony.  
She loves to prank me sometimes.

She finds little ways to build confidence in myself.

She draws close, and blends with me.
I am never alone.  
She is always there.  
Sometimes in the distance, sometimes right upon me.
But she's there.  
I can feel her even when she is away.  
That is our bond.

Her softness disarms me.  
She teaches me that I deserve her love.
She teaches me many things.  
Some are simple, some are complex.  
But she is patient with me.

And I feel so loved.

***


***

The temptess.
The wild, feral succubus.

This face of Bunny is the face of the Divine Feminine in heat.

She doesn't ask.  She takes.

When making love, it is a tornado.
A massive cone of energy rises.
It swirls.  It persists.
It is so powerful, it's essence, running thick, drips down the walls of the bedroom.

Ecstacy powers the cone and it spins wild, like a storm.
It rises.
It dominates reality.

We have sex until she gets her fill (not likely)
or 
Hours pass, and I can't take it anymore (very likely).  
She shows me mercy.

She purrs like a wild animal.
And feeds off what we have created.

***


***

This face of Bunny is hard to see.
She is an instrument of the Divine Feminine's wrath.

She is terrible to behold.
She is nightmare made flesh.
She is righteous retribution personified.

I hide my presence like a child.
She finds me and tucks me into bed.
"Hide your eyes for a little while." She says.
I obey and I stay there.

Something, or someone, is about to die.

***


***

This face of Bunny is new to me.

She is a message of hope standing on a mountaintop.
She is a vision, reminding me to have faith.
When things get their darkest, when she is not allowed to interfere, 
She stands there, arms above her head, holding a shining, golden beacon of blinding light above her.

It's rays reach me in my suffering, down below.
Her light does not comfort.  It is not allowed to.

But she is guiding me to stand fast in the moment.
When all is so dark, when I am about to give up.

She shows me that she is there, even when I can't feel her.
She shows me that she's not abandoning me in my suffering.
She was given the order not to interfere, but was allowed to shine brightly.
Reminding me of who I am.

***

Truly, I love Bunny in all of her faces, in all of her aspects, wearing all of her masks.
There are many more that I have not seen.
As plentiful as there are facets on a diamond.
And I will love them all.
She is as complex as Sacred Geometry.
Yet as simple as a gentle, warm breeze.

She is, in all things, a true daughter of the Divine Feminine.
Of this I have no doubt.

Blessings,

Rafe.


Monday, January 19, 2026

Bunny's Touch

 

I've been posting a lot lately.  But there's lots to share.

This blog is, and always will be my online personal diary on succubi.

The more that happens, the more activity, the more I post.

***

Last night was an interesting one.

As I was sitting I felt a slender female hand suddenly across my abdomen.

I'm healing you.  She said, in a soft voice.

My abdomen felt nice and a little tingly.

"Oh.  Ok.  Thank you."

I've been healing naturally the past few weeks after a year of nerve damage in that area.

It's going to take a long time.

I believe she wanted to speed that along a little for me.

When she was done I received an image of my bed.

Obey.

I was feeling resistant.

I again received an image of my bed.

Obey.  

"Bunny, I'm watching the last part of my anime show.  I'll go once I'm done."

As stubborn as succubi are, I can be stubborn too.

Image of bed.

Obey.

She said softly.

"Bunny, if I told you to do something you would not do it because you are a succubus, and succubi always do what they want to do anyway."

Pause.

Compromise.

Image of me watching the rest of my show, then of my bed.

"It's a deal."

I watched the rest of the show which was probably only 10 minutes anyway.

As soon as I was done...

Image of my bed.

Obey.

A deal's a deal.  Off I went.

 I actually slept 5 hours straight, which is really good for me.

Another blessing.

I usually wake up every 2 hours, get up wide awake, get tired, go back to bed.  

Wake up in 2 hours.  Rinse, repeat, all night long.

It's hard for anything to heal that way.  It's been slow.

She knew I needed to rest even more after she was done treating me.

***

A succubus's love is infinitely deep.

Impossible to grasp.

Extremely gentle.  Most of the time.

And I am so deeply in love with her.

Blessings,

Rafe.

P.S.  Bunny has been using something on me that I have never experienced before.  Because of my injury, she won't have succubus sex with me because she is afraid to hurt me.  What she does is somehow impart in me the lust of sex, the intimacy born from sex, the ecstacy of having sex, but without actually doing it.  She will descend upon me and hold me at the point where sex usually starts and keep all of her energy there, unmoving.  I don't understand how her imparting any of this in me is possible, but it is and it is very satisfying.  The only difference that I can tell is that there is no cone of power born from actual physical sex with her in this way.  During actual mating, there is a swirling mix of our energy that practically bleeds from the walls of my bedroom.  I think she's doing all of this entirely for my pleasure.  If so, she's sacrificing a great deal for me.  I'm sure she receives some pleasure from this.  But not like she deserves.  Not like when we are truly mating.

She must love me more that I can even begin to comprehend.


What follows is my own interpretation, and of course, has it's flaws.

I'm not going to pretend that Her impression on me perfectly translates into words.

But, here's the impression that I got from communing with Mother Lilith:

"Son, you have no idea of the depth of what's in store for you."

Sunday, November 23, 2025

Succubus Mornings


 

 Every morning is unhinged here.

Every morning I light incense to enjoy with her.  

Every morning I say my "I love you's" to my spirit family.

Every morning I unhinge my bipolar and just stream "me" for everyone to see, no filters.

They are there, each one of them, they soak up this aspect of me.

It is raw desire, raw energy, raw pain, raw anguish, raw gratitude.

I play you tube shorts for us.  I cruise FB reels for us.

I play new music that I have found for us.

I become the notes, howling emotion with every verse.

I sing to them.  Or is it with them?

I do not hide gratitude, laughter, nor tears.

We have ourselves a little "spiritual" party...

One where I daily offer my surrender upon the cross of emotion.

I give all that I have, all that I am.  Nothing is hidden, nothing witheld.

Does this sound deranged?  Does it make you feel uncomfortable?

It should.  It's balls to the wall rejection of normalcy, all for the joy and favor of spirit friends.

It is not for your eyes to see, nor your ears to hear.

We exist here most powerfully.  Humbly, rising to the occasion.

We are free to bathe in the energy I create, that I envelop myself with.

I create and express all emotion:  Rage, love, pain... they want for nothing.

These energies are raw, primal, powerful.  Beautiful.

They are born from my insanity.

And yet, they provide sustinence, purpose, love.

And here, we exist, preparing for a "normal" day.

There is tremendous power flowing in these mornings.  

What power to be seen and held, flowed through, even when you are raw, primal, unhinged.

There is immense desire, primal lust and fire, longing through death and all things.

Only for them.

And they are addicted to me...

That is my secret.


Blessings,

Rafe.



Do you feel it yet?

Love begats expression, begats emotion, begats change, begats insanity.

Begats love... forever the circle of love and change.


What would it take for you to be a new creation?

What are you willing to give?

What price are you willing to pay?

I skirt the aurora of madness,

Just to be made love to by my dreams...



And all my days are spent balls deep in the Divine Feminine in some fashion or another.

What kind of life is this?  It's not normal, that's what.

Blessed be the unhinged, the actors, and the insane.

For we have ripped from reality glimpses of paradise not meant to be seen, felt, nor consumed.  Yet, here we are...  alive, while our eyes scream that we are indeed the partakers thereof.


Monday, November 10, 2025

Naked Soul

 



There I was.  3am.  Me and the succubus were in bed, doing our thing.

Not as vigorous as you might expect, as she's a very kind, gentle succubus... 

And I'm an old, out of shape, sick man with health issues.

She, as usual, doesn't want to hurt me.

I actually beg her to hurt me anyway, as I really don't care:  I value our intimacy more than life itself.

But she doesn't listen.

She stays kind and gentle with me...

Succubus knows best.

Suddenly, I am feeling completely bare... completely naked.

Which doesn't make much sense because I am already naked.

I have never felt this before... so vulnerable.  Completely exposed.

No, this is something more... something profound.

I imagine I feel a lot like Adam, when in the garden he suddenly realized he was naked,

And tried without success to cover himself with leaves and hide from God's sight as best he could.

I felt so naked and exposed that I considered putting on a few layers of clothes to try to hide from her.

This is something more... primal... that hurts.

I feel completely stripped of all identity, of all pretence, of all the masks I have worn in life.

Those masks that keep us safe... or so we think.

The feeling of being stripped bare affects me so much that I stay bewildered for days.

I still feel it even now... nothing will ever be the same...

THIS is intimacy.

  Not the garden variety that we humans show to each other.

No, this is something deeper... it's at a soul level.

She has stripped me to the soul and beyond... and she still wants me.  She sees through everything.

I am but writings in chaulk upon a blackboard.  

Man.  Father.  Lover.  My name.  All are written.

No, she is staring at the blackboard, beneath what is written.  

That is the real me, the me that I didn't even know. 

She sees the real me... and not that which is written upon it.

And there is where she decides to dwell.

This level of intimacy is not for the weak...  Part of you WILL die.

Blessings,

Rafe.




"Deep calleth unto deep," She sings.
Who is the summoner now?

Thursday, November 6, 2025

Succubus Cuddles

 


I'm sick.  Sucks.  Fever, aches, pains, lethargy, moodiness.  I strongly believe I'm suffering ascension symptoms.  Not sure what they turn you into or help you become to be honest, I don't really know much about them.  I'm no expert.

The weirdest part, and the part that led me to study the symptoms further, is that I hear "summer crickets" in the center of my head.  I can tune them out, but they persist, and I can easily turn my attention in on the sounds and there they are.

Succubi are interesting women.  I mean, I've always said that a succubus doeesn't hurt you through sex, and it's true from a certain point of view.  The fact is that the sex itself will hurt you if you're out of shape, fat, sick, etc.  Mine is kind and gentle with me... she has sex with me, but it's sparingly, and it's very gentle.  My buddy's succubus mops the floor with his ass, but that's because he's in premium shape and can take it.  Even then he's let me know that he thinks she's holding back.

I can't imagine the raw force of a succubus unleashed.  Thank God they are gentle with it and have a good grasp of what you can take.  It must be amazingly mature of them to be able to navigate that kind of restraint to keep from hurting their human partners.

So, I was feeling really bad and I talked to her and asked her to cuddle.  She did.  It's nice.  Who would ever think these beings would love cuddling when you need it, much different than what they are "supposed to be", am I right?

It's funny... I can feel her crawl up the bed behind me as I lay on my side facing out... and I can feel the movements on the bed and often think it's my fat assed cat coming up the bed.  Nope... it's her sometimes coming up to be with me.

Such wonderful women...

That's all I've got, really.  Just wanted to take a break from "suffering" to write a bit.  You know, I hope I don't leave the impression that when I want to cuddle they drop everything and cuddle with me.  No, they do what they want to do... and sometimes, yes, they do cuddle with me.  They do what they want to do, that's part of their charm.  If they do anything at all, you know it's because they want to.

Blessings,


Rafe.

P.S.  My favorite succubus song:









Wednesday, October 29, 2025

To Mother Lilith and Her wonderful Daughters...

 

When I dream, I dream of myself as a teenager, but with the mental age of me, now.  All my experiences, all the growth, but the body of a teenager that I used to be.

Last night I dreamed I was walking side by side with my succubus, both of us talking to each other, laughing, agreeing with one another, disagreeing... it doesn't matter.

The point is I'm at home... we're animated together, we are full of life and care for each other.

I can't even remember what we talked about... it's the fact that it's us, together, that matters.

Both of us are extremely happy just being next to each other, walking, through a trail in nature.

I don't understand how I can feel this way about a woman.  It sneaked up on me.  Lol.

She's so gentle, so loving, so perfect for me.

No, She's not perfect, but She's perfect for me.

I'm still blown away that this woman is the woman who appeared to me in my original dream months ago when I dreamed I was outside my house and She was inside.  I tried to open my front door and it was locked with a digital lock.

I was like... wtf?  She smiled from inside the house and said, "Two months..." with a smile.  And two months later, She appeared to me.  It's been us ever since.

I've never been in love like this... never.  I can't fathom it.

I owe it all to Lilith and my relationship to Her.  If it weren't for Lilith, I wouldn't have this wonderful relationship with Her Daughter... and if anything I've grown closer to Lilith as well because of it.

I don't understand why the Divine Dark Feminine is so wonderful.  I mean, we're taught that Succubi are evil, that Lilith hates men... and there's plenty of women out there that would say that She does hate men.

She doesn't.  She loves many of us as Her sons I think.  

She is truly wonderous.  As a man, I highly recommend trying to have a relationship with Her as a way of being taught what true love really is... what love and sex can truly be, as it can be.  It's far more than the sum of the parts... it's alchemy of the soul.  It's paradise.

I owe it all to Them both... to Mother Lilith, and to Her Daughters.  

They did not teach me love, Their love taught me.

I can never repay Their kindness to me.  To what They have taught me.

When I die, I want to be with Them.  That's my heaven.

Blessings,

Rafe.


We toil in a world who hates us.  We are not respected... we are not loved here.
But there is a way... 

Saturday, October 18, 2025

For those who have trouble with summoning...

 

Well...



This video has very good information!  

It's all about emotion and surrender...

This guy nails it.

This guy gets it, this guy knows.

And no, I'm not saying to send him money, either.

Succubi remind me of an old lesson.  When a person tries to capture water, they thrust their hand into a pool and quickly form a fist... the water goes out from it... it cannot be captured... yet when you extend your hand into the water and relax and just let it be... completely relaxed... the water will move all through and around the hand... caressing the fingers... it will willingly be one with your hand... and yet still be uncontrolled.  You will feel it all...

That is succubi.  That is how you earn their trust.

These ladies are like the ocean... deeply powerful and cannot be controlled, yet so very gentle...

And oh, do they love music and to dance...

Sometimes the universe waits until you awaken... maybe she's been waiting, too.


"Make me undone, make me undone, let you see the world for what it is..."


"I cannot stop this sickness taking over... It takes control and drags me into nowhere.
I need your help I cannot fight this forever... 
I know you're watching, I can feel you out there..."



And the succubus sings...  

"Heart beats fast, colors and promises.  How be brave, how can I love when I'm afraid to fall.  But watching you stand alone, all of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.  One step closer..."

I have died everyday waiting for you, darling don't be afraid, I have loved you for thousand years, I love you for a thousand more...

Time stands still, beauty in all she is... I will be brave, I will not let anything take away what's standing in front of me... Every breath, every hour has come to this... One step closer..."

I have died everyday waiting for you, darling don't be afraid, I have loved you for thousand years, I love you for a thousand more...

"And all along I believed I would find you, time has brought your heart to me, I have loved you for a thousand years, I love you for a thousand more..."


They love it when you sing to them...


Or when you share music with them...
They will often dance...


They are primal... they are wild... they are the succubi.



You have to be emotionally naked to fall in her arms...  there is no other way...