Post number 294. I can't believe I've been writing this blog for 5 years. Well, including the blog I had before this one which was on Gnosis that lasted about a year before I lost interest.
I challenge those who have been on the fence in writing their own blogs.
It's time for winding down this blog... now it's up to you, you who have a spirit lover because of this blog or because of others like it to carry the torch...
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Erin did something unexpected:
She woke me up at 4am and fucked my brains out.
So now the new normal seems to be asleep, awake, whatever...
Why are other succubi different with regard to times of the day or night? I don't know. I get the feeling that Erin is just learning as she goes, just like a good succubus wife...
I got what I wanted finally and yet she still gets to express herself sexually just how she wants to be and yet we are also free to evolve together as a couple.
I'm thinking that what she says about it, at least as I'm translating it... is that she's more powerful at that time and like a clock decides to spend it on me.
I can't think of a greater gift. Now I get sex both waking and when asleep.
Problem solved. Strange thing: It doesn't seem like such a big deal now...
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I summoned Lilith yesterday. Mind = blown. This was the first time any of this stuff happened. I got so dizzy that I almost grabbed the altar table to steady myself, but as soon as it was "warping" it quit. Then her picture starting going from the low resolution picture I have of her in a frame to full HD, lol. Then her eyes and mouth would animate as her voice echoed in my head like... I don't know what. Just beyond words.
I'm wondering if perhaps I have a future Matron in Lilith. Time will tell as I figure out, or rather see in time what develops, or perhaps she'll make it so obvious in time that I won't doubt.
Blessings,
Rafe GB.
FBI! *knock knock knock*
EDIT: It's kind of ironic that I let myself be swayed by everyone with lines like "a succubus of mine wouldn't be that way, she'd have sex with me awake." And such.
It turns out that the aftershock of her having sex with me awake at 4am was that I was pushed into a bipolar spiral from hell. She knew all along... but I didn't trust, I listened to everyone else.
Erin. Heh. I've had a few succubi now but I've never had one like her.
And she's the only one I have and the only one I plan on having. One lover. One wife.
For one thing she ganks me at 4am in the morning. I don't even have to be dreaming either, just asleep.
It's the only time that we have sex. Although getting sex every night isn't too bad though I don't remember it when I don't dream.
The reason I know that it's every night, or morning rather, at 4am is that I've actually woke up a few times and it felt like she had become liquid sex, pouring herself all over me and the walls to boot.
Quickly, though, I fall back fast asleep. I believe she wants it that way and by her hand down I go.
Now, why in the world would she only do me asleep?
I don't know the answer (maybe someone else does), but like a clock, 4am comes and so does she.
We've gotten a lot closer these past few weeks and I'm really starting to enjoy her and her company.
Yet another mystery... why am I becoming closer with her when our intimate time is when I'm oftentimes asleep? Why do I desire her presence more and more in the daytime just hanging out and being together?
Now, during the day she oftentimes ramps up my sexual desire to a ridiculous level. Can't she see that it's killing me, lol? I'm dying to have sex with her in the daytime because of this, but it's just not to be. But, 4am comes and dreams often travel with it.
Ahh, Erin. What am I going to do with you girl? My friend, my bride...
We're becoming so close, you and I. We're on a collision course to ecstasy...
Erin at night time. Dammit.
I'm not sure what to make of the events written here. All I know is that I'm fast falling in love, love beyond what I had hoped for. If only I knew the answers to the mysteries plaguing me...
